PHI PHI!!

im now paying 2bht/min to blog! haha!!
anyway.. all is great here.
just the weather is a little disappointing..

besides that everything else was like fireworks of orgasms! hee


i REALLY WANNA DIVE!! BAH!



i wanna stay onnnnnnnnn

The Mood Elevator!


ok.. im officially ABNormal!! hahahaha

im getting damn high and HAPPY as i was reading this:
http://www.ppscuba.com/divetrips.htm#hindaeng

and oh.. by the way, for any Audience ANY!! that is reading my blog, OR is concerned with what is going on in my life,

KAHYANNY IS GOING TO KRABI IN DECEMEBER!!!!


hehehe..

okie.. i concluded it should be Exams and Japenese STRESS!! but im damn HAPPY NOW!!

so now i know.. when im sad, down, or unhappy, i just need to look harder into some Traveling Info! it works better than watching videos!! (=


!!WOOT!!

Lost Way

it was a road with hurdles.
i jumped, and took big strike across.

now i feel that i have, at the same time, leaped across faith.

I lost faith along the way.



gone with the wind. pls return soon

and seriously.

Just when you think everything in life is going perfectly smooth,
that's when you are overlooking something that is going very wrong!

Terms and Definitions

i dont know what am i more confused.

the fact that we are neither black nor white, or the grey terms that perpetually surfaces.
however, on the other hand, some not-so-grey terminology, or rather, terminologies near the extreme end of Black (as well as White) has been surfacing as well..


At this point, frustration has built such a tall wall. going way taller than the sky-high confusion!


yes, grey can be very nice, when instructions are strictly abided, at an appropriate timing!


and my fear of all has just dawn on me that, it probably is an out of sight, out of mind thing.
im scared, fearful, afraid, frightened, horrified, terrified!


Gah! i am starting to ignore! humph!

Halloween Party!

My first EVER in my 21 years of living..

Allow me to digress a little.. speaking of 21 years, I AM FEELING EXTREMELY OLD!

goodness-gracious!

I was just talking to some friends about how we were young, and stupid things that we did in Secondary School which constantly get us into trouble and how they dont even matter now AT ALL.

Like whether viewing a "Gang Fight" would have a black mark in ur testimonial.. or something along that line. the fact is, as you go up the education level, people only ONLY ONLY care about your latest achievements, like what you;ve done in poly/JC/Uni.

Resume being the best Example! who is interested in what you've done in Secondary School? all people care about is ur contributions and achievements in the later part of your life! bah!

And then i got disgusted at how i was afraid i'll be marked down for the rest of my life! which is all just bullshit!

anyway.,.. coming back to what I have started with! YES!!

MY VIRGIN HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!

and oh yea.. it was hell lot of fun looking at how people dressed up and all..

but the only regretful part was that i wasnt prepared to go for a Halloween Party. My "Costume" wasnt even something that I would say is refreshing and nice..

My head accessory was a present for my 21st birthday! hahaha. and that dress is ermm just some white dressy stuff..

and here are more pictures!

I went with my friend, Joyce, who dressed up as a mamasan! hahaha. with the Chiong Sum and a mole that she drew on herself. which can hardly be seen from here. see the little mole on her left cheek? yup.. thats the one!

Along with us was (from Left to Right) a Slut, the Mamasan, the Angel, and a Witch! and then it was the incomplete family of the not-so-power-rangers! hahahah

and as the lost angel ran into Sadako! who was also in a white dress! geez

and finally found my Priest to calm my nerves! hahahaha

it was all at Plush! we went down to Zouk, only to find the SUPERWHOOPERDUPER Long Queue! so, on that night, Plush was like enjoying the spill-over effects from Zouk.. hahahah

it was quite a good night.. only i was filled with guilt tt i should have spent time studying instead.

but it was great and a fruitful *winks winks* night! hehehe

Obvious Pattern

Its time for me to multi-task and juggle well!
Everytime after a somewhat perfect date, I would set up this HUGE and ENORMOUS expectations, which promptly blow-up on my little face.

Or so to speak, I tend to put all the devil eggs in one small little basket.

Maybe I should spread it around a little more; date a few people at once, then, I wont feel so disappointed. HAH!

No one should ever fall ino this one-guy-at-a-time pattern. Its too risky. Unless of course, its a relationship, then, that is a different story!

some might say, u'll learn from ur past experiences, and so, when someone similar comes along, you know what to expect from this person.

and then i wondered ....


"are we all victims of conditioned responses, doomed to repeat the same unconscious relationship patterns? or are we all just, in fact, dating the same person over and over again??"

Ignore

The Previous Post.
Due to lack of Friends Advises.
BAH!

Ignore the previous post

Note to The Wild Rose

Dear Wild Rose,

Thank You for being around, sticking by me for the past 6 to 9 months.
The times that I traveled-light, you were my best companion.
Thank You for taking a breather as I return to this heavily-priced contest.

Also, Thanx for your concern.. But after more than a year, I think I can finally peel myself off the ending point of the last race, and continue running from a new starting point. I would prefer this to be a super-duper-long-distance marathon and not a sprint. Please pray and hope that I will NOT experience the tears-choke-in-throat syndrome, or anything that will make this race a sprint rather than a super-duper-long-distance marathon.

I hope for the best for you, Rose. But do keep me in mind to constantly return to check on me.

This is a request for appointment with you.
If one day you're informed about me missing someone painfully, and crying desperately, please return and be part of me again.


Elbaren Luv





The Wild Rose http://www.okcupid.com/personality?type=RBLD&g=0&o=1

kick it off now!

Say NO! to addictive stuff!

I dislike marijuana.
I dislike ciggerattes.
I dislike drinking
I dislike muching on chips
I dislike fluttery butterflies in my stomach
I dislike playing sudoku
I dislike procrastinating
I dislike constantly checking on my phone
I dislike sitting outside my room!


no me gustan!

Heck la!

It just dawns on me that we all originated from Africa, and because of the shift in the earth plate, it formed different continents..

So all these different continents, countries, nationality, religion, culture, upbringing.... were once the same.

And so i wondered. How is it people of the same origin have their very original ideas?

And if the earth plate is going to move again, and then the end of the world is approaching,

1) Why does anyone still care so much about what they are working for now, for a future unknown.
2) When is it reaching?
3) Do I have any unfinished business?
4) Where do we all go after that?


To the place unkown

Pulau Pangkor..

i know i took a long time to put this up.. but i get very annoyed everytime i insert a picture, there'll be this extremely long space in between entered space.

it was a mid-term break well-spent! 1st half of it was busy with the presentation and from thursday (27 sep) till Saturday (29 Sep) we were in Pulau Pangkor..

and this is how it went...

Day 1(27 Sep)
2030 we set off from Golden Mile, starting our journey for the recce of my hall's Overseas Expedition! and then there were pee stops bla bla bla.. and everyone slept.

Day 2 (28 Sep)
we arrived at Lumut, port town of Pangkor at 0715. it was as empty as a ghost town. on the other hand, there were beautiful scenes. finally, we arrived at the ferry operations and got our ticket. During which, irrational decisions were made.. we booked a room through an agent.. something that all travellers shouldnt do! u know, the middleman commission, bla bla bla..

at 0830, we board the ferry... unlike the speed boat to Perhentian, it was filled with locals instead of expats... and unlike the perhentian trip, we werent greeted by nice beach chalets. instead, we were greeted by this... and this...

finally, we arrived at Pangkor at 0920. we hussled through the taxi drivers and ended up at a local coffee shop for our breakfast!

being new to the island, we asked around for car rental, and the owner of the coffeeshop actually rented to us his Kancil at 60RM for the whole day! he didnt ask for I/C or license, just passed us the key after we paid the 60RM. maybe this is the trusts that these islanders have.

and as soon as we checked in, we checked out the beach! doesnt it look pretty?!
we lazed aroundand enjoyed our jetski! it was SOOOOO thrilling!! the speed was so fast that, being a pillion i almost plucked my rider off her seat with me! hahaha.. after 15mins we switched over and i had control of the vehicle! and the wind resistance was sooooo strong that i had to put in alot of effort to keep my hands on the steer. so i ended up with muscle aches! and this is Mi Mi! hahaha.. our cute, compact car..

around 3 plus in the afternoon, we decided we couldnt take anymore sun, so we searched around for food. but being the puasa month, nothing is open.. until we found a small cosy little eating place..

I ordered Asam Laksa. it was SOOO spicy! but it is something that i never had in Spore before!

and some had other things for lunch.. such as chicken noodles and yee mee..

and not too long later, it was time for sun set!









with Mi Mi, we raced to the west coast of the island and this was presented to us graciously!

and then we had DINNER!! at this Co Co Restaurant.. the name may sound cheesy, but the food was omg-yummilicious!!

we had steam fish and Kang Kongdeep fried sotongand my favorite of all, the drunken prawns!and after dinner we had some Karoke session..

and we get to know the boss of the restaurant, and i desperately needed contacts, so i had to entertain him.. bah!we returned to our room at 11 plus at night and everyone was damn tired.. so Day 3 comes..

Day 3(29 Sep)

we left the room at 0800 for breakfast.. we were too hungry, so we couldnt capture the pic of the food!

and they had some interesting posters. on the left hand side of the old man, theres a yellow poster which reads "space bao" (technology, aging man n a lonely cat)

so we ordered it.. it was merely bread with kaya toast! it was yummy!

after breakfast, we took Mi Mi and went on to recce another part of the island which we have not explored.. half way through, the road got so steep that the car couldnt go any further..so we turned back into the town area and found this ikan billis island! and here are some of the pics around the island.. and we decided to check out the snorkeling scene there..and it was BAD! there were fishes but the visibility SUCKS!

something more rewarding would be this! Barbeque seafood on the beach!

did some last minute shopping and at 1530, we left the island, heading back to Lumut.

the grassland coach arrived at around 1930 and we headed back to Spore

Day 4(30 Sep)

at 0430 we arrived back in Spore! Home sweet home!

That's how i spent my term break

Whoopiee!!!

yay!! all the hectic and sleepless nights.. hahaha..
oops* actually i did sleep more than my 2 other team mates, and one of whom can be so irritating that it gets on my LAST NERVE! humph!

anyway, the "sleepless nites" were for the preparation of the presentation for the CapitaLand Marketing Awards!

and whooppiiee!!!! we emerged as the 1st Runner Up!!

hehehe.. i know, u are thinking wad so big deal abt it right.....

the thing is that our proposal was only done the night right before the submission date and our slides were ok... it was concentrated on graphs and tables, but the design was something that we could have improved on.. so ya..

anyway, the prize was a trophy and $800 voucher for CapitaLand Malls! heh heh heh..



now, dont be jealous! *winks*

smiling all the way

i had trouble wiping the smile off my face as i skipped back happily from class..

not only was it the commencement of my Recess Week,
it is also one of the best calls that interrupted my class! hee..

