Hopeful
on my way home from school, my girlfriend and i were discussing bout how being hopeful always land us on the worst side of things.
no matter how bad a situation is, there are always alternatives. For me, i always choose to believe that there is still a very slight chance that things will turn out just as fine.
often, such expectations and hopes dash my dreams even more. like the higher the expectation, the harder you fall.
is it wrong to be hopeful? should we be hopeful or hopeles??
despite all the dashed dreams, i choose to be hopeful
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Monday, June 27, 2005
Rich Dad, Poor Dad, Cool Dad!
i've got a Cool Dad. think about this, "how many people actually have a spontaneous father who is willing to go roller-blading with her on a weekday evening, at just a call away??" i love my daddy to bits!
#1 Cool Factor: my dad can roller blade!
#2 Cool Factor: my dad dont mind driving all the way to East Coast just to blade. cos they have better pavement for blading.
#3 Cool Factor: my dad is so SPONTANEOUS. it wasn't even pre-planned!
#4 Cool Factor: my dad blades WITH ME!!
#5 Cool Factor: my dad tries out all sort of weird stuns with me.. not just moving ur legs to move forward. we did backward, tried to do the crab thingy.
sometimes the best things in life arent the most expensive things.
i've got a Cool Dad. think about this, "how many people actually have a spontaneous father who is willing to go roller-blading with her on a weekday evening, at just a call away??" i love my daddy to bits!
#1 Cool Factor: my dad can roller blade!
#2 Cool Factor: my dad dont mind driving all the way to East Coast just to blade. cos they have better pavement for blading.
#3 Cool Factor: my dad is so SPONTANEOUS. it wasn't even pre-planned!
#4 Cool Factor: my dad blades WITH ME!!
#5 Cool Factor: my dad tries out all sort of weird stuns with me.. not just moving ur legs to move forward. we did backward, tried to do the crab thingy.
sometimes the best things in life arent the most expensive things.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
once again
i feel so small. so lost.
i want a book. but not just any book.
i read one today- it was bad! limited storyline, torn pages, etc. i don't want just any book.
i want one that i feel comfortable reading, something that tickles me and quietly hangs a smile on my face, a book that will hold my tears when they roll.
but i think im jinxed whenever i owned a book and cant keep it off my hands. so i guess i'll just read you whenever i visit the library.
when u feel embarrased, then i'll be ur pride. when u need directions, then i'll be the guide. where's mine??
i feel so small. so lost.
i want a book. but not just any book.
i read one today- it was bad! limited storyline, torn pages, etc. i don't want just any book.
i want one that i feel comfortable reading, something that tickles me and quietly hangs a smile on my face, a book that will hold my tears when they roll.
but i think im jinxed whenever i owned a book and cant keep it off my hands. so i guess i'll just read you whenever i visit the library.
when u feel embarrased, then i'll be ur pride. when u need directions, then i'll be the guide. where's mine??
Saturday, June 25, 2005
1 down
finally it is the day for the presentation of cultural mapping. since morning, i was so anxious and excited abt it! until now, the anxiety is still burning in me. well.. now one is down while the other is waiting to be launched. im so estatic that things flowed pretty smoothly today..
thou there were little hiccups as some of us were pretty anxious, and some technical errors. but no biggie things looked great.. how some of us managed to diminish the tensed atmosphere in the room and cracked a little joke. and how this person was brought near to tears due to some memories but still able to convey his msg thru.
the dance was fabulous and the song was even more wonderful. it almost brought tears to my eyes. aft this presentation, i miss Banlung even more. the sand, sun, food, people.. and through those 21 days, i hope the friendships that i made remains. but.. good things never last! lets just hope that it wouldn't end so early.
[quote unquote dan] now we stand at the end of this journey and the beginning of the other, lets work hard and do a wonderful presentation for the one in school!
Date: 7 July 2005 (thurs)
Time: 5pm
Venue: LT 26
Admission: Free
why cant good things last?
finally it is the day for the presentation of cultural mapping. since morning, i was so anxious and excited abt it! until now, the anxiety is still burning in me. well.. now one is down while the other is waiting to be launched. im so estatic that things flowed pretty smoothly today..
thou there were little hiccups as some of us were pretty anxious, and some technical errors. but no biggie things looked great.. how some of us managed to diminish the tensed atmosphere in the room and cracked a little joke. and how this person was brought near to tears due to some memories but still able to convey his msg thru.
the dance was fabulous and the song was even more wonderful. it almost brought tears to my eyes. aft this presentation, i miss Banlung even more. the sand, sun, food, people.. and through those 21 days, i hope the friendships that i made remains. but.. good things never last! lets just hope that it wouldn't end so early.
