clubbing trip again

clubbing trip again

alrighty.. here i am trying to recall wad we did last nite...this is the 2nd clubbing trip this week.. really tiring.. went with nim, nic, alvin, fadrick/fadrid.. wadever.. so anyway.. there was a JC party at rouge.. the crowd looks good.. until i realised that almost 70% of the crowd is UNDERAGE!! i knew i was once like that.. but but but... anyway.. we were in the queue since 2215 to 2300.. and the queue is not moving at all!!was so disgusted.. so i got frustrated and was whiney away.. lucky i was with nim, otherwise someone else will juz stuff some unknown object up my mouth.. but nim wanted to do that too.. so anyway..we decided to leave aft a quick discussion.. so we went to Shanghai Sally's.. to realise that there was a bunch of aunties and uncles in their mid-30s to 40s conquering the dance floor.. so lucky it was juz nim n i who went in to take a look first since it was free enterance for ladies..

so in the end we left Shanghai Sally's and went to Cheeky Monkey.. the cover was $20 with a drink.. there was a crowd in there.. and the crowd looks good too.. plus it's R&B and hip-hop all nite..so we danced together.. den it became nim n i.. we went to get shots i think i got 4 and half shots n nim had 4 and a half shot too.. so u can imagine we were kinda high.. at least i was.. so anyway.. nim went onto the podium... n unlike anywhere else, the podium is kinda small.. it can feet like 5 person the max.. so nim went up.. with her short skirt.. she had the limelight.. hahaha.. so she came down and both of us were dancing in the crowd, n forgot abt the guys.. so there was this indian guy- shaun dancing to me.. hoping that i wld dance back.. but i was dogding and getting away from him... so anyway he asked:"can i dance with you" so i said alright.. since i din haf anyone to dance to den n someone was aft nim.. we both danced.. hahahahaha.. we went out to get some fresh air and as i was kinda tipsy he tried to fresh me up.. i was still aware of wads going on.. so i stopped him.. sth worse happened.. but all is well.. im fine n all.. n i kinda ditched him at like 0220 when the club is closing at 0300.. but in the end there was this other guy la.. im not sure if he is a malay or chinese..very cute.. haf an indonesian accent thou..but he is a Singaporean.. so anyway..he was not any better than Shaun.. but it wasnt as traumatising as Shaun's action.. anyway...

down to one conclusion- guys at club are looking for girls that they can bring to a hotel or have sex with.. and a piece of advice for girls- everything is in the name of fun.. know wad u r doing.. stop at where u shld n dun go overboard.. cos we're at the lost...

RESULTS!!!

RESULTS!!!

Results... Piping hot results... juz got it rite from NPal.. YAY!!! i passed my Business Management!! yipee... remember?? business managment?? that paper which i got distracted and forgot the last page?? YUP!!! the result is not good thou.. but THANK GOD.. at least i passed.. alrite.. results for this semester.. hehe... lucky lucky lucky... quite satisfied with the results this time round.. but still can be better... i'll work harder.. so glad that i got an A+ for accounts!!! but truly, hard work pays off well.. and we shld work hard to achieve it... I'LL WORK HARDER FOR NEXT SEMESTER!!

alrite.. now the clubbing part last nite.. i went to join charlotte and her friends at Chinablack..free cover plus free flow.. guys out there, dun pout.. hehe.. the queue there was damn long.. waited for some 15 mins before getting in.. thanx char.. for coming down to acc me in the queue.. hehe.. as soon as we got into the club, i poured down glasses of drinks.. eagerly wanting to get high...so as i was drinking, i saw Henicks(Sandy's fren) again.. and i saw the guy that i danced with at SOS the other time- Daniel.. this is a long story.. trace back:

mid-dec/nov 2003, sandy, nic, shaun, alvin n i went to club at SOS n i cldn't get in.. that was my 1st clubbing experience.. den sandy came.. and she know the guy who held the party that nite.. so u know.. somehow i got in.. anyway.. so we were drinking n drinking.. den a ger fren of one of the guys came.. so we all went to say hi.. it's geting hot in here, so take off all your clothes..sandy and i wanted to dance to this song so we left the guys, n both of us went to the dance floor.. but as soon as we squeezed to the middle of the dance floor, the song stopped.. den sandy saw this 2 guys.. they were wearing the same kinda specs and look kinda similar.. so my very smart sandy popped to one of them(Henicks) a qn:"are you twins??" the ans was no.. den Henicks and sandy was dancing away.. i din wanna dance with his fren so i stood next to sandy and danced to her.. in other words, sandy was being sandwiched... hehe.. den aft quite sometime when they wanted to be alone, Henicks said:"do u mind dancing with my fren(Daniel)??" it was hard to reject.. so i said ok.. den we danced.. n omg.. he had BAD BREATH!!! super turn off.. n he so cant dance!!! anyway.. so that was when i spot Jason.. this tall, muscular, exortic looking guy.. think nim n amanda saw him.. cute rite?!?!?! haha.. so Jason was behind me.. n i so wanted to get away from Daniel.. so i changed direction.. den i danced with Jason.. it's kinda bad la.. but im glad i did.. haha..this is my 1st clubbing experience and the BEST clubbing experience i ever had..