So, in mid-september, wanting to have more things to be included in my resume, and thinking that school will not be THAT bad, i decided to joined CapitaLand Marketing Retail Awards with 2 other team mates.

and then the day to submit proposal arrived.. my team procrastinated for 3 weeks and we finally met up on the night before the submission date to work through the proposal!

Let's just say the night's effort wasnt down the drain....

this competition is held throughout all tertiary institutions in Spore and about 102 teams submitted their proposal.. and guess wad, my team and i arrived in the SHORTLISTED 5 teams among the 102 teams! hee...

the winner of the competition will be having an internship in CapitaLand China! woot! and the 5th team gets $300 CapitaLand voucher for consolation.. so anyhow, i would still have the voucher! heh!!


cant help but to smile from ear to ear

THE HONG KONG TRIP!

hehehe.. i know i went on the trip like LONG ago..
to be exact: 14 July to 18 July

hee.. and only NOW tt im updating it onto my blog.. *Blush*

Day 1: 14/7 -on the plane-

our flight departed Changi Airport at 0820. Imagine the time that i had to wake up at.. hur hur.. and here u can see how sleepy i looked!

The last time i flew was in Mar '06! and it was on a budget airline. all i have to say is that similarly, CX didnt have sufficient leg room. and the only enternatinment on flight-the TV thing- also came down with some technical errors :(

with nothing much else to look forward to, Breakfast was the last item i had on mind. And this was how it turned out...

the breakfast was erm, alright la.... just alright. 2 very soggy hasbrown, one extremely oily bacon, which flew all over me! so i smelt like a walking tomato! AND... the omelette wasnt very appetizing! it was lesser than alright.. oh! and there were 2 stalks of overcooked Aspharagus! =(

on the other hand, my mommy chose a different set of breakfast.. this looks better? hmmm


and on a lighter note, my hair DID get static-y and straighter and also softer! hehehe (according to nim's theory, this is wad SHOULD happen when you r on a plane! )

Day 1: 14/7 -after touch down-
we touched down at 12+ and after that we headed to get some liqour for my aunt -who stays in HKG-

afterwhich, HKIA follows up to the story of a-disappointing-Day1-in-HongKong! Hoping to be an asian hub, they have a not-long-enough travelator and their queuing system is definitely something that they should be improving on! or rather their allocation of manpower.

as you see, it was a saturday, knowing its a peak period, most of the custom counters were closed. so poor travellers had to wait and queue in a very messy looking queue..

after we went through the gates, it was yet another continuation of the disappointing story! Win's Travel made us wait for an HOUR for ALL their customers (and highly possibly from another plane) to arrive before making their way.. it was slow and inefficient!
PS: i still smelt like a tomato.

at 1615, we finally arrived at our hotel- Majestic Hotel. which was located along...

at night, we went on the night tour! it was not a disappointment AT ALL! in fact, i totally loved all of it!

first, we went for dinner at a freezing restaurant! thereafter, we proceeded to The Peak.. the view was fabuloso! im not sure whether cos it was a saturday night or is it everynight they have fireworks.. i was yearning for more!

but from the peak, the lights performance at the avenue of stars was visible..

so here's a pic from The Peak! hehehesoon after, we headed to Madame Tussade, the wax museum.. had tonnes of fun there!

here are some pics.. n my parents refused to take pictures! and this is Arron and Iand then, meet me and Princess D
and then meet my Royal Family! and this guy with the same initials as i do! heh
the only pic tt my parents took with the waxed figurines.. hee.. check out how naughty my mommy is! and Marilyn Monroeand then we headed to the Avenue of Stars and we ended the night tour with a ride on a open-deck bus. something like our Hippo bus.. enjoying the night scenes of Hong Kong. the bill boards and crowd! Day 2: 15/7 -Hong Kong: Shopping and Eating!-

after a LOOOONNNNGGG first day, we finally had time to ourselves.. planning our own itinerary.. yay! and this is the day, I OWN A WETSUIT! hehehehe.. so egg-cited! it was cheaper than Singapore, so i bought it!

and this was how our morning Dim Sum went.. food, food and MORE FOOD!!

after dim sum, we went to the New Territory of Hong Kong, similar to our Choa Chu Kang or Seng Kang.. to meet my aunt! the last time i saw her was when i was 14.. so you do your maths! she's very outspoken (as of almost ALL the other HongKong citizens are hee..) and i love her to bits! and then we went to some heartland malls, and bought some snack! hee.. eating away AGAIN!in case you cant figure out wads that, its some small fried crabs.. like calamari.. it tasted quite nice and oily! hahahah

before we went for dinner, we passed by some wetmarket.. and then it was DINNER!! it was at a Hawker Centre, similar to the Chinatown Market and the shops there are those zi cha stores.. my aunt loves to drink.. so during dinner time she only eat the dishes accompanied by a bottle of beer. after dinner my daddy went back to the hotel, cos it was too draining for him, while mommy n i went to SHOPPING!

Day 3: 16/7 -day trip to Shen Zhen-

dont have much pic of Shen Zhen cos i was too scared to take my camera out! hahaha..we went to Lo Wu Commercial Centre and it was kinda gross. they actually allow people to smoke in the centre! and the service attitude of the people there SUCKS big time!

anyway, their shoes are EXTREMELY CHEAP! my best buy there was a pair of green polkadots wedges! only for S$4!! and the food was finger-licking good! and a pair of flat bottom boots at only S$8!!

if you ever go to Shen Zhen head down to Dong guan.. its a placed filled with Shopping Ctrs! but i had a very bad gastric pain, so i didnt want to walk at all! =(

Day 4: 17/7 -shopping day spent at Causway Bay-

when you visit Hong Kong, Causeway Bay is definitely a place that you would want to visit! it was FLOODED with Shopping Centres and Shopping Arcades everywhere corner you turn! let's talk about the food first! hehe..

check out these yummy yummy food! *slurps* back to the shopping.. its good, but on the other hand, the prices are way too high, esp after the visit to Shen Zhen.. there were flourescent paper writing all shoes priced at HKD300! (eqv to S$60) i dont think thats cheap enough to be flaunting on some bright coloured paper!

grr.. another nerve wrecking thing was my mom! i think thats also another reason why i havent been on a trip with my parents for so long! cos my mom can be very annoying.. everytime i buy something, she'll nag saying you've got so many clothes bla bla bla.. when will she every stop!? argh!

as it was our last night in Hong Kong, my aunt came and join us for dinner.. this time we went to the Dai Pai Dong! the ones that are on the streets.. but becos it was kinda a touristy thing, it was air-conditioned! and boy, check out the food! it was yummylicious-finger-licking-mouthwatering-heavenly-tasty! and this! is my favourite dish among my favourite meal!! yummy!!

Day 5: 18/7 -the last rush!-

so we have reached our last day in Hong Kong.. the plane will be departing Hong Kong at 8pm.. and so we are left a few more hours for the last minute shopping!

i managed to buy a bag and the rest of the day was just dessert, food, desert, and more food! hee.. we arrived with only 2 luggages and returned with so many more! ehehe den we headed to the airport and it was home sweet home..

Busy AGAIN!

yep! welcome back.. to the busy again part of my life! BAH!
its been 6 weeks into the semester and things are not getting any better..

before the semester started, i was deciding whether to specialise in HR Consultancy or Marketing.. which, in my point of view, is offered everywhere... in SIM, NTU, NUS, SMU.. and many other private institute.. u get the drift..

on the other hand, HRC is not everywhere.. various institute offers HR management.. but NTU is like the only one offering HR Consultancy..

and from some statistics thing, HR is the next big industry that people wants to enter, with Banking coming in first.

so, when i was given HRC i didnt hestitate to accept it.. but now im regretting BIG TIME!! :(

the readings are piling up.. exams are not open book.. sigh..



i hate my life!

The Perfect Equation


feelings are like algebra formulae..

x(clinginess) + y(own life) = perfection


so what determines the x and y value in this equation?
what ratio of x and y would be perfect?

should x>y or should y>x?

when it comes to MY PERFECT EQUATION, it's difficult to achieve a 100 marks, as it changes from time to time, just as my stand sways at the different times.

there are times i feel i need someone, so more clingyness would be good..
but at times tt i feel comfortable with myself and independent, i would prefer the other party to have his own life..



so, does the problem lie on me?

ticking clock

just as i was preparing to go for my sleep, i got a news that my lecturer in my previous institute passed away.
its just sad to know that people move on.

be it in a relationship or in life..

when the clock ticks and strike a certain timing, their life is taken away.
or for that matter, when the timing is wrong, sometimes things are no longer the same and people move on.



why is it that the clock never stop ticking?

cuddle huddle

it's been a tiring week..
just finished my Freshmen Orientation Camp on friday, and im dead tired..
not tt i was the freshmen, just tt i was part of the camp..

when all the hectic and busy 5 days came to an end, i hate it!
i should be happy.. but i wasnt.. i grew to enjoy the days filled with activities from day to night.
and when suddenly my days are free again, i started thinking..

do i really like to be alone?

do i really enjoy my singlehood as much as i proclaim?


the answer to the both question is NO!

i do want someone to be there, someone to cuddle with, and someone to laugh with or whine to..
like many other single girls out there, i do want to have another certain someone.
but the thing is, the right things just NEVER falls in the right place. *sigh*

i want the cuddlings and smooching...
someone who puts me to sleep, someone who cares about me, someone who i can have pillow talk to.. maybe like nim said- i need a pillow buddy..


but i guess all these wants are not powerful enough for me to take the risk of getting into another relationship only to find out its the end of it.


and after i met the last heartbreaker, everyone else just pales in comparison.
no one makes me laugh like he did.
no one moo moo me like he did.
and no one tease me like he did.

im no longer thinking about him, but....


after having a Godiva truffle, it's hard to settle for a cadbury chocolate bar..

over the moon!

im over the moon and on cloud nine!
hehehe.. why are all these idioms related to the sky?
gee.. maybe i should come up with a i'm above the stars.. hahahaha

anyway.. things cant get better!
I GOT A SINGLE ROOM IN HALL!!!! YAY!!!

and in 7 hrs time i'll be on Cathay Pacific flight no. 99405028756728011-58747939480283091

it's been sooooooooooo long since i went on a proper flight that serves food and beverages..
im hoping that they'll serve us sumptous breakfast! do u think they serve prata?

anyway.. this weekend is a gonna be a boring weekend in Spore..
cos EVERYONE (well, ok.. most of MY friends and of course, ME!) is out of town..

nim, as ALL of us know, is freezing in Sydney..
and charlottey wants to experience the freezing cold as well.. she's heading to GENTING on sunday w her bestie..
and thats not all... my 2 body guards, weiliang n gary left for bangkok yesterday..

so basically this weekend is a ghost town here.. boo!

oh! and not to mention tt my daddy is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SWEEEEEEEET!!!!!!!!!!
he gave me HKD$2500!! which (according to my reliable-and-by-my-side converter calculator) is equivalent to S$488.28... *gasp*


enjoy ur ghost town as i do my shopping spree!!! (=

Kahyanny Heading to HONG KONG!!!

heheheh... since EVERYONE has went / on / going on a holiday, i should too!!
muahahaha!!

