The NEXT BIG THING!

Cultural Mapping of a Hill Tribe in Cambodia
By Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Youth Expedition Project

The presentation will deal with cultural preservation, sensitivity towards impacting change, environmentally sustainable development and lastly, the revelation of personal experiences; learning and transformation that affects the "me"as a Singaporean and as an individual.

Date: 25 June 2005 (Saturday)
Time: 1400 - 1530
Venue: Asian Civilisations Museum
Admission: Free

people who doesnt need to prepare for their bro's bday are most certainly welcome! well in fact, everyone should come!

Appalled

as the car drove pass, i saw a lady in 40s and the other one in 60s with a headful of whites staggering down the stairs. as soon as they both reach ground level, short, stumpy lady of 40s pushed frail looking 60s on the back and she dropped like a fallen tree. FLAT! nose first.

at the age of 60, anyone who falls like that will most likely end up with some fractured knee or broken nose. however, the middle age lady did not stop. she continued and stomped on. i was in the car, stretching my head out, hoping to see that the old lady is fine and got assistance.

however, within that few seconds before the car pass the scene, no one at the bus stop where the happening was gave the old lady any form of assistance. I was appalled (and still am) at the thought of how selfish anyone could be. not helping cos he/she might land into trouble. in addition, the selfishness in the lady of 40s, not concern over the possibility that the frail old lady might have a broken bone. i was speechless for minutes as the radio in the car rattled on and the trees went pass me.

probably they dont want to end up in any trouble so they adopted the "mind your own business" strategy- which is popular in Singapore. or maybe it's the bystander effect. like when there's other people around, you dont see the need to go forward to help, cos u r not the only one around. well, perhaps its the rooted to the ground moments, which no one around have recovered from the shock. in any case, there are reasons not to help as much as we should.

why do people think that the one who got "harmed" are always the victim?

GREEN

Before we shifted, i never visited the GREEN PLACE. my current house is near that GREEN PLACE and after my dad got a GREEN car, we visited te GREEN PLACE more often.

1 year aft we moved into our current hse, my granny had to stay at that GREEN PLACE, hence, it became my second home. sometimes i wonder.. whether what you own or where u stay determines wat will happen.. like FengShui.. in this case, i think its a curse. like the nearer u r to somewhere, the more u will end up there, and the more convenient ur travelling, the more you should go there.. arrrgh wadever that meant. i think this hse is jinxed!

i hate the GREEN shirts that they all wear
i dislike the artificial GREENeries
i detest the Polar with GREEN logo there (it stinks up the whole stupid GREEN place! )
(oh and this is sth that i dislike most) i hate that box thingy with the tracks circulating the GREEN place!!

i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it! i hate it!

the theory of laughing hard and crying harder theory has proven itself right.

Priorities

maybe its time i set my priorities right.
i don't think i place my family in front of anything else. maybe its time i do.
seeing my mom's health failing, i seem to be the last to now.
i dont even know that she was admitted into the hospital till 10pm today when i reached hm.
as she lay in the hospital, im still having other programs on hand that i dont wanna put down.
am i selfish or am i selfish?
should i just let my effort down the drain and show more care and concern to her?

maybe thats why my left eye twitched last night

GRAVE MISTAKES!

guys.. pls take note things u say to a girl.. or anyone!

1. "hey! c'mon man! im the son of the executive of a local carrier! who wouldn't wanna be with me? so.. when are you free to come out for a drink?"
i dun think that is a nice pick up line or anyway to ask a girl out. so what if u are some rich bastard??? i do not appreciate YOU!

2. "...money makes the world goes round. who wouldn't want money, fame, car, anything you name.."
MAJOR TURNOFF!! HELLO!! IM NOT A WHORE!

3. ".. yeah.. i dont know why im just so lucky.. shit happens.. but it dont seem to happen to me.. well.. some people just have to be lucky.."
shut up and stuff ur cocky-ness right up your HAIRY ASS!!!

do you even have a hole?

Sequence

it's amazing how things in life are closely related and their impact on the following event.
merely the appearance of someone or the existence of some problem makes a great difference in our lives and needless to mention the result of another event linked to the previous one.
have you ever come across such situation where you sit and think, "if she didn't come for this event, there wouldn't be ____ " and if ____ did not happen, ____(something else) will not happen too..

do u know wad m i talking about? no?? nevermind.. soon u will.

basically im just so amazed by how the (dis)appearance of someone leads to a totally different ending.

matheopr

the pen that follows me everywhere just dropped on the floor and can no longer be used to write. it cant be refilled nor fixed. I've used it to solve complex maths calculations and write beautiful composition out of it. so, now it's useless but sentimental. should i keep it in my pencil case and take up unnecessary space or shd i just dump it away and make room for new pens??