[quote unquote dan] now we stand at the end of this journey and the beginning of the other, lets work hard and do a wonderful presentation for the one in school!
Date: 7 July 2005 (thurs)
Time: 5pm
Venue: LT 26
Admission: Free
why cant good things last?
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. |
| With respect to money, you save for a rainy day. |
| You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. |
| You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out. |
The NEXT BIG THING!
Cultural Mapping of a Hill Tribe in Cambodia
By Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Youth Expedition Project
The presentation will deal with cultural preservation, sensitivity towards impacting change, environmentally sustainable development and lastly, the revelation of personal experiences; learning and transformation that affects the "me"as a Singaporean and as an individual.
Date: 25 June 2005 (Saturday)
Time: 1400 - 1530
Venue: Asian Civilisations Museum
Admission: Free
people who doesnt need to prepare for their bro's bday are most certainly welcome! well in fact, everyone should come!
Cultural Mapping of a Hill Tribe in Cambodia
By Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Youth Expedition Project
The presentation will deal with cultural preservation, sensitivity towards impacting change, environmentally sustainable development and lastly, the revelation of personal experiences; learning and transformation that affects the "me"as a Singaporean and as an individual.
Date: 25 June 2005 (Saturday)
Time: 1400 - 1530
Venue: Asian Civilisations Museum
Admission: Free
people who doesnt need to prepare for their bro's bday are most certainly welcome! well in fact, everyone should come!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Appalled
as the car drove pass, i saw a lady in 40s and the other one in 60s with a headful of whites staggering down the stairs. as soon as they both reach ground level, short, stumpy lady of 40s pushed frail looking 60s on the back and she dropped like a fallen tree. FLAT! nose first.
at the age of 60, anyone who falls like that will most likely end up with some fractured knee or broken nose. however, the middle age lady did not stop. she continued and stomped on. i was in the car, stretching my head out, hoping to see that the old lady is fine and got assistance.
however, within that few seconds before the car pass the scene, no one at the bus stop where the happening was gave the old lady any form of assistance. I was appalled (and still am) at the thought of how selfish anyone could be. not helping cos he/she might land into trouble. in addition, the selfishness in the lady of 40s, not concern over the possibility that the frail old lady might have a broken bone. i was speechless for minutes as the radio in the car rattled on and the trees went pass me.
probably they dont want to end up in any trouble so they adopted the "mind your own business" strategy- which is popular in Singapore. or maybe it's the bystander effect. like when there's other people around, you dont see the need to go forward to help, cos u r not the only one around. well, perhaps its the rooted to the ground moments, which no one around have recovered from the shock. in any case, there are reasons not to help as much as we should.
why do people think that the one who got "harmed" are always the victim?
as the car drove pass, i saw a lady in 40s and the other one in 60s with a headful of whites staggering down the stairs. as soon as they both reach ground level, short, stumpy lady of 40s pushed frail looking 60s on the back and she dropped like a fallen tree. FLAT! nose first.
at the age of 60, anyone who falls like that will most likely end up with some fractured knee or broken nose. however, the middle age lady did not stop. she continued and stomped on. i was in the car, stretching my head out, hoping to see that the old lady is fine and got assistance.
however, within that few seconds before the car pass the scene, no one at the bus stop where the happening was gave the old lady any form of assistance. I was appalled (and still am) at the thought of how selfish anyone could be. not helping cos he/she might land into trouble. in addition, the selfishness in the lady of 40s, not concern over the possibility that the frail old lady might have a broken bone. i was speechless for minutes as the radio in the car rattled on and the trees went pass me.
probably they dont want to end up in any trouble so they adopted the "mind your own business" strategy- which is popular in Singapore. or maybe it's the bystander effect. like when there's other people around, you dont see the need to go forward to help, cos u r not the only one around. well, perhaps its the rooted to the ground moments, which no one around have recovered from the shock. in any case, there are reasons not to help as much as we should.
why do people think that the one who got "harmed" are always the victim?
Sunday, June 19, 2005
GREEN
Before we shifted, i never visited the GREEN PLACE. my current house is near that GREEN PLACE and after my dad got a GREEN car, we visited te GREEN PLACE more often.