Kahyanny is leaving this island on 14 july heading to Hong Kong..
havent been there in a LONG time ... this time I'm going with my daddy n mommy!
its gonna be an all expenses paid trip.. well, since they are there!!! hehe

can anyone *ahem*nimrta*ahem* recommend me somewhere to shop in HKG?
can someone tell me where in ShenZhen can i find nice cheap stuff????


looking forward to mua vacation! *grins*

Wednesday blues

i thought it was just one time last week that it was a dreadful wednesday..
but noooooooo.... today is just as bad!! =(

so dreadful.. dont feel like working AT ALL!!
been playing hearts since i settled down this morning.. bah!

im bored.........

oh! and i checked my results for espanol.. got a B!!!
well, average la.. but was expeting more....



bah!

AHHHH CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! *mucus splats on the screen*

my office is always so cold.. brrrrrrr
everyday i sneeze more than TEN times in here...

and now that all the cats went strolling out, this little mouse here comes out to blog! hehehe..

so funny how my life revolves around Mohammad Sultan.. hah!
did i mention that my work place is at MS? ya.. its at No. 6 Mohammah Sultan..

i've been a frequent of MS since i was 17..
from cheekys to Phunk Bar and then it was O Bar
and now, Dbl O..

did i tell u guys tt my yummylicious birthday cake was also gotten at MS?
ya.. just 2 shophouses away from my current temp job place.. tee hee..

anyway.. i was supposed to be jobless as of yesterday.. but they decided that they are short of manpower and really needed to finish their research soon, so they decided to make me stay for another 2 to 3 days.. YAY!! money come money come!!


okie.. the cats are coming back.. i better go back to work before i become a dead rat!


when the cats are out the mice come out to play!

Endless Clubbing/ Pubbing

What have i been doing this holidays?

i've got to attribute my wednesday and friday/ saturday nights to the endless clubbing and pubbing that i have been doing ever since school ended.. hah!

the last time i posted something regarding clubbing was A LONG TIME AGO!

on the same night that i return from Pulau Perhentian, i met up with some hall mates at Velvet Dragon..
I've witness the growth of that area. when i was 17, it was S.O.S and when i turned 19, it became Momo. and now, its taken over by Velvet Dragon.. hahaha.. like the imitation of Velvet Underground.. hahaha.. well, personally i havent been to Velvet Underground, but the name of Velvet Dragon is just so... erm... cheesy..

and then came Dbl O's 7th Anniversary!! where nim n i got invited to.. since our dear girly works there as a barmaid.. hehehe.. thanx char!

that night was fast.. haha... drinks were coming in one aft the other like an open tap! and aft the free flow was over, lychee martinis kept pouring in courtesy of som uncle there. and only after the party tt i realised the WHOLE night dbl o was closed for this party which is INVITES ONLY! WOOT!


then there were alot of other party-goers whom i've been clubbing with..

my 2 other Mambo goer! always feel safe ard them... like 2 bodyguards going to zouk w me! hehe..
but whatever it is.. nothing beats the company of the GIRLIES!! heh heh..





we started of with cheekys and later moved on to China black.. and who could have thought that we are still clubbing together aft 4 yrs!





here we are today... and our dearest charlottey is a barmaid.. never thought she would be in this line.. but she looks happy.. so im happy for her.. plus more "connections" hee.. *grins*

this is how we look now........

and this was then..............................................

............................... when we 1st started out to club! haha! this pic was taken 3 yrs ago... when we were still TEENagers..

n now at a blink of eyes, we are all ADULTS! *euwwee* sounds so scary! we are now of legal age to step into ANY clubs in Singapore !

no longer trying to befriend bouncers to get into clubs..

no longer sneaking in from the back door..

no onder using fake IDs.........

but something different is that nowadays, we've become more of an economical clubber.. always trying to take public transports to our destination. always looking out for parties that allow free entrance or eyeing on ladies night..

time has shown the footprints tt we left behind! (=

Dreadful Wednesday.

Today is a DREADFUL DAY!!! so boring.... yawn..
all i do is to go online to look up for the details of hotel.
not that i mind.. but its just that the network is so SLOW! gawd!

just copy and paste some hotel telephone no. to excel took FREAKING TWO MINUTES!!!!
can u imgaine how S-L-O-W this computer is?

and after every engine search, the internet go off to error page.

SO STOOOPID!!


yada yada yada.... im bored! BOO!!!

I'm Empowered!~


i just had my Espanol exam... phew..
it's gonna be party party tonight!

and it's been a long long long long LONG time that i feel good when i stepped out of the exam hall.
i'm always frowning, sighing, running away from pple... haha..
but this time round, i feel good.

i feel empowered.
i feel great.
and it makes me feel on cloud 9..

i guess there really is a difference btw a paper tt you've completed the revision n tried the pass yr papers with papers that have incomplete revision and everything else was incomplete.




i feel good.. na na na na na

new blogskin!

u thought my blog is dead, didnt you?! heh..

my new blogskin!! u like it? i love it! that's perhentian- my paradise.

ya.. kinda plain ya.. but who wants to volunteer to edit for me?? :D

its kinda late to post these.. but well.. better late than never!

since my last post......................

-April-

Needless to say, it's the MOST IMPORTANT month of the year! cos its my birthday..

and guess what ? i'm alrdy an ADULT! gawd.. cant believe it!

but due to exams i cant celebrate my adulthood in the most date of the year. i could only do it after exams.. which i still manage to squeeze it into april yep!

so on 30th Apr, which was also my last paper, i had THE PARTY of the YEAR !~

scroll down for piccies!

Its a really nice cake. should have got a bigger one. didnt expect the great turn out!

check out the stuff my mommy prepared for me? ~muacks!~

after checking out the food, now check out the guest list!

*drums roll* top on the list, the BCs!

next up, my hall mates!

my GESS friends

my relatives ...

there were more pple.. but the party was going for so long, and so did my energy.. so the pics got lesser n lesser..

as the party went on, there were booze, mahjong, card games, and of course babes n hunks! heh.. but i was busy fluttering around like a social butterfly, making sure my guests are alright n having fun..

it was very tiring to be host!

ma mommy n daddy who helped alot in the preparations since i was still burying my nose in the tonnes of books preparing for exams.. *choopsy* THANX MOM! N DAD!

and many thanks to norisa, farhanah (who was the camera women heh..), ming n some other friends who came earlier to help up!

N not forgetting nim who helped me w the invites, and Harpreet who helped me w the bday board!

thanx amigos! so that was about all for the party.

-May- (04/05/07 - 11/05/07)

yet again another beachy/bitchy trip.. heh..
n once again, its back to my paradise- Perhentian..

this time round the trip was made with..

norisa (pic from farhanah) Farhanah and dan (pic from farhanah)

at first i didnt really enjoy myself, thinking that i could have used the money somewhere else instead of going back to the island tt i've alrdy been before. but then again, i had fun.

the last time i went i stayed on the left side of Long Beach while this time round, i was at the right side. addition, we had a longer stay this time as compared to the last one.

this time round, i went to coral bay.. it was just farhanah and me, and we tried nude tanning. ok.. i tried nude tanning when we came to this pier with no one around. little did we know that the deserted pier was actually a location where people are brought to see sun set! hahaha..

can you imagine how embarrassing it was to have twenty odd tourists wandering around me n i was topless! hahahah.. it was funny!

so, you see. this was how empty it was. NOBODY! just the 2 of us!

2 hrs later.....

Judgement Day!


tmr is the day...


the day that judges whether i'll continue playing piano for the rest of my life...


i'm scared.... far beyond scared. at this point only i realised that its late.....


not enough effort; not acceptable attitude...


my last shot! and if this goes down, perhaps i'll only continue it aft my uni...
and that means uncertain; may or may not...




i can only hope for the best.

Scaredi Scaredy


this week as compared to last week, is an equally busy week!

still quizzes of something that i havent been consistently studying for
and presentations
and more assignments due
and more quizzes..


but..

this week is even more stressful!

cos..

i dont have back ache = no MC
i have a very dreadful exam to take ----> my Grade 8 Practical Exams..
the thout of it sends chill to my spine! mind u.. this is my 2nd attempt for this exam..
and if i dont get through i might just as well say goodbye to my Grade 8 Certificate...


im scareddddd.... bah...




i hope this week gets through in a breeze so i can welcome another week which is still full of quizzes.. argh

The Long Awaited !


my dearest group of fren is suggesting that they might go to Perhentian in May!!!
which happens to coincide with my HOLIDAYSSSSS!!!!!!


woot!


CANT WAIT!!!!


heh heh...



den i'll be back to my paradise................




as for now, it'll be EXAMS!! Grrrrrrrrr




but oh well, at least something to look forward to..





loves it!

Lonely Friday..






thank god it's friday?! i'd beg to differ!




think of friday i think of:

• bah....
• boring...
• lonely...
• no fun! more work to clear!
• should i go home or stay in hall?
• should i go club or study?
  
  

i hate friday evenings ! i hate them! hate em! HATE 'EM!!!!!

and this is a picture of a boring hall on a friday evening! totally hate it ! BAH!!!!

so quiet! i can almost hear my own breathing..

and this is the empty walkway.. with no one in their room .. or outside their room.. cos they are all away! and i can only hear my footsteps as i drag them to the loo.. BAH!

yea man.. thank god, it's friday that makes me realise wad boring is ! BAH!!!!

im boreD !

Good things do happen?


yea.. this is finally one of my few positive posts out of many..


Good Thing #1 left my phone on a shuttle bus today n i got it back.. (if it were to land in the hands of the PRCs i'm quite sure its gone! thank gawd)

Good Thing #2 got back my mood to blog! heh.. guess its just that i wanna procrastinate from studying! heh!