STOOPID

if hard work doesn't gives good grades, why do people use words like "hardworking"?
if effort doesn't pay off, why do people encourage others to put in effort in things they do?
if being soft hearted land u somewhere full of thorns, why do people learn that they have to be sympathetic?

if our beauty is our flaw, why do people seek for Mr / Ms Perfect?
if you are everything im not but you make me complete, why do opposites NOT attract?
if memories are sweet, why do people urge others to come back to reality?

if i dont know what am i thinking about why do i bother typing them out?

fuck!

well i thought i could just get over u baby
but i see that something i just cant know
from the way u wld hold me to the sweet things u toldme
i just cant find a way to let go of you

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sandy..
just screw it. stop dwelling on it. no more digging of info, no more trying to get near, no more i-think-he-still-likes me, and no more comparison. if they can do it so gracfully, why cant we? why must we always be the ones sinking in our own sadness while they lead their happy lives? why cant we let go as gracefully as they do? why do we always let all these silly stuffs affect us and not them? why why why?? i have no ans to that.

im not saying that its gonna be easy.. but u haf to know. im here!

I am Sam

i dont remember watching a movie that made my tears rolled from the first 20 mins to the end of the show.

3 packs of tissue.

i see you upside down.

school is getting busy.. projects has been pouring in like work- vomit. surprisingly, I don't mind doing the compiling and stuff, i don't mind responsibilities. in fact, i like responsibilities.. WEIRD.. did i mentioned that im the class rep? hah! im just doing for the CCA points.

right now im sorting out my grp mates work and compiling it into a wonderful presentation tmr. WEIRD that im not whining.. been staying up till wee hrs to complete tutorials and read up on the reference texts.. hmm.. when was the last time i bother to complete my tutorial?? needless to mention reading up on recommended references. we'll see how long this lasts...

for the first time in years

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

is it true??

my ideal weekend

relax at a quiet coffee house located near the beach or at least provides the view of the sea.
read an exciting book which i wont to let it off my hands.
look at the people rushing around.
chat with a close fren.
with any drink.

it seems pretty simple but i have yet to realise it.
anyone interested to join me for this ideal weekend activity the coming weekend?? :D

Pls enter your password before entering My Dreamland

i've been having this dream whereby this particular guy have been intruding into my dream for more than 3 times within a period of 7 weeks. no! it's not wet dreams!!

when i was in Banlung, he appeared twice. and recently, he returned again.. so far, twice.. hmmm. i wonder wad does dreams means..................

oh.. and we always seem to be a couple...
hmmm......................................
stop intruding!

forget password?

i juz discovered something weird abt myself.

i find washing transparancies very therapeutic.

wwweeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrdddd

la di da di da

yay.. it's been 1 week of school.. not so yay aft all since projs are coming up but nevertheless it's interesting.. stuff like checking out the details of hotels and managing an event!! :D im so looking forward to it.. it better be good!

school's been great, for i haf a bunch of MAD pple with me.. the bis peeps who went to cambodia, all specialising in TOURISM!! haha.. so lecture was nothing less than hearing my thunderous laughter... i know wad u r thinking: "im so glad im not in ur lecture!" so far, im glad that i chose tourism [so sera, u dun haf to kill me or attempt to murder me since im enjoying.. :D ]

oh yes.. about the MAD people. we did CRAZY stuff too.. on wednesday, aft lect n doing some stuff, we lepak. yes. that is our middle name.. tt's wad we haf been doing since we returned from Cambodia. like i was saying.. we were resting n relaxing waiting for the rest to discuss some stuff.. n norisa, one of the makcik of our grp, suggested that we shd juz relax on the grass.

she just returned from aussie. she went there to visit her sis and she realised that tt's one culture that we Singaporeans do not adopt- sitting around.. anywhere... along the pavement, outside the library, on the stairs, under the shade.... probably there's too much facilities available for us, making us all so pampered and as if by sitting on the grass, som huge insect is gonna gobble us up into their stomach. so the madness drove into the 4 of us.. we went to sit on this patch of green grass and juz read, talk and laugh.. people walked pass us looking, starring and glaring, pointing, laughing and mocking.. at one point, the security guard came over, and we thought that he was gonna chase us off the grass. surprisingly, he came and showed us a thumbs up! woot!

but wads wrong? doing something out of norm is not something sinful ya? is it a crime??!!!

so we planned to haf lunch on that grass patch (aka the Green gound) on the coming monday. for more details, click here ..

more updates later..

i wonder

looking at how things happen and their impact to set me to think and learn, i wonder if i've ever left such an impact on anyone's life.

i wonder my existence ever made any difference in your life.

i wonder if i die the next second, will you realise. will that affect you.
i dun think so
because i know, i did not leave a deep impression within you.
or did i?

