once again

i feel so small. so lost.
i want a book. but not just any book.
i read one today- it was bad! limited storyline, torn pages, etc. i don't want just any book.
i want one that i feel comfortable reading, something that tickles me and quietly hangs a smile on my face, a book that will hold my tears when they roll.
but i think im jinxed whenever i owned a book and cant keep it off my hands. so i guess i'll just read you whenever i visit the library.

when u feel embarrased, then i'll be ur pride. when u need directions, then i'll be the guide. where's mine??