Good Thing #3 lousy slides escape the fate of presenting today! heh.. due to having too many assignments and quizzes all in one week, i'm so glad that today's class presentation over-run.. and as a result the lousy slides tt i prepared last night escaped the claw of lousy grades!







more to come i hope........

it's been a year!

now that i look back at the pictures, the memories became so precious..

exactly one year ago, being Ms. Supplies, i was still loading my backpack with tonnes of clothes and stuff.

and now 1 year later, i'm stuck in my hostel at this time with a broke[n] back and still struggling to complete assignments and presentations that are due tomorrow.

*sigh in despair*

i wanna bury my feet under the sand

i wanna let the waves wash upon me...

bring me back to my paradise!

Overwhelmed


After 3 months of self-comforting, it has finally set in.
It has just returned to where it once belong or rather I've finally acknowledge it.


Deafening silence
Overwhelming loneliness


then I think about how I spent the 3 months feeling so positively and now I feel like crap



It amazes me that only now that it hits me.



Many faces have come and go.
Platonic or not, fair-weathered or true,
I may be just a passing image that they can hardly grasp.




And if my sky should fall, will u even call?

You're single because you don't want to commit

Why Are You Still Single?
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2006 / 2007

Major Achievements:

• finally graduated from NgeeAnn Poly.
• got into Nanyang Business School (NTU)
• got a PADI Openwaters Diving License

Travelled to:

• Koh Samui/Koh Tao/ Koh PhaNgan
• Pulau Perhentian

My First Time:

• going on an overseas trip w my friends
• scuba diving and got extremely close to Marine Life -- simply breath-taking
• snorkel and swam in the same water with a shark -- Black Tip Shark -- and a really huge sea turtle
• being a relief teacher and almost died from deafening kids squeals
• staying in a hostel and boy, it is a land of freedom and fun.
• owning a bean bag

Depressing Moments:

• had a relationship that failed due to ALOT of various reasons. but oh well, a very enriched learning journey.
• failed my Grade 8 Piano practical exam... ya.. gotta retake nxt feb.

there are many many more points to add, but well well.. its too long.. and im getting lazy

in summary, 2006 has been a ride of ups and downs but generally i think i had a great time besides my love life everything else seemed to haf fall in the right place. so its WONDERFUL! just gotta adjust back to my Singlehood again..

and for the Year 2007 ahead, not much expectations.. just..

1. be more consistent in academic work and produce better results
2. save more money
3. travel to more places!
4. aim to have more fun
5. be appreciative of everyone else and myself.

2007, here i come!!!

The Search Within

many times i forget how great a person i can/will be.
and everytime i neglect that little detail, i belittle myself, i abandon myself.

"...what the future holds i dont know,
im gonna stand up dust myself up just walk down to the end of the road
when something ends something begins
and now its just the end of the road
when someone loses someone wins
and now its just the end of the road..."



i'm sorry i will be stronger

Simple Life

i guess i forgot about what that means
i guess i forgot about being contented
i guess i forgot about how happy being contented is

i guess i just need to get myself back
the appreciative self, the organized self, the carefree self





i guess its then, that i will go back to the more accomplished self .

Loneliness

late at night it creeps in
comfortably it found a spot and sets in
it penetrates me and engulfs me
the influence so strong i cant overcome it



i'm feeling lonely

COUNTDOWN: 1 LAST DAY!

OMG!!! I cant wait.. just one more day

and everything is gonna be so fine ....

on the other hand, i wish i haf one more day..

so i can prepare better for my paper! DAMN!



but anyhow.. ONE LAST DAY!!! and it'll be FUN!





but then again, i'll have a nagging thought abt my results at the back of my mind. grrr

Slow down

so busy with work.
so caught up with emotions.
so blur the future seems.

yearning for a beach
yearning for a break
yearning for December

its times like that i want to slow down my pace

and enjoy my surroundings.



maybe thats the benefit to stay in hall- to be able to enjoy such pretty sunrise during exam period and take your woes away.





I want a break

Humour me !


(i) what happened to letting the cat out of the bag?

hur hur.. hoefully SPCA dont sue me for abusing the cat.. cos i was just taking the picture.. and it's just a makeshift food holder for the poor cat.. u know.. desperate times call for desperate measures.... so.. the cat was happy with that meal.. check this out !

see! she's a happy black cat! sooo preettyyyy...

(ii) Spot Wally

spot the cricket! cant do it?! lemme help you!

hahahah.. got really tickled when i was taking this picture.. it was damn hilarious!

(iii) Self- Fulfiling Prophecy in Practice

sometimes when i make use of my textbook knowledge and apply to real life, i get this great sense of satisfaction that can hardly be matched.

it really amuses me how people make use of Self-Fulfiling Prophecy to make themselves feel better. like how they would like to believe that girls like throwing themselves at them. OMG! just please look into the mirror!

right now i'll make it clear, im like a fish released into the vast ocean.. i do not need to leach onto a direction-less log.

at the same time it amazes me how stupid some bimbos can be to even listen and convinced by what you've said. she dont even know how u talked me into giving a second chance.. she didnt even know who was the one who couldnt let go after the countless letters..

lesson learnt: when twisting facts, make it sound real, so others spend lesser time trying to find out from the other party.

Thank God
-who ever you are-

i've finally found a rare black pearl among these sparkly clear diamonds.
i've finally found a low-rise jeans among these waist high berms.
i've finally found a playful child among these inch-thick glasses.

i've finally found a reflection and a storage for stories.

BeeeZeeee BeeeZeeee

it's been pretty packed for the last few days.

my schedule has been:
1630- end school and slack abit
1730- Street Netball challenge
2100- Entertain busy parents who come all the way to hall to bring me soup and dinner
2130- Dance practice
1230- Block Rep meeting and some duties
0100- Do tutorial
0230- sleep
0730- wake up for lectures

its packed like hell! but hey! im enjoying it.
i like it at times when i dont wanna think much to be crazily packed.
dont even have time to go and talk cock sing song with my neighbours.

and with such "time- table" i can still do my tutorial..
so thats really something that made me feel really refreshed!
its been very fruitful for the pass 3 days and yea..

hopefully i'll be able to start focusing on my presentations and my final yr paper.
distractions? nope! not at all! things that have to go will go..
it may sounds harsh, but whatever!

im not going to let someone who claims that he "love" me to screw up my fucking life.
(pun unintended)





dilemma- its when things that have been told dont coincide with the actions. punk!

Wrong Move!

Oh MY GAWWWDDDDD

its the wrongest move i can ever do..
esp in this environment...
wrong wrong wrong.... ahhhh....

i always believe that life is like a game.
and every move that i take is on the chess board.
and every wrong step i move, i'll have to bear the consequences that comes with it.
and now...

my life is now a chopping board.
it's not hard to believe that my name is spreading ard.
in 2 weeks time, it'll be a passe. b
ut from now to the 2 weeks, my name is smeared........

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH




wrong wrong move in a wrong wrong place.

the time when nothing matters

looking back at the pictures taken in Cambodia, i felt pangs of guilt and remorse over ridding me.. i look at the pictures as memories flash and brought me back to another time zone.

and then i realise how things in this "reality" (as my mom would say) is so complicated.
now, everytime i have some free time, i always look back at the times that i spent in Banlung so carefreely, hoping and wishing that i can just relive that moment for another minute.

the times in Banlung seemed so simple, stressless and slow paced.
right now, it is completely opposite; stressful, fast pace of living and complicated socio-cultural considerations.
i dont recall having any sanctions for any social classes, everyone seemed so contented.

on the other hand, that could be my view as an outsider of their daily lives.
i am advocating such harsh "reality" into my own world.


what happened to the times when nothing matters....
we were contented even when we didnt have any advanced technology..
we were happy living each day so carefreely
we were glad that nothing matter in this other dimension of life...





i wanna abandon this huge huge baggage of stress; unload it and gallop into somewhere where things seemed much simpler...

Youthful

as i crossed the road on a chilly rainy day, i saw a colourful bow hanging right in front of me.
for that moment, i thout i was brought back to yesteryears, where everything seemed so simple, stressless and carefree.

and then i realise, the older i get, the lessons i learnt in life got more intriguing and complicated.
a little too many to absorb at times and a little too much to take in at one point.
really feel like taking a break when everything is not in the right place.
avoiding, u may say, but who says it is wrong to run away from things?

it felt amazing how that bow with 7 different pastel shades have made my day.
perhaps this one of the little good things that happens in your hectic life to remind you that theres a little bit of good thing in negative things that are happening right now ..



bring me back to yesteryears

Hall Life

colourful, wonderful, beautiful...
the 1st look at my hall reminds me of chalet..
lotsa greeneries and tier roof short buildings.. no lifts and no private toilets..
however, i think the view here is really nice..
theres an attic which is my favourite chill out spot..
too bad, i dont have any pictures of the attic..

but, i do have a pic of the mesmerising sunrise that greets me every morning...

returning to hall is the one thing that i look forward to everyday..
friends, neighbours, and more friends and neighbours..
freedom is something that i cannot as for more right now...
like an eagle soaring in the wide blue sky.. man, it feels GREAT!

its so out of reach, no one controls any move..
no one questioning where u are going, what time are u sleeping, who are u hanging out with...
it's more like, independent and managing ur own time.. which also means, LADIES NITE!



of course that is not the ONLY activity around.. theres also STEAMBOAT! Yummy~




and also, there's our Drinking Sessions..


and also mahjong session (which unfortunately, i dont have pictures of that.. )

theres also bday celebration..
(which was held at the attic- and i always like to call that my Attica.. heh! )



on the flip side, laundry, cleaning, meals will be on my own... and the more disgusting part will be having to deal with insects... arrghhhh..


yes.. i woke up one day and found this creature lying on the floor.. and my courageous roomie help me swept it out... even now that is dead, its damn disgusting.. i didnt even dare to take the picture of its corpse.. this pic is taken with more than 1m away from the creature and me..

and did i mention that my beloved Toshiba 3yrs old laptop happily died on me?
yea.. for 2 weeks i had to reformat it every week.. like a weekly affair..
so in the end, when my dad and i couldnt revive it anymore, my daddy bought for me a Fujitsu LifeBook!! DADDY!! YOU'RE DA BEST!

isnt she pretty???

anyway.. thats abt all for my hall life..

sch is busy and i'll try to constantly update ma blog.. heh!

its when things seems the best, they often arent...

The Journey to the West

My Journey to the west has just begun....
train to Boon Lay and change a bus 179/199 (to hall)..
i know it seems easy but trust me.. the travelling is a bitch..
it took me 1.5hrs to get from Chinatown to NTU...

so i checked into my hall today.. got the keys and will be moving in by saturday..
the surrounding is nice.. it really feels like chalet to me.. hah!

soon, very soon, i'll have heaps and heaps of work and project be piling up...
after a long long break/fun/holidays, its time to pack up some playfulness and stuck my nose into the books again..



all seems well, but i feel incomplete, like a puzzle that lost a piece....