The Last Day

Tomorrow will be my first day of 5th semester. i feel more anxious than dreadful.

looking back at the past 7 weeks of my holidays, i learnt alot and i think i grew (physically and mentally). learnt about people and alot about myself, as well as things around me. and i feel like i've been that green slimey frog that has been living in her own little well for the past 19 years. so protected and limited. not anymore.. cos she will try with all her might to jump out of that well and look at the rest of the world.

- you dont need much to lead a simple life. although resources available are limited, people are contented with wad they have and make the best out of it. unlike people that has been affected by modernization, keep yearning for more and never seem contented.

many girls in cambodia have been forced into sex slave.

why is it that these girls do not give up their life and continue living in that state of torment, while people here, in Singapore, has almost all that they want and attempt to commit suicide?

- Is globalization an angel or a menace? globalization occurs due to constant transactions between countries- international trade. as people trade, they bring their culture into another country. this causes the culture of 1 country to be spread around all other countries, thus lose their unique culture and all behaves like one.

furthermore, during international trade, the riches benefit the most! hence, causes the rich to become richer and the poor to remain poor. in simple terms, it's like the rich exploiting the poors for their relatively cheap resources.

good or bad? u decide for yourself.

- superficiality
there are guys around who are not superficial. so ladies.. dun be discouraged. such extinct species still do exist. although they like you for who you are, they still drool at the sight mini skirts and the pretty faces. but you know, deep inside they still love you. or at least thats wad they want you to think. hah! but seriously.. such pple still exist. i got into a relationship at a point where i looked the WORST. ya. i know wad u r thinking "u mean u ever look better than that?" but hey! thats not the point alright.

and i fully understand the meaning of judging the book by its cover. it may look boring outside, but the inside may be sparkling with knowledge.

- people come and go and walk away... hold on to your emotions do not let them just splatter. always remember that people come and go. no point holding onto something which u know theres no future. sometimes being hopeful is not the right choice. always remember to trek water even though u haf a float. u never know when the float will deflate. the close of one window is the open of the other (quote unquote nim). so look forward to the new window that is open. and when it's time to let go, juz move on, and probably you'll find a nicer float.

- i've been waiting for things to happen. thats not wad i wan.. i want to make things happen. people might say, "oh.. it's fate... bla bla bla" i believe, u r the creator of your own fate. u direct ur own route and u r the script writer of your play. cliche. but true.

- within 3 weeks, 2 person told me this "Don't Trust Anybody"
hmmm.. maybe i'm too gullible.. i haf to work on that.

so basically, i had a wonderful holidays after slogging for 10 mths (i had my attachment last sem, remember?) this break is ENRICHING! really learnt alot, and absorbed quite a fair bit. amazing experience that i enjoyed. choices that i never regret making, in every aspects. wonderful people that i have met.

looking at my posts.. i think im very tempremental... yikes... that's bad....... im sad one day and happy the other... anyway.. i woke up with a very nice dream.. maybe thats why.. to my girlies- char n nim- sandy, and peeps, thanx for being there n listening to my whines.. ur presence has been greatly appreciated..

just feel like typing n updating my blog so this will be a happier post..

hmm.. interesting happenings... nothing much.. been meeting up with the cambodian peeps the WHOLE WEEK! not exaggerating at all..

sun- Zouk Flea & Easy,
mon- movie marathon at dan's hse
tues- met up with fad n sch mates and ran into the monk
wed- met to bitch and lepak
thurs- the kumpucheans meeting
fri- kumpucheans bbq
sat(today)- met to bitch, lepak n dinner
sun(tmr)- Madagascar movie preview..

so thats how i spent the week before sch reopens... n surprisingly, im glad that sch is starting... i guess i just wanna feel occupied.. anyway.. more updates soon

whine to unwind

i totally feel like wad i felt last week.. juz dwelling in my own sadness n be sad!
i'm not happy seeming happy or being happy.. arrgh wadever that meant!
i dun understand... why different people handle a situation differently..

