the time when nothing matters

looking back at the pictures taken in Cambodia, i felt pangs of guilt and remorse over ridding me.. i look at the pictures as memories flash and brought me back to another time zone.

and then i realise how things in this "reality" (as my mom would say) is so complicated.
now, everytime i have some free time, i always look back at the times that i spent in Banlung so carefreely, hoping and wishing that i can just relive that moment for another minute.

the times in Banlung seemed so simple, stressless and slow paced.
right now, it is completely opposite; stressful, fast pace of living and complicated socio-cultural considerations.
i dont recall having any sanctions for any social classes, everyone seemed so contented.

on the other hand, that could be my view as an outsider of their daily lives.
i am advocating such harsh "reality" into my own world.


what happened to the times when nothing matters....
we were contented even when we didnt have any advanced technology..
we were happy living each day so carefreely
we were glad that nothing matter in this other dimension of life...





i wanna abandon this huge huge baggage of stress; unload it and gallop into somewhere where things seemed much simpler...

Youthful

as i crossed the road on a chilly rainy day, i saw a colourful bow hanging right in front of me.
for that moment, i thout i was brought back to yesteryears, where everything seemed so simple, stressless and carefree.

and then i realise, the older i get, the lessons i learnt in life got more intriguing and complicated.
a little too many to absorb at times and a little too much to take in at one point.
really feel like taking a break when everything is not in the right place.
avoiding, u may say, but who says it is wrong to run away from things?

it felt amazing how that bow with 7 different pastel shades have made my day.
perhaps this one of the little good things that happens in your hectic life to remind you that theres a little bit of good thing in negative things that are happening right now ..



bring me back to yesteryears

Hall Life

colourful, wonderful, beautiful...
the 1st look at my hall reminds me of chalet..
lotsa greeneries and tier roof short buildings.. no lifts and no private toilets..
however, i think the view here is really nice..
theres an attic which is my favourite chill out spot..
too bad, i dont have any pictures of the attic..

but, i do have a pic of the mesmerising sunrise that greets me every morning...

returning to hall is the one thing that i look forward to everyday..
friends, neighbours, and more friends and neighbours..
freedom is something that i cannot as for more right now...
like an eagle soaring in the wide blue sky.. man, it feels GREAT!

its so out of reach, no one controls any move..
no one questioning where u are going, what time are u sleeping, who are u hanging out with...
it's more like, independent and managing ur own time.. which also means, LADIES NITE!



of course that is not the ONLY activity around.. theres also STEAMBOAT! Yummy~




and also, there's our Drinking Sessions..


and also mahjong session (which unfortunately, i dont have pictures of that.. )

theres also bday celebration..
(which was held at the attic- and i always like to call that my Attica.. heh! )



on the flip side, laundry, cleaning, meals will be on my own... and the more disgusting part will be having to deal with insects... arrghhhh..


yes.. i woke up one day and found this creature lying on the floor.. and my courageous roomie help me swept it out... even now that is dead, its damn disgusting.. i didnt even dare to take the picture of its corpse.. this pic is taken with more than 1m away from the creature and me..

and did i mention that my beloved Toshiba 3yrs old laptop happily died on me?
yea.. for 2 weeks i had to reformat it every week.. like a weekly affair..
so in the end, when my dad and i couldnt revive it anymore, my daddy bought for me a Fujitsu LifeBook!! DADDY!! YOU'RE DA BEST!

isnt she pretty???

anyway.. thats abt all for my hall life..

sch is busy and i'll try to constantly update ma blog.. heh!

its when things seems the best, they often arent...