Perhentian, Here I Come!!!

yay... im leaving for Perhentian like NOW!!!!
i'm alrdy at Nim's Place... the train is leaving at 1820 and it'll be a 13 hr's ride...

so yeap.. dont mish me!!!

hehehehe


i'll miss u pple!!

The Reflection


what goes around really comes around huh!

so i've been relief teaching for the pass few days..
and gawd.. did the kids suck the life out of me?!??!
so drained....... BAH!

i saw the kid that i was.
the one that bully the teacher and challenges their athority!
BAH!!!




cher.. im sorry......

Perhentian Island!

i know i just returned from an island in late march,
but i wanna go on another holiday before my sch term starts!!!

and yeap! it'll be Perhentian Island in the Northeast Coast of Western Malaysia..

just going for a few days (like weekend holiday)..

so far, this is the plan...

SIN/Perhentian 13 Jul (Thurs) /14 Jul (Fri) 1850 / 0850
Perhentian 14 Jul (Fri) / 16 Jul (Sun)
Perhentian/ SIN 16 (Sun) / 17 Jul (Mon) 2030 / 1050


ok... some of u might be wondering... "hmm... where is this Perhentian place??"
tada!! this is where it is !! (circled red)





it'll be a weekend diving trip for me..
but along with me are peeps who dont dive as well..
so for both divers and non divers, all r welcome!
tell me ASAP in order to book train with BED!!! (p.s. its a LONG LONG ride)

still not convinced?? okie.. lemme tempt u abit

oh yea.... fine white sand and clear blue sea....

some more?? okie!

Check out the visibility! OMG! i can just drink the water there la !

So... interested applicants pls contact me ASAP! (best by this week! )

arent you tempted?

Balance

i believe theres a balance in everything that happens.
its like the open of one window closes the other.
like give and take ; gaining from what you've lost.

but where is the balance?
(i believe in my previous posts, this is a question that i have been trying to ans, but i can never place my finger on the balance point)

my friend once said "when you think that everything in your life is going perfectly smooth, then you are just overlooking something that is going very wrong" (i kinda like the way the sentence is phrased. )

i cannot agree more to the statement above.

why is it wrong for something to go perfectly smooth for once?

why is it that reality can never be part of any fairytale?

why is it that when you are truely happy, you realise that what you've been seeing is just another smoke screen?





why cant some mindless fairytale be part of the cruel reality?

Escapist

In life, many prefer to live in their own denial..
it might not be a wise choce, but some may prefer to avoid certain confrontations by their thoughts..

whats so wrong about making yourself happy by not thinking about such things right?

on one hand, it reduces the chances of being sad now
but on the other hand, it increases the chances of being hurt even more later.

So it all boils down to weighing ones priorities?

but sometimes when listing out all factors of concern, they all seem to point to the outcome which one is not in favour of. so, do i still have to put on the brave front and face the reality? cant i take a rain check? how bout make a later appointment?

why do people wanna avoid reality?



because living in their own fairytale is way colourful than in reality

gone Gone GONE!!!


arrgghhhhhh...............
after surviving for 3 and half years, my beloved laptop CRASHED!!!

its DEAD!!! arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

everything's gone GONE GONE!!!! all GONE!!!
BAH.................

no more pictures.. no more music... no more documents... no more videos...


im one sad person..








well, on a brighter note, its a new start... Its all about positive thinking man...

Nothing is Really Something

i guess i really havent been updating for a long time...
What have i been doing??

yea... this is something that i guess many have wondered..
unknowingly, i have spent 6 weeks (well, i think more than that) doing NOTHING.
nothing productive... NOTHING!
it's pretty scary isnt it...

well, Nothing is really something...
ok.. i cant possibly be doing NOTHING in the past 6 weeks rite?
alright.. to make it sound less scary..

doing nothing includes reading, lazing, practicing piano, a little of packing, shopping, going swimming/ tanning, going to Pulau Ubin to cycle, going for movies, trying to make some dishes/ edible food, celebrating my birthday (hehehe), clubbing, etc..

see, nothing is really nothing...

want some pictures?? okie! ;)

thats me celebrating my bday on Singapore River.. followed by a madnight of PARTYING.. see the ABSOLUTE PEACH in the background? yea.. that caused someone to be sent back home.. hahahahaha.. im not saying who..

and doing nothing also includes doing up a Bean Bag! YIPPIE!! i've got a bean bag at home.. muaahhaha.. in the comfort of my own room... see how we are fighting with the styrofaom beans.. hah!

Shopping at Raffles City.. this House decor shop.. really like this picture.. it is named the Cocoon by the Great One .. hah!

been eating and shisha-ing..

despite being a glut i still go trekking and cycling okie! that's Pulau Ubin u see down there.. really nice ya.. hehe .. great weather (well, not really, it rained actually.. ) , great terrain, great company... its GREAT!

seee... so doing nothing really isnt doing nothing..

The Drug Abuser


You are like a drug..

At the beginning, symptoms are vague..
Like social smoking, I only do when you are available.
It was more like out of sight out of mind.
but now...

You are like a drug...

When I dont have it, I yearn for it
When I'm alone, I only have mind for it
When I cant get it, I become all gooey with mucus
When I got hold of it, I cant let go of it



You are a deadly drug and you got me hooked

Transitions



people say changes are good
they help people to get out of their comfort zone and grow.







they forgot to mention that with it, brings alot of pain and tears .

Amazing Koh Tao

Warning: this is going to be a long post! (by the way, the pictures below is courtesy of Glenn and Farhan)

so yea.. after 1 month.. im finally posting pictures of AMAZING KOH TAO!!

Day 1: Singapore / Phuket / Don Sak Pier / Koh Samui

so after touching down in Phuket, we took a mini van to Donsak Pier (5 hrs journey) to catch a 3 hrs ride on Ferry to Koh Samui.. On board the Ferry, we started snapping away..

when we finally reached Koh Samui, the island that we've been looking forward to since 3 months ago, we went through a tough time trying to search for a decent place to stay for the night and move on to Koh Tao the next day..

the day ended with dinner at the Ting Tong corner. hah! its really the name of that restaurant! the food was yummy! so after a long day of travelling, it really did pay off!

Day 2: Koh Samui / Koh Tao

at 1200, we board another ferry which took 4 hrs to transport us from Koh Samui to Koh Tao.. it was one hell of an experience and the sun was scorching...

the sun was scorching, the journey was long, the floors were burning but we all had fun!

when we were on the ferry, there were locals coming on board marketing their resorts on Koh Tao. but none of them approached us.. cos they all thought that we were locals. so this guy came and told us about BAN'S DIVING RESORT.. without much hessitation and considerations, we went to the Ban's Resort, along Sairee beach, where we spend the remaining days of our trip there. the beach was so beautiful.... couldnt wait any longer, we changed into our gears and headed to the beach to catch our 1st sun set at Koh Tao

as soon as we reached Ban's Resort, we signed up for the PADI Diving Course at 9800B.. it was a 4 days course and there'll be a test. licenses will only be given to students who passed with 75% and above.. so being Asian students, we spent our 1st night eating maggie and Mr. Murtabak with banana and mugging!!

Day 3: Koh Tao

after a night of mugging, we met up for a morning swim despite our theory lesson starts at 0830.. the beach was fucking nice! the water is so clear.. almost seem drinkable and the sand is so fine.. near the shore, there are dead corals and lots and LOTSA pretty fishes swimming ard.. den we embraced the water and swam carefreely with the fishes.

in the afternoon, after having our lunch at Orchid Restaurant, we were late for our confined waters training... during the lesson, we had to try out the wetsuit and other equipments.. the oxygen tank was so heavy.. but lucky for nor and i, we had our buddies to help us.. Thanx Glenn and Dan!!! in the pic with the back facing us is our beloved instructor NEIL!!

after the lesson we were so tired and after the dinner at Bingo- a very nice seaside restaurant with low tables and cushions.. there is a big screen and everynight they'll play different movies to entertain their diners. a lovely place with friendly staffs!- we knocked out..

Day 4: Koh Tao

today we had our very 1st open water dives. no pictures for that. but more up later.... this is the view from the diving boat out... really pretty ya..

tmr is the big exam day and so we were given a chance to complete the papers and hand it in tmr.. being KIASU, we went to one of the restaurants and discussed about the answers for the exam.. heh heh!

then the water looked so inviting.. so Glenn and i couldnt hold it back anymore, we went to stroll in the clear blue sea.

Day 5: Koh Tao

yay! its the last day for the course and we passed the test with flying colours!! muahahaha!! ok.. although we all had 1 qn wrong, but who cares ! its abv 75%.. and as of that day, we are CERTIFIED OPENWATER PADI DIVERS !

more pictures of the beautiful sunset...

and this was the best time of everyday.. embracing the water and enjoying the sunset..

Day 6: Koh Tao

LIBERATION!! finally... no more worries of being late for lessons, no more worries of not understanding, no more worries of not getting the license.. cos its ALL OVER! hah!

in the morning, when everyone was still lazing in bed i finally did my laundry after dayss.. and aft tt, fad n i left to 7-11 to have our breakfast.. thou it was a long walk, but its cheap! and we lazed by the pretty beach to enjoy our purchase..

and then the rest of the day was just chilling, lazing, tanning, shopping and swimming... the pool is just like 5 steps from the girls' bunk.. and on the right, thats the guy's bunk...

if we're not doing the activities, half the time we'll be chilling at Bingo.. eating, or drinking or writing in the journal... Mango shake and Strawberry shake is a must -try!

Day 7: Koh Tao

another lazy day.. but we (Glenn, fad n i) made an effort to walk to the Mae Haad Town.. hmmm... which way??

along the way we passby part of the beach with lotsa nudists! glenn was having a goodtime den. heh!

pictures along the way...

Day 8: Koh Tao / Koh Pha Ngan

we slept in till ard 12 den woke up.. and aft lunch we dressed up and head to Koh Pha Ngan for the FULL MOON PARTY!! getting there...

and on our way to Koh Pha Ngan, the ferry stalled again! which reminds me of my experience in Cambodia.. haha.. only except this time, theres more passenger, bigger ferry and the water isn't knee height! fadilla arguing abt Khmer numbers.. heh heh..

PARTY TIME!!