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i miss you

TOURISM

alright.. i got wad i want.
i ought to be happy
but my mom is such a wet blanket!!
why cant she just leave me alone!
GO AWAY

Your Birthdate: April 23

With a birthday on the 23rd of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented and versatile, very good at presenting ideas. You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine. You may have a tendency to shirk responsibility. Very sociable, you make friends easily and you are an excellent traveling companion.

im a people-person?! never knew.. i always think pple percieves me as arrogant?

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talented? ya rite.. haf u seen my previous post?!

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ok.. this is true.. i love changes... n travelling.. :D

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clever? i bet u havent heard nim calling me a bimbo from dawn to dusk

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true.. impatient.. n i need new things to keep me excited. routine? boring!

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hmmm.. i thout im pretty responsible.. probably not..

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sociable? im not sure.. u tell me... excellent travelling companion ok!! not even good.. it says excellent.. haha.. so who wanna travel?? ;)

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

"when the decision u made failed, it's just God's way of telling ya to take another direction"

i saw this is sera's blog.. indeed.. it's God's way of telling me to take another direction. oh.. n if u r wondering, yup.. i submitted my appeal letter this morning.. anyway.. thanx sera.. it was really nice to mention that little decision i made in ur blog.. really appreciate it.. n perhaps its time for u n ur blog to invest in a Tag Board so people like me, and only me can respond to ur entries.. and perhaps its time for me to move on to the other direction that God is pointing to.

every experience has its learning point(s)

1. do not procrastinate (if not, u WILL REGRET cos things just ends in a snap of fingers)
2. do not ever allow ANYONE to intimidate you (if not, u will NOT have a chance to share your thoughts)
3. do not live in denial (face the reality.. u haf to do that sooner or later)
4. always anticipate and prepare for the worst..(be hopeful.. but not wishful)
5. always remember sinking in is easier than pulling out [quote unquote nim] so think carefully.. but at many times, u never try u never know.. n its through all these experiences that u learn n grow.
6. never walk in the rain.. (if not, u WILL end up like me..)

-pulling out and growing-

My parents will be so glad if we stay in Banlung.. cos every day, at 12, the power supply goes off by itself.. so I will not haf any entertainment and I will go n sleep.. so much for coming back to "reality" and "being possessed" (my mom actually thinks that i'm possessed cos im acting n behaving differently ever since i return... now.. who should come back to reality?!) *bangs head*

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So I am finally doing something that I want to do.. I am going to school tmr first thing in the morning to submit my appeal letter to change my major to Tourism.. hopefully my letter is convincing enough to pass off.. I think tourism is something that I will be more interested in, since I wanna travel.. and it allows me to realise wad i wanna be-- event coordinator.. screw future! At least it is something where my interest lies in n I haf an edge over, thanx to my attachment..

Tamia- Officially Missing You

All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

All I do is lay around
Two years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I’m officially missing you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you

i hate it...

when i think..
when i smile..
when my heart skip a bit..
when everything's not so fine aft all..
when every good thing has to end.

I.N.S.P.I.R.E.D

lotsa thouts (pk.. not really thoughts.. )running through my mind today..

1. how some good girls ard dun seem to be able to get a date while the other girls haf dates swarm ard them?

2. how for the past 2 weeks i haf no thouts... or not tt much thouts.. i think being in a relationship is when everything seem all so beautiful.. n the world is juz so nice.. n im oh so happy with my current situation tt i dun haf to think of anything... tt's how being in a relationship makes someone stooopid.. haha.. ok.. sour grapes..

3. how when things arent tt rite anymore, more thouts come pouring in.. cos thats when u actually uses the part in between ur shoulders, in the head n i think its name is B.R.A.I.N

4. how some pple are so mature for their age n pple like me spend my time on unimportant stuff.. n still whine.. n now i realise how unimportant they are as compared to others..

5. how i am passion-less n juz live life as it is n just wait n see wad happens n not actually making things happen.. how i m gut-less i am.. not persuing things tt i want..

basically juz some realization... and i feel so good now man..

mebbe sometimes, ok.. all the time..

things happen for a reason...

dear lionel aka auntie agony..