ok.. so back to current situation.. so i saw him.. i dunno if i shld say hi.. n i was laughing away.. thinking wad i did to him the other day at SOS.. it was kinda farni la.. but in the end i still did say hi and went to dance with him in the dance floor.. but too bad.. the music sucked at tt time.. so we din progress much.. din wan to anyway.. haha.. so nearing to the end of the nite, we(char, wj, his fren and i) managed to get onto the podium!! the highest podium.. haha...... it was a nice view up there..looking at how hot pple get and all.. i wonder if it was a nice view for pple at the dance floor cos char n i were wearing short skirts..hahaha.. think that's about it...

I'LL WORK HARD AND PARTY HARD THE NEXT SEM!!

i miss DNA

i miss DNA

im back.. glad that im back.. so i can see u guys again.. but besides this i dun really wanna return to face my the monster at home... anyway.. i left on sunday (16/5) and return on wed (19/5).. it was a hell lot of fun.. thou it's called a camp, we stayed in a hotel, had buffet for all meals from sunday till tuesday afternoon.. den we moved to our camp site.. which wasnt that bad aft all.. we did abseiling on the 1st day.. forward abseiling and backward abseiling.. on two different heights.. 80 feet and 120 feet... i was scared when i was on the top of the cliff... but when i reached the middle part of the cliff, i cant turn back.. so i had to go all the way.. but i haf no regrets.. it was all in the name of fun.. the 2nd day we did rock climbing, flying fox, obstacle courses and night jungle trekking..

n i mean jungle.. where logs, trees and branches falls in a undesirable manner.. and huge grasshoppers, spiders and bettles are right next to you... and looking at fireflies and stick insect in real life in my entire 18 yrs on living.. it was amazing... and how dangerous the jungle is... how close u r to a cliff which is really high from the ground.. n during my solo camping, my torch went dead on me... damn!!! so i was kinda handicapped.. cos it's really dark inside.. so i had to rely on my team mates to shine for me... hehe.. on the 3rd night was the last night and the performance night.. we danced to a chinese song which we learned for only a week.. ai ni by cyndi..

i miss my camp days!!! really!! i miss the weather there.. i miss the activities that i've done there.. i miss the times where i dun haf to face some idiotic monster at home.. i miss living in a hotel room with 2 other room mates.. i miss sharing foot bubble bath with my room mates after night trekking and haf our mini concert while relaxing our feet... i miss having buffet for all meals.. i miss the indian keropok where the chef fries for all buffet sessions... i miss going around cheering for our group... i miss having my group to gather in my room late at night to practice the dance, to discuss bout cheers and grp song... i miss having the facilitators to chase pple outa my room cos it was too late at night and it was suppose to be lights off.. i miss playing games with my grp.. i miss standing at the balcony of my room and start shouting out names.. i miss standing at my balcony and munching dried mangoes.. i miss the long walk from the hotel to where all different activities are at.. i miss my grp mate.. i miss Agu.. i miss Benson.. i miss Perry.. i miss Mr Mark Tan.. i miss playing Archery sneakily at Eco Sports Hall.. i miss night trekking.. i miss abseiling.. i miss rock climbing.. i miss flying fox.. i miss gazing at the stars which u can NEVER see in singapore, not even in Sentosa or East coast... i miss having my group to sit down as a grp to do the grp song.. i miss knocking on the door of my grp mates in the middle of the night to collect out "grp t-shirts" to write 'AGU' for the dance.. i miss taking a bath with real chilly water early in the morning, and the water felt like less than 20 degree celsius.. i miss almost everything there.. i miss my trip there!!!! i miss my DNA camp!!!

my grp song:
ten cows arising
after solo-camping
reaching out to the cow above
who jumps over the moon
take a peek at the starry sky
can you see that cow so high
i say ten cows arising
into the morning light...
chorus:
cow on us Agu
cow on us Agu
cow on us to give the bestest moo
together Agu we will moo
together Agu we will moo

clubbing...

clubbing...

so this is the day when charlotte and i clubbed.. rite.. but in the end we were with wj and eugene... so the 4 of us were together for that night.. we were at chinablack.. from like 9:45pm to 12:00 am or sth like that... n since it was ladies night, char n i din haf to pay for the cover charges n drinks.. too bad tt shots were not for free... bleah! anyway the crowd at chinablack was great.. and the music is marvellous too!!! if not because of piggy, i wldn't wanna go down to zouk too.. yea.. so in the end we went to phuture... char n i popped by zouk to see how retarded the retards looked like.. all doing the same action and all.. you know, the typical mambo night stuff... yup.. n i saw piggy... he was with his ex.. n another 2 frens..