Day 9 : Koh Pha Ngan / Koh Tao

so after a wild night of partying we returned back to our little island.. heh! we all so worn out.. i took my stuff headed to the beach and had a gd sleep on the beach and at the same time tanning.. heh! the rest were resting in the room but me. so no pics for this day.. cos everyone was knocked out.

at night, all of us spent hrs sitting ard doing nothing.. it was great. it felt great. we were just chilling, enjoying the soft waves crash upon the shore... i was laying on the sand embraced in the cool sea breeze and then wrote my journal under the silver moonlight. it was AWESOME !

Day 10: Koh Tao

couldnt resist the temptation no more, the divers, consist of Glenn, Dan, Nor and i, we went to sign up for 2 fun dives! at 700 baht each. i think it was worth every cent of it! this time we managed to catch the sight of Stingrays.. an ultra big trigger fish.. super huge promfrets and i was alrdy salivating. heh! a HUGE school of baracudas and Selau Kunning..

more pictures on board the dive boat..

the beautiful sunset.....

so its the last night that we'll be spending in Koh Tao. dinner time, we had a sumptous meal... well, actually all our meals was delicious! *slurps* dinner time, Bingo was playing the 40 Year Old Vigin.. hah! it was funny! after dinner, we were dead beat. when footing the bill, i ran into David.. then he reminded me that we shouldnt be spending our last night sleeping!

so yea.. David. remember the Full Moon Party that i mentioned? yea... during which, nor and i was dancing our asses off while glenn was resting by the beach.. and the rest were eating at Mr K's Restaurant. so David came over with his bucket ( they drink from a bucket where they mix all the drinks and alcohol and drinks from the bucket) and offered us some drinks. so we drank, hoping tt it's not spiked or wad... so he was hanging around and dancing and talking and stuff. later in the night, well.. later in the day, David and i had some time talking.. and we bid gdbye as it was time for us to return to Koh Tao.

and this day tt we were registering for our fun dive, we ran into him again at the door of our Resort. and may i add that there is alot other resorts around the island. so yea. i was quite shock to see him there. so at night, nor n i went to chill at this bar / pub called PURE. it was cool.. very chilled out and relaxing.. so David came to chill too. we were talking about Singapore's history! hah! such a intellectual talk that we engaged in..

this is the best pic i haf of PURE. in the alleviated platform they had huge bean bags around while on the beach they had little holds dug and candles burning in them, with cushions lying ard. so pple just go there get a drink and chill by the beach.. it would be perfect if there wasnt so many mosquitoes around. i returned with more than 10 new bites!

Day 11: Koh Tao / Surathani

so yea. its the last day on the beautiful island. although slept late (like 4am) but had to be up by 1000 so we cld pack up! for the 1st time of the trip, the guys woke up earlier than we did. the whole day was busy.. we lepak at Bingo for the last time, went shopping then, the girls went for Thai Massage, while the guys went for Aroma Therapy. more shopping, dinner and at 2000, we left Ban's Resort to catch our night ferry to Surathani which is the mainland of Thailand.

our last sunset from the Orchid Spa- where the guys had their Aromatherapy massage.

so it was time to bid goodbye to Koh Tao. we board the ferry and the nxt day 0500 we'll reach Surathani. bye Koh Tao.

Day 12: Surathani / Phuket / Singapore

so yea. we woke up in the ferry at 0500.. Fad, Glenn and i headed to Phuket to take our flight back to Singapore. the travelling part is a killer la .. but well, it was budget.. so beggars cant be choosers! so we went to Phuket, had our last meal - Dunkin Donuts, and headed back to Singapore. at the airport, Glenn and i had a little backpack fight. hah! and the view from Jetstar's window which marks the end of my journey.

when we touched down, Michael was alrdy waiting for me at Changi Airport.. so sweet of him.. and i headed home. and back to this little cosmopolitan city!

Bye Koh Tao.. it was fantastic! my perfect post graduate vacation

The Spreading..


Warning: this may not be pleasing to some people of a specific religion but this is not slamming.

so yea.. u know how Christianism spread like wild fire in this country.
i dont know if it happens only in this country or is it a world wide disease.

this morning a couple came knocking on my door asking if there is any problems in my life
so i totally sensed the christianism thing coming up!
so i said yea.. i've been having trouble with ppl trying to spread christianism..

i mean i am perfectly fine with people believing in their own religion..
but really, there is no need going around each door knocking and trying to psycho people into it
i believe Singapore has got enough churches lying around.
so if anyone is interested they'll pop by and find out more info..
but nooo... these people have to be on the streets, on the bus, in the mall, even know u are at home are they going to leave u alone that u do not choose to go to heaven? NOOOO

furthermore, they do not leave other non-christians alone. like buddhists or taoists or muslims or hindis or sikhs, u get the picture..
its clear that my family practices Taoism as can be seen when greeted by the joss sticks at the door. are they gonna leave this Taoist family alone? nooo they try to come and preach and pursuade them to go to the church and attend their sessions..
so suddenly when these non-christians go to a church to check it out, its perfectly fine you know.. but when a Chrisitian holds a jossstick, its not.. its against their religion.
i find this point especially contradicting.

so whats this spreading or sharing the acceptance leading to?
that everyone believes in the same god? but dont u think it takes variety to make urs look better than the others? so why are they trying SO HARD to monopolise the industry?




once again, [ DISCLIAMER] this is not directed to anyone, its just my POV

woohooo


my parents left on monday night to Queensland..
and the not so woohoo part is that im being left here..

but being kahyanny, i'll make my own day and search my own fun! heh!
so yea!!! YAY!!! IT PARTY TIME!!!!!!

muahahahahaha...


When the cats are out, the mice comes out to play!

omg Omg OMg OMG!!!


OH MY FREAKING GAWD!!


can you believe it? i cant....
with my kind of GPA, graduating GPA of 3.05937699100395876...
I'm approved for my application for admission to NTU!!!

yup... NTU Business.. not the best but at least im given a chance to do my DEGREE!!
well, Beggars cant be choosers!!!
and since its like damn far like even further than JB, i haf sufficient reasons to stay in the dorm!
muahahah!! Bye mom!!! its time to leave the hse!!! YAY!


IM OVER THE MOON!!!



Its been a long time since i felt so esctatic!

Relief Teaching

this post was supposed to be up a long time back, but well, i'm a busy person rite? hah!
so anyway... yea.. thats my new erm career.
however, the schools seldom call me up.

and now tt im a teacher, i have to deal with the kids tt used to be like me...

Assignment 1
it was 740 in the morning when the weather is so damn nice to sleep in, i had a call from Henderson Sec. "can u come down for relief teaching today?"
i pulled my lazy body out and rushed down to the school...
i went to school and i didnt really give a shit abt students.. didnt even expect them to greet me.
i dont mind even if they just call me cher..
so i just went in, gave them their work and i sat down to read my book.. hehe!
so the kids starting to ask me weird questions.
i managed to survive my 1st day as a relief teacher!


Assignment 2
this time the call came the day before. so i was expected to report earlier.
this time i invested in a marker and and did the whole stepping in with confidence and wrote my name on the board.
it was a interesting day as well...

student : "Cher.. u how old ah? younger than 18?"
do i look younger than 18? do i? even with the make up and heels and the long skirt???

another class tt i had, i entered the wrong room! the kids greeted me and their teacher came in saying that im in the wrong class.. this is the mother of all embrassment la! i quickly packed my staff and ran to my class...
and i realised that the class was separated into 2 classes is cos of their grades!
they actually separate Band 1 students from the band 4 students (its Mother Tongue btw.. ) i was shocked! this whole segregation thing is getting far far far too absurd.. such a screwed up system yet foreigners are still coming here for education? well, who's to say anything?


well, on the whole, Relief Teaching is a great job.. just sit ard and get $$ heh! and its only HALF day!






i hope that teachers get sick everyday!

Getaway


and by that word, i really mean Get AWAY!
i wanna get away from this boring city........
bah...
ya.. i know i just returned from a vacation, but everyone is leaving for somewhere..
why not me.. sighhhhhhh

i wanna be heading for a weekend dive at tinggi
i wanna be planning a trip to Perth and meet amelia there
i wanna get away from here..

i'm not asking for much.. just bring me to either Ko Tao or Banlung.
either of it is perfectly fine....





Bring me back to the place filled with muscular hunks and bikini clad babes........

Granny


It was a breezy morning and all seems well.
As I walked past my dine place, my Grandma was on her wheelchair having her daily after breakfast read.
Suddenly, her face turned taut, her lips clenched, and her entire body was shaking vigorously.
So I rubbed Axe Oil on her temple and laid her down on bed.
As I stood by the bed to stroke her arms and legs, I realize it's been a long time since I last talked to her. Despite the fact that her stroke affected the mobility of her right body and her speech control, I should be talking to her regularly.

As I called her she opened her eyes slowly, loosening the grim face, and when she saw me she smiled, laughed and stroked my arms.

It reminds me of my younger times...
Where she used to bring my brother and I to tuitions and home from after school activities.
Where she used to cook and buy all the oily and yummy food for us.
Where she was able to walk and talk and laugh.
Where I used to sleep in her arms.




i miss my granny.. sob

GRADUATED!

YAY! i can finally say that i'm DONE with POLY!
muahahahaha!
it feels good to be able to exclaim and not fear that i might jinx myself!
so yea. i graduated with GPA that is not that fantastic.
and now i just fear for my future.
wad should i do? degree of course. but what if i cant get into any local U ?
i'd love to go overseas. and get away from my parents ! muahahaha!





i just want to leave for another holiday! haha

Just Go Away


if my memory is not failing me, i had a "fuck-off" last july and a "pretend that i dont exist" this mar and a "Just go away" tonight.

wow. that says alot about me doesnt it? probably i shd just really stray away from people and be A.L.O.N.E.

and everytime i get that, it hurts like hell, with that pain where the tears fills right up to the brim of ur back throat and unable to pour it out, and cant get it back in.




really, if that makes you happy, i'll leave.

Kill me please


u know wad, i should just be remained in a box for the rest of my life.. or better still, kill me!
i hate dealing with feelings and emotions.
i hate dealing with people and then more emotions pour in.
i hate going to places and falling in love with them and wanting to return.
i just dislike myself.

anyone? KILL ME PLEASE !


i know there'll be a long queue behind. so be quick!

returned from paradise


my trip was great. one of the perfect ones i would say.
it was really clear blue sea. the water was so clear that it almost seemed drinkable.
the sand was so fine and soft. it was truely paradise.

i spent a bomb doing Scuba Diving. but man, the price to pay was worth every single bit of it!
the corals, fishes, so amazing. the life underwater is just so beautiful.
managed to catch a few significant ones like nemo, angelfish, trigger fish and Stingrays.
its really beautiful!

besides diving all day long was just chilling.
either at Bingo- a sea side restaurant, or by the beach getting a tan, or swimming, or shopping.

one of the best i would say is lying on the sand at night and gazing into the sky filled with millions of little sparkles with the silverlight shone right behind me. with the waves crashing on shore, and the company, it was breath-taking.