Thank you so much.. u made my day brighter.. or rather a better night.. it was really nice of u to share my lousy day on top of ur lousy day.. n the stuff that u said really struck me, n cleared my day.. so the sun was able to shine through the overcastted sky to provide light for the poor homosapiens on the ground.. (ok.. drama mama.. but nim.. i wonder if u remember this sentence.. hah! )

so anyway.. his words really set me thinking.. and everything seems so clear aft tt.. if u ever see this entry.. lionel, thanx alot! really... a whole lot!! although we snap at each other at times (in fact many times..), u made me feel so good!!

thanx mate!!

weird thoughts..

suddenly everything came piling on me..
people always say this "everyone is unique in their own way..", which really sets me thinking.. how m i different from others?
in terms of appearance? i dun think so....... NOT AT ALL! juz some fugly piece of lard..
in terms of inner beauty?? im not the kind of person whose inner beauty radiates...
in terms of knowledge??? definitely limited....
in terms of talent???? ya sure man... piano is just SO different n uncommon among pple nowadays...
in terms of academic results?? mediocre student...
in terms of character?? haf u seen me flare!!??? no?? your turn will come soon

i really wonder.. wad kind of first impression do i leave for the others???

i juz realise... i was watching miss congenality and her boyfriend juz called to say that their relationship wasnt working out... n tt was when i heard abt mine..
talk abt being coincidental.

i wish someone is awake to listen to me...................
cant sleep... thanx for my neighbour above who hit furiously on their floor, my ceiling...
BAH!
always remember to trek water even if u haf a float

i didnt know that i'm a person who lives in denial.
maybe that only occured when im in a relationship..
but guess wad...

hello singlehood

how Cambodia trip has moulded me

Bad
dearest girlies, girlfriends, n mom..
it is advisable not to go shopping with me now.. cos everything looks so extravagant, n i'll be like, when will i wear this out.. n i'll just browse through as everything seems unaffordable.. n i'm still in my Banlung state.. so gimmi some more time.. i think by next week i shd be fine......

Good
living in the long house in Banlung was like a training.. yesterday, i was in town with my bung seom lann.. it was pretty late.. around 1am.. we went into the toilet, n suddenly the lights went off suddenly.. i was in the toilet n there was a girl who went like... oh shit!! but i was like calm n was able to figure my way out even thou it was dark.. near pitch black.. both of us found our way out n we had the same thout.. Thanx for always the always tripping electricity in Banlung.. haha!

He's Just Not That Into You- Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo, Lauren Monchik

after the intro of it in nim's blog quite sometime ago, i was interested to read about the way they convince ladies that the guy they've got may not be Mr. all-so-perfect.. n i must say they did a good job..

the book writes about how a guy is just not that into you when he doesnt ask u out (ok... maybe this is true.. ), and how a guy is just not that into you when he doesnt calls you.. (hmmm.. this one is a lil tricky.. cos i was disturbed after reading it...), and how a guy is just not that into you when he doesnt make known about the relationship, as they too need some security in a relationship.... bla bla bla.......

so.. i was reading the book... i was pretty disturbed by the he's just not that into you if he doesnt call you.. but surely he would be busy at some point in life n he cant call.. the counter argue being he will wanna call u, as you'll be the brightness in his mundane life, n he'll wanna talk to u as much as u wanna talk to him.. er.. ya... but would u rather haf a guy who does nothing but talk to you for a brighter day or would u rather haf a guy who strives hard for a brighter future?

something to think about eh?

to view pics taken in cambodia...
[ click here ] or [ here]
courtesy of Alvin...