Piggy: who are you with?
me: my fren (pointing at char's direction) and another 2 frens..
piggy: 2 gers and 2 guys huh?! double date?!
me: no.... juz frens la.. who r u with??
piggy: with my ex (showing the i-dun-wan-her-to-be-here face)and 2 other frens
me: oh.. ok... i'll see u ard...

i think this was how the conversation went.. dun really remember.. only if he wasn't with his ex... anyway.. phuture was really crowded!! n i mean crowded.. like a skin on skin kinda thing... cant wait for my next clubbing experience.. i think ladies night is uch fun-ner than wkend clubbing!!! woohoo......

finally!!

finally!!

finally i saw him online last nite!!! YAY!!! n we were chatting n chatting n chatting.. n he was asking if i'm gonna club this wed at zouk... i said mebbe.. alrite.. he said he's gonna be there.... so my dearest clubbing kakis.... pls go zouk this fri... PLEASE.. pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls........ thanx babies!! lurve ya.. MMuuUUaaAAaXXxXXXxxxxXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wad m i thinking??

i dont know wad's wrong.. recently, i've been logging online aimlessly, not knowing what i want, dont know which site to go to and have no idea why m i not logging off!!! somehow i know why is this happening.. because i wanna meet him online.. and i havent seen him on msn for the past few days... agrrrrh... i hate myself when this part of me is showing!! missing someone, and hoping tt i can see him n all.. totally hate this... but y m i not seeing him?!!? something's wrong with his msn?? we're not fated??? maybe it's true that things happen when we least expect them to... oh well.. i'll expect to see him when i less expect it.. hahahaha.. contradicting... ok.. i'll psycho myself.."i'll not see him, i'll not see him, i'll not see him..." so mebbe there's a chance tt i can see him.. hahahaha.. RIGHT!!!

my dearest daniel says tt i seldom mention his name in my blog.. and since he's so nice n is my blog's all-time fan, i shall do this for you dan:
Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!Daniel!!

holidays!! no programs :(

finally the exams are over... holidays!! YAY!! no programs!! BOO!!!! anyway.. ya.. so the horrid period also known as the exams period is over.. the next thing to be worrying for- RESULTS!!! argh!!! so after my last paper today, my friends- Sera, Kerrie and Lionel- and i went to fish n co to give ourselves a TREAT!!! YUM YUM!! kerrie and i shared a Seafood Platter for 2... DAMN FULL CAN?!?! hahaha

so before we left for town, we were in sch..(duh?) so anyway.. lionel was toking to piggy.. so i popped over.. and the very automatic lionel moved away (thanx dude ;)) so anyway.. i was chatting with piggy and there was this kinda awkwardness.. not awkward la juz dunno wad to tok abt tt's all.. so he nudged me.. n i pushed him.. he was like" try pushing me agian.." so i was like push.. n i got shifted instead n he was rooted... so i pushed with all my might.. this time he shifted la.. hahaha how can he not shift?? i'm like strong as a bull can.. ahhaha so after all these pushing business, i left to look for kerrie and co.

so lionel came back and he was like:"huh?? so fast tok finish alrdy ar?? i thout i left so u can tok longer?? the awkwardness is there rite??" there was a reluctance to agree to his question, but i shan't go against my conscience.. there was abit of awkwardness.. not like it's totally not there and not like it'a OBVIOUSLY there.. but like i told lionel, you gain some and you lose some.. the awkwardness was due to some apr fool prank tt i played on him- i told him i had a crush on him and all.. den he said tt it's juz a small infatuation and it'll wear off.. and i said HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL.. cos i din wanna admit tt i was confessing.. so tt's all abt april's fool.. ya.. so i was saying tt i gained some and i lost some.. i gained knowing was he was thinking and how he thout about me.. but i lost the closeness between us..

oh well.. im glad things is this way now.. things dun always happens the way we wan them to.. n like wad char say.. life is abt appreciating.. good tt things are like that now.. anyhow.. not like i regretted playing the so-called prank on him... i've given my best shot n i've got no regrets- william... anyway.. i really need to get myself out of this pile of shitified-admiration shit!!! someone pls pull me up!!n i understand tt i shld be the one pulling myself up!!

lastly, if anyone has any programs or jobs during the hol, leave a tag!!! i NEED something to do in the hols!!

close frens

san: u dun FIND close frens
san: u MAKE close frens
san: me n you were so buay gam last time
san: y r we best frens now??
san: if i can FIND u as my best fren
san: we wouldnt have gone thru the "i hate ky,i hate sandy" part
san: rite?

appreciative?? unappreciative??