THE vacation!
beautiful beach, delicious meals, exciting activities along with the laid back ones, interesting company, wonderful buys and a little action. what else can i ask for?



at the airport of Phuket, i wanted to run to the nearest ATM machine, withdraw money and head back to Koh Tao for longer stay.

Paradise

after a hectic semester im finally having my break..
and in less than 7hrs time i'll be heading to Koh Samui..

so in order to keep the budget low, we decided to go to Phuket via Jetstar..
and from there we will run to bus stations to hop into one to Koh Samui!

aw man! i cant wait to embrace the clear blue water and white fine sand..
lazing on the beach having an eye wash for hunks and bikini clad ladies.
with a book in my hand and a coconut by a side table! muahahha!!

so yea.. i'll be leaving tmr (oh.. actually today!) and will return on the 18th..
so until den, this empty blog will continue to remain empty!



my heaven , my paradise.. HERE I COME!

Changed



i believe that some things will never be the same again when the time has passed..


i was there, but you didnt cherish me.
now that its gone, i cant get it back.
your actions have been contradicting whatever nonsense that you've said.


im confused. so stop fucking mess with my mind!



im happy now so go fuck yourself, WUSS!

eve of the death..


so here i am typing away in my blog when in less than9 hours time is my 1st paper that marks the end of my poly life.

and guess wad? im still 4 lectures back!

YES! i have NOT finish studying for my papers...


I CANNOT WAIT! ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



tahan tahan... just 4 more days...


take it easy.. everything will be fine when march falls.......



breathe... inhale.. exhale... time to face death....

Koh Samui

yay.. i cant wait to dive into that clear blue water and roll on the fine white sand...

with wonderful company, a book in my hand and just lie carefreely on the beach... how wonderful can life be?

so yep.. there.. Koh Samui will be where my post-graduation trip be...

more updates soon!! study now..

mug now and enjoy later... muahahaa

Ministry of Sound

well.. after months of waiting.. im finally there...
i think its a nice club, but a little over-rated..
especially with those publicity and their marketing gimmicks...


Layout and Design of the Club
i have to give it to them.... i was impressed with their layout and structure of the building..
even the desgins of the dance floors and different section of the club was awesome..
and one thing that wasnt overrated was their toilets.. it gives a very cosmopolitan feel yet cosy.. so i have to say that their design and layout of the entire club was amazing.

my favorite dancefloor has to be the Discotheque section... colourful light- up floors, a waist- high mirror, lotsa disco balls of various sizes hanging above the dance floor.. nice!


Variety
oh.. definitely... i think this is also one of its most valuable unique selling point..
definitely much more varieties than Zouk.. so many sections...
they've got a RnB section, a discotheque section, a mumbo section and various rooms for private (or VIP) parties, and another room that can only enter when above 25, and other parts that maybe i didnt visit.


Crowd
depends on the area of the club that you goes to. different section attracts different audiences.
the RnB section is filled with youngsters, while the discotheque is filled with middle aged ang mohs...
so i guess there us some variety there as well.. and there is a little too overcrowded at the RnB site. really cant move.. no space to try moving ard to dance.. i felt more like i was swaying than dancing.


Drinks
oh.. dun even think about it.. it sucks! the drinks are very diluted ( or so it tasted like) and hm expensive..


Overall Clubbing Experience
not too good... too crowded.. it's really like a packed sardine.. no space to dance.. all that you can do is sway side to side.. and too much time is spent on walking that big big maze...


so there is a little analysis about the all-so famous MOS.




but nothing beats the good 'ol Cheekys!

Valentine's Day



ok.. so its a day where roses are over-priced and couples are flooding the streets.


so its a day where i have to stay at home to complete my last project.
which wasnt bad... cos if i were to go out, i'll be having couples slamming in my face with their roses in their hands....


so in order to brighten up my boring little dull day, i decided to cook myself Pasta!
it was yummylicious! bacon, ham, mushroom, red wine, and parsley!


after my sumptous meal, i went back to work.... and decided that i should go out with my frens... so la di da... i went preparing...


as i was half way changing, DING DONG............ my door bell rang...



.....................



...................................

how can a girl not smile to that?

well...... on the other hand, was reading Hype, and i saw this sentence..

Roses are red, Violets are blue, Sugar is sweet and i'd love to shag you..

so... erhmm... im not so sure.........

i ffffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeellll goooooooooooooooood... *nana nana na*

for the past one week i felt good!

the entire week past swiftly... partly because of the never-ending projects....

but it was balanced with work and fun..
like meeting with frens and going out for a drink aft presentations.
and attending netball matches as back-up umpire...

gaaawwwddd... i feel good...

and partly because im hanging on the past and not looking forward.
that kinda feels good as well...

and just hanging out with good company to eat and talk and bitch and plan for post-grad trip...
nothing can beat this man...


i hope i'll feel good the coming week...........

time has never been on my side


once again i havent been writing for a long time.

im busy... with stuff that i shd deal with and stuff that i shdnt be involved with....

i have lots that i wanna write and put them in words. but im having mental blockage yet again.

write abt the mime, life, people, sch, assignments, and you... oh!! and the post-grad trip!


alright more up later when life is getting more peaceful... 22 days to end of sch!
man... i cant be more happy thinking of it... now i just haf to mug my ass off!!



unbelievable but true... i can still smell you..

MMmmmmmmm..................


oh gawd... mmmmmm..............

every bite of it seems to allow my wings to grow to its fullest.. to fly to the fluffy clouds and continue to munch on every bit of that fluffy cloud...

it's DELICIOUS!! courtesy of Dan, i was able to live in heaven for that few minutes... .


oh my... the Chocolate Marshmallow Roll................................ ***drrrooooooooooooooooooooooooooollllllllllllllll***



i just realised yesterday that there IS heaven in the world!

G.O.N.E


this one time that i finally was able to take control of my mind, i lost it...




i guess its a punishment for not being true to people around







if time could go back, i'll not hold myself back and i'll let the feelings flow....


its so tiring to be hiding behind a character that seem to be you but its not really you..




so, how do people deal with layers in them? dont they get mixed up ?

bah


i wish some people just dont ever appear in my life
yes, they make me learn and make me a better person
but they are the dumbfucks that make me feel paranoid about myself..

sometimes i feel happy and overjoyed
many other times i feel so pissed so angry so confused so bothered.

i dont wanna deal with all these people anymore.
i dont wanna deal with anybody for that matter.
i wanna be Missing in Action
i wanna be spending time with myself and feel happy all at once
i wanna be alone


time i should wander around without my phone and fuck off from this world

Frustrations!


there is the very strong sense of hatred in me.
that anger that will soon engulf me... all these anger and hatred for everything around!
so irritatingly bothering!!

it feels like everything is against me! everyone is not being cooperative!
and things just dont turn out right!

i was angry with the bus, the driver, the traffic, the traffic lights.... arrgghh,, EVERYTHING!!!
ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


maybe it's just Friday the 13! Groose Fraba......

Kickass!

for that split seconds as i was cocooning in my comforter, i felt good..
probably is the power of my comforter, or maybe the thought that im finally going to sleep..
and maybe its the warmth that i had in this cold cold weather..

for that moment, thou it only lasted for seconds, i felt good- a sense of satisfaction that i havent felt in a long time...
i felt liberated and the immediate urge to get out of my bed to pen this down..
i feel the sense of happiness for being alone.. single.. whatever way u put it.
it felt extremely wonderful!



if only the feeling could last a little longer..

worn out


seriously, what's wrong with me?! i've been messing ard with the wrong kind of people...


who the hell ever put themselves on the brim of a boiling pot? i do...
im the bird that flies into the crocodile's mouth to pick their teeth..
and just for fun, i shd just flap my little wings and pick food from his mouth.
anytime he just snap n i'll be dead! like DEAD!!


its so tiring to keep having to figure out what things some people says..
everything that is told have to be filtered throu the truth sift.
like everything he said, every action, which is true? i dont know....
and there is a constant nagging of "what ifs"...


whatever happened to being true to people? nobody does that anymore? should i be keeping up with this pace and not be true to people too?



why is it that some people have many layers and i dun seem to have this skill??

The Lizard Trap


have you heard of the Lizard Trap? it's wicked!

well, i was pretty new to this idea and was only introduced to it like end of last yr by my COOL piano teacher..

so i heard it works by secreting scent of lizards' hormones that only produces when mating, and have a REAL sticky platform where the HORNY LIZARDS will stick to that trap and die of starvation... so cool rite! but the bad part is that u haf to remove that dead lizard from the trap to re-use it la..


so imagine, if someday someone ever come out with The Jerk Trap, how wonderful can it be!?

that'll be AMAZING! it protects all the ladies that wanna be away from the jerks!

so then, there is this really big trap house that secretes female hormones to attract HORNY BASTARDS.. and it is a one-way trap.. so all the ass holes that enter can never return! MUAHAHAHAHA!! they shd all be trapped together and probably turn gay since they cant control themsleves..



**Bring along a Jerk Trap to keep you off their trap!!**

Skepticism


u know how people always say "it's ok.. just do whatever you want to do.. why do u even care what others think about you?" and being me, i TRUELY support this idea.

however, does it really not matter wad others think about us? wad if (untrue) rumours start spreading around? and ur reputation is damn as muddy as the puddle of water on the floor....

and the next time u ever meet someone new, not even after 1 week, he/she knows more things that is to know about u. and all that they heard may/may not be true..

but being informed about your noctorious behavior, he/she may already have a perception about you, and everything that comes out of ur mouth may just be taken lightly and she/he'll will feel very skeptical about the things that you said.


Should everyone be treated equally and not be judged?


but then again, what if the next one to get hurt is you? should you be taking things with a pinch of salt?

Wrong Receiver



im sure lots of you out there have the experience of sending the wrong msg to the wrong person.

so, pls raise ur hand if u ever send the wrong msg to the person that u happened to mention in the message...



**shootingmyhanduptryingtoreachtheskyandjumpingforattention**




its like you know that people are talking behind ur back! HOW EMBARRASSING CAN THAT BE?! arrggghhhh...................





but lucky i wasnt bitching.. heh!