CAMBODIA aka KUMPUCHA 11 apr 2005 - 1 may 2005 yay! im finally blogging abt my cambodia trip! i wanted to mail a postcard back, but the posting system didnt seem reliable.. so the idea was abolished... basically lots had happened in the trip.. but no worries.. im back in a piece! haha.. it was really experiential and it definitely is an eye-opener for me! events such as... - waking up in 530 in the morning and realise that the sky is already as bright as 730 in spore and people haf started their transactions and bargainings ringing in the atmosphere. - glenn n i took the tuk tuk (which is juz a motorbike) and we were amazed the first time we rode it and it cld fit 3! but trust me, ive seen more than 4 on the motorbike when we were in Cambodia! oh.. n we almost got into an accident.. the driver immediately stepped on his brake and screeched, then the engine cldnt start! - the mekong river which is a freshwater river has dolphins staying in it! i caught a few glimpse of it, and they look so adorable! i was excited! the time spent waiting for the dolphins was marvellous... the serenity so beautiful and calming! - travelling on a pick up with 22 person and their backpacks excluding the driver and a translator, on bumpy roads and irritating people is definitely something that u might not even get to experience! oh.. n my cap flew away! the night travelling part is the best! the stars filled the sky with the moonlight shining at us! this is something that i think i'll never get to experience again! i love the ride from Kratie to Banlung! i'll miss the times when my butt is hardly on the seat, and half the time im squatting while danial was kneeling to me, when dowell was hugging tightly to Sum, when Julius is knocking off on top of the compartment of the pick-up, when norisa, amelia, chris and liz was singing, and farhan complaining that only 1/3 of his ass is on the seat.. something that i definitely wanna keep in my memories! - visiting villages and waterfalls which are magnificent! especially the "dangerous" one as one of the IYDP student's fren got sucked in it! getting down to the waterfall was already like rock climbing.. and in order to get from the front to the end of the waterfall, u haf to move like a spiderman.. with all fours checking out different rocks to step on! but the sight of it was BEAUTIFUL! - swimming in a lake.. not juz any lake, but the Yak Lom Lake.. i want to swim in the Yak Lom Lake, the Yak Lom Lake, the Yak Lom Lake... later, like the 2nd last day in Banlung, den i realise that the Yak Lom Lake is actually part of a Volcano... so i cld be a boiled goose anytime! and the bees there are fierce sial! i got stung 3 times! - falling off the pick up like a jackfruit (quote unqoute farhannah) and landed with a Panda! - passing through this village where kids threw water on us, as it was some festival.. it was the 3rd day of Khmer New Year.. - rode a bike myself.. but still unclear bout the gear thingy.. but nevermind.. cos i've rode the bike! - getting involve in a motorbike accident n i was the pillon (no worries.. i only had a lil scratch).. Dowell was being nice and wanted to send us to the market. Chris took Amelia and Norisa while i was with Dowell.. we left our hse, n passed the wooden planks which were covering the drain.. we had to go on a higher speed in order to go pass the wooden thing.. but the bike did not turn juz in time, so it went over to the lane for bikes of another directions... although there wasnt any markings, the people there had mutual understanding that that;s how the traffic works! ok.. so den, we bike almost crashed into another bike coming towards us.. dowell had scratches on his hands and arms and knee... OUCH! and i, i had a lil scratch on my feet... *gasp* - waking up early in the morning before 6 to go to the market for breakfast- chicken rice, laksa lookalike stuff, mutton curry, porridge with fried bee hoon.... and never fail to get Cafe tenako tekok everyday! -highlighted my hair! for US$2! and manicure was US$0.25.. in spore, when the highlight ur hair, they use aluminium foil.. here, they use blag trash bags and fold that section and secure it with bobby pins and when they remove the trash bag, they only wash that section of the hair! - celebrating bday overseas is totally different from celebrating it at home or locally... and my fellow group mates as well as teachers were so sweet... they bought 19 small cup cakes and on top of each, there were candles! aww... - going out for a drink at the end of each day aft translating for the whole day... oh.. and rice wine which was later known as wice rine.. hee... it's really strong apparantly.. i could feel my cheeks burning aft they refilled the thingy with 3 cups of water.. - one of the nights, we had debrief on the run way of Banlung Airport.. it was fantastic.. the stars and all.. lotsa uninvited guests thou.. the kids.... lotsa them... n we had our dinner on the run way.. as soon as the kids FINALLY left, we had to leave too,, but it's really amazing. - ANGKOR WAT! the most amazing architecutre i've ever seen.... simply wonderful.. it's one of the major temples around.. and there are other which is smaller in size, but still MAGNIFICENT! and theres this temple- Ta Prohm.. the monuments had trees growing on them.. and the roots are GIGANTIC.. and im not exaggerating a single bit. - visiting the rubbish dump where the rubbish of the Phnom Penh people are being discarded! and people actually do live there. they collect the unwanted materials for a living and they even have food stall there! and the rubbish dump measures 5km x 7km - spent the most amazing 2 nights in Phnom Pehn in Royal Highness Hotel... had great chats with my bung som lan- the most precious thing that ive gained from this trip.. hope that we can all return to Banlung together!