I was talking to my date- Daniel last night..
Dan: let me tell you wad has been on my mind for the past few weeks..
Me: ok.. and what is it??
Dan: i feel that when u r happy, you're with piggy, n only when you're sad that you're with me..
THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!!!! Not true.. it should be like "when I'm with piggy that I'm happy.." not like when I'm happy I'll throw my arms around him..NOT TRUE NOT TURE!!! And if you're reading this, Daniel, I'm happy when I'm with you too.. and it's not like I do NOT appreciate you!! I do!! U ought to be shot even having this thout to cross ur mind!!! so.. anyway, we continued..
Dan: and I feel that he is not appreciating you the level of appreciation you have for him..
Me: be contented with what you ALREADY have..
Dan: ya.. but I think you should be appreciated more than this..
Me: life will be better if you think of what you already have and be contented with it rather than thinking of what you CAN/ SHOULD have, and make yourself miserable.. and that expecting a little lesser will make your life much happier.. isn't it so??

See, it's a long way that I reach this stage.. not like we're attached or we're living happily ever after sort of thing..but more like looking back at what you didn't have.. I had this OMG-he's-here feeling even before I know he's name, even before I know he's a nationality, even before I know he was from some boy school, even before I know he's a damn good athlete.. although all of these sort that I mentioned is like written all over his face.. hahahahah.. moving along, so ya.. this OMG-he's-here feeling continued from last sem to this semester..

This guy that I first saw in my S&W, last semester, cheering Carol on for her standing broad jump! I think that was when I noticed him.. he became my motivator.. cos he motivated me jumped like damn far.. like a 170 or something like that.. anyway.. since then he's been known as my "MOTIVATOR".. then this semester, I was in the lift in block 50 going for my very first CATS lesson..in the lift, SK n JY was asking me which class I was in.. so I was like "er.. T38D and T58.. wad bout u??" and before I could even finish my sentence, I felt this guy peering through the people in the lift and finally my eyes met his.. I think that was when he realize my existence.. then we entered the same class room.. We became CLASSMATES!!! I was thrilled by the fact that we're in the same class for at least one module.. soon, our tutor wants us to be split into groups.. my dearest friend, Ching Yi, somehow manages to get Piggy into our group.. she rox man!! So we were in the same project group for IAC and CATS.. this brought us even closer to each other.. especially IAC cos we had to do come community service kinda thing.. so ya.. we got even closer.. and sometimes when we were talking, he wouldn't mind telling me wads on he's mind and sometimes he wld say his prob too.. but really seldom la.. better than nothing rite?? so one day I went clubbing with my usual clubbing kakis at Shanghai Sally's n I gave him a msg saying that the club was REALLY EMPTY!!! And I meant really empty!! And he CALLED me back!! He was saying that he might be going to Zouk later on, and tt we cld go together next time.. COOL!! And on my Bday nite, he knew that we were going to club, he was sweet in a way.. he said "if ANYTHING, call me" but in the end he din appear too.. anyway, so I was sharing with him the pics tt we took on my bday nite, he commented tt I looked gd *shy shy* hahaha.. so I was asking him why is his status always 'away' on msn?? He said that's cos he doesn't wanna talk to some pple and he doesn't wanna chat with so many pple in a time.. but he'll reply most of the time to pple that he wanna chat with, pple like me, he dun mind talking to.. *awwwwww* blush!!! we also exchange songs, pics, craps n lotsa craps over the msn!!! See.. he isn't that unappreciative after all..

So you see, from a TOTAL STRANGER to a PROJECT MATE, then to a FREN.. not like we're SUPER CLOSE FRENS but be glad that at least we're not on BAD-TERMS.. isn't that enough?? What more should I even ask for right?? What else can I ask for??? Shouldn't I be contented already?? Considering the fact that we were TOTAL strangers.. what I should do is to thank God for what He'd given me, and that I should be contented with what I have and be happy with it.. isn't it amazing how things are placed in your life?? How you can be related from a stranger to a friend..

I'm contented with what I'm having now, or what i already have.. and probably we cld go clubbing together someday.. hahaha.. wish wish wish.. n I hope that things will remain like this (or better will be good.. geez).. but shan't be greedy la!! anyway, this is just a crush/ infatuation after all, so I dun really put too much hope in this.. cos the higher the expectation, the heavier the fall will be.. yup.. n if he ever sees this blog, I'LL BE SO DEAD!!! So pple who have access to this blog, pls dun give this webbie away.. kinda personal, but I dun mind sharing with close frens like YOU!!! Thanx people!! MUAX!!!!!!