1 year aft we moved into our current hse, my granny had to stay at that GREEN PLACE, hence, it became my second home. sometimes i wonder.. whether what you own or where u stay determines wat will happen.. like FengShui.. in this case, i think its a curse. like the nearer u r to somewhere, the more u will end up there, and the more convenient ur travelling, the more you should go there.. arrrgh wadever that meant. i think this hse is jinxed!
i hate the GREEN shirts that they all wear
i dislike the artificial GREENeries
i detest the Polar with GREEN logo there (it stinks up the whole stupid GREEN place! )
(oh and this is sth that i dislike most) i hate that box thingy with the tracks circulating the GREEN place!!
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it!
the theory of laughing hard and crying harder theory has proven itself right.
Before we shifted, i never visited the GREEN PLACE. my current house is near that GREEN PLACE and after my dad got a GREEN car, we visited te GREEN PLACE more often.
1 year aft we moved into our current hse, my granny had to stay at that GREEN PLACE, hence, it became my second home. sometimes i wonder.. whether what you own or where u stay determines wat will happen.. like FengShui.. in this case, i think its a curse. like the nearer u r to somewhere, the more u will end up there, and the more convenient ur travelling, the more you should go there.. arrrgh wadever that meant. i think this hse is jinxed!
i hate the GREEN shirts that they all wear
i dislike the artificial GREENeries
i detest the Polar with GREEN logo there (it stinks up the whole stupid GREEN place! )
(oh and this is sth that i dislike most) i hate that box thingy with the tracks circulating the GREEN place!!
i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it!
the theory of laughing hard and crying harder theory has proven itself right.
Friday, June 17, 2005
Priorities
maybe its time i set my priorities right.
i don't think i place my family in front of anything else. maybe its time i do.
seeing my mom's health failing, i seem to be the last to now.
i dont even know that she was admitted into the hospital till 10pm today when i reached hm.
as she lay in the hospital, im still having other programs on hand that i dont wanna put down.
am i selfish or am i selfish?
should i just let my effort down the drain and show more care and concern to her?
maybe thats why my left eye twitched last night
maybe its time i set my priorities right.
i don't think i place my family in front of anything else. maybe its time i do.
seeing my mom's health failing, i seem to be the last to now.
i dont even know that she was admitted into the hospital till 10pm today when i reached hm.
as she lay in the hospital, im still having other programs on hand that i dont wanna put down.
am i selfish or am i selfish?
should i just let my effort down the drain and show more care and concern to her?
maybe thats why my left eye twitched last night
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
GRAVE MISTAKES!
guys.. pls take note things u say to a girl.. or anyone!
1. "hey! c'mon man! im the son of the executive of a local carrier! who wouldn't wanna be with me? so.. when are you free to come out for a drink?"
i dun think that is a nice pick up line or anyway to ask a girl out. so what if u are some rich bastard??? i do not appreciate YOU!
2. "...money makes the world goes round. who wouldn't want money, fame, car, anything you name.."
MAJOR TURNOFF!! HELLO!! IM NOT A WHORE!
3. ".. yeah.. i dont know why im just so lucky.. shit happens.. but it dont seem to happen to me.. well.. some people just have to be lucky.."
shut up and stuff ur cocky-ness right up your HAIRY ASS!!!
do you even have a hole?
guys.. pls take note things u say to a girl.. or anyone!
1. "hey! c'mon man! im the son of the executive of a local carrier! who wouldn't wanna be with me? so.. when are you free to come out for a drink?"
i dun think that is a nice pick up line or anyway to ask a girl out. so what if u are some rich bastard??? i do not appreciate YOU!
2. "...money makes the world goes round. who wouldn't want money, fame, car, anything you name.."
MAJOR TURNOFF!! HELLO!! IM NOT A WHORE!
3. ".. yeah.. i dont know why im just so lucky.. shit happens.. but it dont seem to happen to me.. well.. some people just have to be lucky.."
shut up and stuff ur cocky-ness right up your HAIRY ASS!!!
do you even have a hole?
Sequence
it's amazing how things in life are closely related and their impact on the following event.
merely the appearance of someone or the existence of some problem makes a great difference in our lives and needless to mention the result of another event linked to the previous one.
have you ever come across such situation where you sit and think, "if she didn't come for this event, there wouldn't be ____ " and if ____ did not happen, ____(something else) will not happen too..
do u know wad m i talking about? no?? nevermind.. soon u will.
basically im just so amazed by how the (dis)appearance of someone leads to a totally different ending.
it's amazing how things in life are closely related and their impact on the following event.
merely the appearance of someone or the existence of some problem makes a great difference in our lives and needless to mention the result of another event linked to the previous one.
have you ever come across such situation where you sit and think, "if she didn't come for this event, there wouldn't be ____ " and if ____ did not happen, ____(something else) will not happen too..
do u know wad m i talking about? no?? nevermind.. soon u will.
basically im just so amazed by how the (dis)appearance of someone leads to a totally different ending.