i think im in love... *gasp* im sorry to peeps who thinks that im gushing too much... but thats wad im suppose to do now, and not wait till the honeymoon period past n sigh! so ya... oh my... everything seemed to magical.. n im actually HAPPY!! very elated in fact.. the happiness that comes out from the inner part of my heart! n the bad side that comes along with the happiness around me is the attachment of my emotions! thats bad.. but wads good to know is that my emotions toward some other creature out there is bring reciprocated! yay!! getting sleepy... more up later! nite

small yet powerful.. the 3 small words are juz simply amazing.. i dun remember when was the last time i heard someone telling me- i love you, and i was overwhelmed by it.. i was smiling to myself in the lift as i was reaching home.. n i feel that im falling deeper.. something which i wish i could control but i simply cant.. (at this point of time, i juz realise that my bung som lan- which means darling in Khmer- Julius is reading this, or he could be reading this.. due to some weird connections that i'll elaborate it the next time) ya.. i was saying.. falling deeper... im juz afraid that i'll be scarred again.. u know, like getting too deep into something which turn out to be very shallow.. u know, like too serious too soon... but on the good side... at least im falling deeper.. hehe... oh ya.. hey peeps! im back from Cambodia... really love it.. nice place.. more elaborating of that next time... rite now, juz let me gush! hah!

CAMBODIA!! here i come!!! okie... i'll be heading for the airport in 3 hrs time... juz finished packing and settling some stuff.. by 845, im outta Singapore! and i'll be in Cambodia for the next 3 weeks.. i'll miss u people... and this blog will be officially dead for 3 weeks.. anyway.. i'll be back on 1st may.. really excited abt spending my bday overseas.... hehehe... bye people.. love ya loads! MUACKS!

06 April 2005 Girlfriend night.. [typed ALOT but blogger is Fucked UP!! so everything will be in point form... :( ] went to nims hse n shes not ard.. DRESS UP!! always the best part of the night.. plus pictures time budget clubbing trip.. took bus and had prata.. went for more drinks in cheekys and nim's body is rejectin alcohol went club hopping.. and had to hide cups! went to CU, Coco Latte, Rush and past by Double O Cheekys is still the best,, went to find club.. and stayed there for the rest of the night.. most of the time spent on podium.. was eyeing on this guy who cld really dance,, the whole night trying to run away from Rico get to know this Nigarian girl or is she indian? i forgot.. but she cld really shake her booty and did her thang.. den was on the podium.. and get to know this Chinese Girl.. jumped while asking for Mundian To Bach Ke Rehi it was played so nim n i went up the podium.. and she said that her top fell off.. went back to the wall area and know a bunch of Cheena kuay gers.. continued dancing.. and at a point was resting on the podium looking at that guy do his thang... they can really dance man.. n 1 of them is the 1 i was eyeing.. i was trying to learn some moves from his fren n i forgot how, in the end we ended up dancing.. and apparantly he's a swiss thai.. i think thats all?? but all in all.. does clubbing guys last? i dun think so............