SCREWED UP SYSTEM!

who the hell even suggested to bring forward the sch term?!

all these changes is absurdlycrazy! who the hell even voted for sch to continue on November and December? so wad if u r the eldest in the family, and everyone else is going on a holiday because it IS THE RIGHT TIME with EVERYONE ELSE'S School Holidays, you'll be bummingsobbingwhining at home!

besides, with this Screwed up system, the common test week will be on the FIRSTWEEK of the YEAR! who the hell takes Common test on the 1st wk of THE YEAR? others havent even learn 1 Chapter in the 1st week of the year! and after all the partying, boozing, and festive atmosphere lingering around.. i definitely cant concentrate to study for dry papers. have the authorities ever put themselves in our goddamnsmellystinkyfishy shoes?!

with this system, intake of 2006 will be from April.. so wad happened to that 6 months break that all Sec 4 students look forward to?



so....



wad's the benefit of this again?


the one that i can think of is to allow us to graduate earlier.. (when the nxt sch term starts in Aug? or maybe even the FOLLOWING YR?)

err... so less teenagers will be hanging around doing nothing? so doesnt it in someways benefit ur domestic economic activity? and how do u know that they arent working or taking some self-improvement lessons?? huh huh huh!!!




whoever thought of this should really think twice!

My 2005

so wad happened this yr? (oops.. last yr..) hmmm...
i barely remember wad happened in the early part of this yr... my yr seems to start from April..

Jan 1 2005
i sneaked out of my hse at 3 am in the morning... well, for the rest of the year, my life was ADVENTUROUS! i guess the way ur new yr starts really determined how it'll be huh...

den i forgot wad happened..

Major Happening- April 2005
left for Cambodia with a bunch of great peeps (except SOME or sum.. ah.. either way..) all that singing n rides n cooking n wrking.. Ang Kor Wat, rubbish dump, the Killing Field, etc...

i think it was a really great impact.. even when in sch, we cant seem to stop talking abt it.. even during proj, we haf to search for something tt is related. all the experience has definitely widen my horizons. some really life changing experience that I WANT TO undergo again... i feel like that feeling is going to detach.. but i wanna keep by me forever.. and i guess that's the wonders of pictures.. always act as a reminder.

and the best that i got out of it are the frens! the BCs who play a MAJOR ROLE in my life now.. all that chilling n lepak at TCC.. n Green Ground! how can i forget that?! good things never last.. but pls to whoever u r that dictates fate, just let this be the exception.. please.

Education
hmmm.. well... i guess 1 sem covers the ass of the other. my 2nd yr last sem was atrocious! GPA 2.5! like WTF! either i told myself tt i had to wrk hard or was it sth related to the trip, i dunno.. my 3rd yr 1st sem was surprisingly gd.. *i hope i dun jinx myself*

Relationship
bah.. dun talk abt it. nth is in the rite path... thou thru some, i really did learn alot.. and some really cheesy dates..

guy: hey.. do u haf any raisins?
girl: erhmm.. no..
guy: oh.. can i haf the date then?

Friendship
people come people go.. many came but 1 or 2 left...

Finance
hmmm.. well.. not too bad i think. i guess i spend much lesser than the previous yr.. cos aft the trip, i feel like hmm.. wad so great abt looking gd n not feel gd... so less shopping = spend lesser.

Clubbing
hmmm.. only started again recently. much much much lesser than previous yr.. less clubbing = more savings. therefore, inc. in finance.

Health
doing gd this yr.. not too bad.. but i need to burn LOTSA FATS! arrgghh.. all u other high metabolism rate pple just stay out of my sight.

Attitude
i think i improved quite alot in terms of being a person.. rite? or so my feedbacks were. less tempremental, less petty, less disrespectful, less slutty, less bimbotic.. hahaha ..


overall performance: Positive i guess.. hahaha.. well, i do my own evaluation.. so whos there to say anything?!

2006 New Yr's Resolution:

1. studies! complete the last sem with flying colours n start wrking on SATS and admission to university (local) den we'll see where things are..
2. stick to my Exercise Plan.. calling out for jogging n sports khaki..
3. pass Grade 8 Piano Exam with 1 try! PLEASE...
4. continue to go to other parts of the world- Napal, Tibet, India...
5. continue with the attitude check.
6. take things easy.. and everything with a pinch of salt n open mind...

its a yr where i'm not sure wad lies ahead aft my tertiary education... it'll haf to take chance..

exSPArience

Mmmmm... i smell GOOD!! smell like a Strawberry Shortcake.
so today i had my first Spa Experience at one of the outlets at Holland village.

my selected package was: Strawberry Butter Meltdown..
it sounds so yummyslurpybootylicious... and well, it turned out as nice as the name is!

so first my mom n i had to strip naked and change onto a g-string and put on the shower cap..
and den laid flat there and the started to smother hot oil n massage..
it is so ADDICTIVE! oh my.. it felt so AWESOME!

so aft the full body massage, BERRIES and sea salt was used to scrub n remove dead skin cells!!
and that smelt so HEAVENLY!!

to top it off, we bathed in the open!
well, not exactly open, but i cld see the sky thru the plastic shelter and there was a tree rite outside the bathroom!
the bathroom was like a little wooden shed.. real nice... it was so Banlungish (just the bathroom)



ok.. now who wans to eat me? i smell like a Strawberry Shortcake! *slurps*

(not-so) Merry Christmas!


i started off my Christmas eve being too sad about somethings in life..
i woke up due to excessive tears when i was trying to keep my eyes shut n go back to slp..
how merry a christmas can be.....

so i was debating whether i shd bum at hm and enjoy the serenity or shd i just go out to haf fun (without my frens).. i thout, either ways, i'll not feel so merry anyway..
aft much contemplating, i chose the latter.. i'd rather be out probably laughing at some random people on the streets then to be sulking at hm..

sso i had my super-fun-time-Christmas Eve counting down with a stranger that i knew 2 days ago.. but he sure had brought much laughter to my Gloomy Christmas.. with many "inspiring" talks.. greatly appreciated..


oh... and may i add... walking along the streets this Christmas, sure as hell, wasnt so merry.. people, practically strangers just spray white foam to other strangers walking along the streets. half the time we were escaping from these white christmas.


jingles from the cans
makes me want to scam!

Gone... Not Really..

the nutritious part of me have became the residue and sank deep into the glass.
somehow somethings just dont hang around anymore. more like separated..
it has not disappeared. just detached.
forming a visible division between the residue and the remaining liquid..

looking back at my previous posts, i felt much more a "better person" then..
something is amiss.
i left bits n pieces of goodwill as i reach for the future, which turns out to be a handful of dust.
the treasure in me has sunken into the deep blues, which left me with transparent liquid.
leaving me feel so shallow, incomplete and uncontented...


the precious jewels are just gone for a moment...

0011!!!!! *WINK*


so i had a LOUSY nite..
and to make things worst, i woke up with swallon eyes..
and i tried watching something funny that didnt tickle me!
den i had to deal with my own procrastination...
so u think that is the end of the bad karma? nooo...
i had to run into different people with different temper...


and things start to turn better...


first, i had fun at pool and catching up sec sch gossips (thou much still not known and never will)
and i had even more laughs at Burger King with the Kampucheans
and thats not the end... we had SECRET RECIPES!
there was even more anxiety when we were trying to plan for the Malaysia Backpacking trip...
finally, we end the crazy day at TIMES with The Book of Answers (or something like that.. i wouldnt mind having that for Christmas! *wink!*) HAHAHA!!!

the times with great friends!

the benefits of having a DICK!

you read it correctly.. this damn gender segregation is REALLY PISSING ME OFF!

1. get to study overseas even without much persuasion
2. get to be pampered when you were a baby until now u r 21 you still do!
3. get to stay out late cos your life will not be in danger
4. get to go on holiday without much discussion with parents
5. get to shout n storm and nothing NOTHING will happen to you
6. gets EVERYTHING that you motherfucking want!
7. gets to run away from all the household chores!
8. GETS TO INHERIT YOUR GRANDMOTHER'S STALL AT THE AGE OF 21!!!

the day that i dont return u should jolly well know why!

technology

i think it is one of those things that i hold a love-hate relationship with..
something that i can live without yet many times i rely on...


for weeks my Lappie have been down with throat inflammation cos i uninstalled stuff that i thout was unnecessarry for her.

i felt so crippled and incomplete..
im so sorry Lappie..

now that ur voice is back, it's time to call for celebration!! hahaha.. the kind of joy n jubilation is indescripable....


always rely on the Recovery Disc!

the insignificance


you might have done lotsa telling but not talking..
you might have been looking but not seeing..

i might be missing, but im not thinking.

i might be rambling, but im actually saying..



i feel like people have been hearing but not listening.
and i feel real teeny weeny

oooooohhhh


this damn world is really unfair la...
why dun guys have gastric pain n menstrual cramps at the same time????


i can feel the acidic gastric juice secreting out of the glands... through the 4 layers of membrane into the stomach.... and the hole forming on the wall........



stupid gender segregation!!!

and so i thought....

for the past 19 years (or lesser since i didnt really think when i was a baby), i thought i was an optimist...

probably i was, when i was younger, and had lesser things to worry about, and lesser setbacks to experience.

people have been telling me "are u sure u are an optimist? u think so negatively" and i'll just ignore their comment like how much do u know me laaa..

until today.. like right now, talking to a fren and reflecting on wad i haf wrote, i really am a pessimist....



fren :
what do u think of being in a relationship?

Buttimus Maximus :
everytime i get into a relationship, i know that it WILL end one day

fren :
usually relationship wont last long right

Buttimus Maximus :
it will never last. period.

Buttimus Maximus :
even aft u get married, u'll either end up divorced or die

Buttimus Maximus :
which in both cases will ultimately end the relationship

Past vs. Future

for a long time i have been staying put in the dark tunnel with hope shining in one end and sweet memories being on the other.

for a long time i have been in the tunnel admiring the sweet memories and was afraid to enter the scorching hopes.

when the rays of hope seems gentle, i tried to leave the tunnel. but NO! it turn out to be boiling hot and i'ved been scalded.


those heat makes my tears roll to the back of my throat.

drown

many times i have sunk in and not reach the bottom of the swamp..
wad makes me think that this time i'm able to come in contact with the muddy bed of the swamp?
the water is so murky and dense. yet, i still chose to sink myself in to search for the bottom!



such people just deserve to be drowned!

Gee!


and once again, i havent been writing in here for a long time..
been pretty busy with stuff..

and did i mention? damn, it is tough to play the guessing game!
i have to been constantly guessing wads going through the other person's mind so as to make sure that im on save grounds and be prepared and not caught off guard! the more practices you haf, the higher the possibility that you will be a successful psychic

sometimes it really isnt that tough. just that pride suddenly seems readily availabe, and other nonsense is in the way! BAH!!

and as if things arent bad enough, all the anticipation keeps racing in my head! with all those overweighing expectations, i feel like im going to crumble!



but that was the best outing i had for a long while...