Monday, June 13, 2005
matheopr
the pen that follows me everywhere just dropped on the floor and can no longer be used to write. it cant be refilled nor fixed. I've used it to solve complex maths calculations and write beautiful composition out of it. so, now it's useless but sentimental. should i keep it in my pencil case and take up unnecessary space or shd i just dump it away and make room for new pens??
the pen that follows me everywhere just dropped on the floor and can no longer be used to write. it cant be refilled nor fixed. I've used it to solve complex maths calculations and write beautiful composition out of it. so, now it's useless but sentimental. should i keep it in my pencil case and take up unnecessary space or shd i just dump it away and make room for new pens??
Sunday, June 12, 2005
STOOPID
if hard work doesn't gives good grades, why do people use words like "hardworking"?
if effort doesn't pay off, why do people encourage others to put in effort in things they do?
if being soft hearted land u somewhere full of thorns, why do people learn that they have to be sympathetic?
if our beauty is our flaw, why do people seek for Mr / Ms Perfect?
if you are everything im not but you make me complete, why do opposites NOT attract?
if memories are sweet, why do people urge others to come back to reality?
if i dont know what am i thinking about why do i bother typing them out?
Saturday, June 11, 2005
fuck!
well i thought i could just get over u baby
but i see that something i just cant know
from the way u wld hold me to the sweet things u toldme
i just cant find a way to let go of you
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sandy..
just screw it. stop dwelling on it. no more digging of info, no more trying to get near, no more i-think-he-still-likes me, and no more comparison. if they can do it so gracfully, why cant we? why must we always be the ones sinking in our own sadness while they lead their happy lives? why cant we let go as gracefully as they do? why do we always let all these silly stuffs affect us and not them? why why why?? i have no ans to that.
im not saying that its gonna be easy.. but u haf to know. im here!
well i thought i could just get over u baby
but i see that something i just cant know
from the way u wld hold me to the sweet things u toldme
i just cant find a way to let go of you
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sandy..
just screw it. stop dwelling on it. no more digging of info, no more trying to get near, no more i-think-he-still-likes me, and no more comparison. if they can do it so gracfully, why cant we? why must we always be the ones sinking in our own sadness while they lead their happy lives? why cant we let go as gracefully as they do? why do we always let all these silly stuffs affect us and not them? why why why?? i have no ans to that.
im not saying that its gonna be easy.. but u haf to know. im here!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
i see you upside down.
school is getting busy.. projects has been pouring in like work- vomit. surprisingly, I don't mind doing the compiling and stuff, i don't mind responsibilities. in fact, i like responsibilities.. WEIRD.. did i mentioned that im the class rep? hah! im just doing for the CCA points.
right now im sorting out my grp mates work and compiling it into a wonderful presentation tmr. WEIRD that im not whining.. been staying up till wee hrs to complete tutorials and read up on the reference texts.. hmm.. when was the last time i bother to complete my tutorial?? needless to mention reading up on recommended references. we'll see how long this lasts...
for the first time in years
school is getting busy.. projects has been pouring in like work- vomit. surprisingly, I don't mind doing the compiling and stuff, i don't mind responsibilities. in fact, i like responsibilities.. WEIRD.. did i mentioned that im the class rep? hah! im just doing for the CCA points.
right now im sorting out my grp mates work and compiling it into a wonderful presentation tmr. WEIRD that im not whining.. been staying up till wee hrs to complete tutorials and read up on the reference texts.. hmm.. when was the last time i bother to complete my tutorial?? needless to mention reading up on recommended references. we'll see how long this lasts...
for the first time in years
Sunday, June 05, 2005
| Slow and Steady |
 They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
How Do People See You?
is it true??
my ideal weekend
relax at a quiet coffee house located near the beach or at least provides the view of the sea.
read an exciting book which i wont to let it off my hands.
look at the people rushing around.
chat with a close fren.
with any drink.
it seems pretty simple but i have yet to realise it.
anyone interested to join me for this ideal weekend activity the coming weekend?? :D
relax at a quiet coffee house located near the beach or at least provides the view of the sea.
read an exciting book which i wont to let it off my hands.
look at the people rushing around.
chat with a close fren.
with any drink.
it seems pretty simple but i have yet to realise it.
anyone interested to join me for this ideal weekend activity the coming weekend?? :D
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