02 April 2005 7-years-of-friendship Night. went to cheekys to quench our desire... it was pretty early when char n i reach there.. wheres that CJ bitch (now aka in-du-ren bitch) ??? she's in KL while char n i were here having a hell lot of fun.. ~im good im good without you..... ~ it was pretty early when char n i got a lil tipsy.. like er.. ard 11 plus.. that night, vodka fruit punch became my favorite!! (it;s really nice.. u haf to try it!) we both took our drinks and sat at the podium- FIRST CLASS SEAT, happily seeping our drinks while looking at a gang of indians n nigarians battling out at the song- User Yeah.. it was 0024 that night... i took note of it.. before that, the dance floor was EMPTY! we went to the bar to get somemore drinks.. and saw this cute guy in a turban- Dave. so we were like.. do u know nimrta.. apparantly he knows... i think it;s the in-du-ren thing.. it was his fren- Mo's birthday.. and they opened a bottle of jin bean.. oh.. and Ray invited Char n i to join them for their after-work party at Desire.. some club at Boat Quay area.. n we sensed something fishy.. so we din really agreed... so back to the night... Dave invited us over to drink... i introduced char as the PAANJABEE.. haha.. nad how she was said to haf raised her hands in the bhangrah night when the DJ went "all punjabis in the house, put ur hands in the air!! " haaha.. den later dave n i was saying that we shd battle to a Mundian to Bach Kerei *spell* HAHAH!! den he poured me Jin Bean on the rocks, i poured it down my throat thou it was burning!! he was like "yea!! now u r a punjabi! " hahahaha.. i was like.. wadever.. den we continued to stand ard.. went out for a breather.. and faddy came... cos it was char's bday.. and we took pics that char had no memories of.. den dave came n say... " i tah u beer! if u lose, u haf to dance with me.. " i was like... ok.. since im thirsty.. haha.. so we went back into the bar and asked for 2 pints of beer... so i was like telling myself.. it's juz water.. drink it like how i drink water... obviously, he outdrank me.. duh! he;s a PUNJABI!! so we danced.. lots of them not remembered.. n later, when Mundian to Bach Kerei was on, Dave wasnt ard... i had to enjoy the music myself.. so den... Jonathan- char's fren- and Ron came... they refused to go to Cheekys.. and at this point, Char was really hyper.. she juz grabbed my hands, pulled me and dashed across the road.. TWICE!! dave had to go all the way across the road to get me back.. it was really hilarious! den we went to UE sq.. cos i had to withdraw $$ and wasted quite alot of time there.. and went to the toilet.. and my phone slipped of my hands n dropped into the toilet bowl! n it stopped working!! sob... so den... thats when the all-so-favorite line of char came out that night.. Dave wanted to haf some time alone with me.. jon n ron are being asses n do not want to go to Cheekys, but wants Coco Latte instead.. n Char wanted to go with them.. n i dun really wanna go to Coco latte, since i've alrdy paid for Cheekys... Char was like.. you are coming with me! i was like, i can go with Dave and i can look for u later.. and she was like... " 7-years-of-friendship.. u think abt it!" so i was like.. erm.. ok... "Dave.. i have to go... bla bla bla,,," so we went to Coco Latte.. the guys paid for us and i met Charles and Ben there.. i happily went onto the Podium n asked ben n charles up.. i think i kinda grinded Charles.. haha! juz a lil.. n when i was on the podium, someone squeezed my ass.. but charles was standing behind me, so i punched him.. but it turned out to be ron.... and Char n i happily made out (with tongues) and danced lesbian-y on the podium... n the frens thout i was weird.. but who cares... den aft that, ron, jon, char n i went to some place la... which i dun even remember why.. i think its cos we were trying to go to Desire. which in the end we did not... cos somethingS happened.. den later as the day breaks, we ended up in Liang Court.. and some Ang Mo came and asked us how to go to the traveller's inn or sth.. he looks spastic and jon was totally beig a bitch to him.. haha... anyway... it's all about the 7-yr-of-friendship.. and things that happened further enhanced and strengthened the 7-yrs-of-friendship.... and this friendship with the white, mashmallow-y charlotte-y has been 7 years n counting n counting n counting n counting n counting

yay! surprise bday cake during the class chalet!!! it was so nice of them... thanx TB03!! touched.. moved... a moment that i forgot the unhappiness..... :D

its the EXAMS period.. n guess wad?! im still surfing the net. chatting on msn.. playing solitaire.. runnning ard my hse.. BLOGGING.......... shouldnt i be studying instead? n im feeling so bah!!! CONCENTRATE!!! someone please gimmi some concentration pills!!! BAH!!!!!

are connections illusions? im phobia to connections just as im phobia to antibiotics. im scared. i dunno if it is real. it feels so good. yet the moment when i think that it is an illusion, everything transformed from a planet of colours into black and white. from my world of fairytales to the cruel reality from feeling so spoiled, pampered and baby i feel that im living in a world of lies, deceptions and dishonesty. from feeling so special, the one n only, to feeling so superficial, shallow and on the surface. from feeling loved, to feeling hurt. from feeling so precious and treasured, to feeling like a dirt and whore. i wish it is real. but i've learnt to take things with a pinch of salt. so.. are connections illusions?

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Busy BIRTHDAYS Weekend!! Firstly, thanx NIMZIE!! for changing my blogskin... Muacks~ secondly, NEXT WEEK IS ME EXAMS!!! and im still playing.............. arrrgh... yesterday was sandy's Birthday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! love ya!! Smucks! so we had lunch together at the Crystal Jade!! Yummy!!! in the eveing was nimzie's surprise bday chalet! so i went to show face la... hahaha... n my SWEET parents came n pick me up... thirdly, this morning i went for INJECTIONS!!! arrrrrrrh............... scared! flu jab and typhroid... the price i pay for Cambodia trip... and later of the day, i went to glenn's hse for his BDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHADAY GLENNY (aka chicken)! so we ate n ate n ate!! alot!!!!!! his parents are so HIP and his sista is SO cute!!! and guess wad we did afta food? CORRECT!! it was clubbing time!!! so naughty rite?? EXAMS are like next week and im still clubbing!!! TSK TSK TSK!!!! it was fun thou.. left damn early... but wadever... it was fun!! THANX PEEPS FOR THE MARVELOUS WEEKEND (b4 my fears arrive! *gulp*)..

im so sad....... my Pig and Bacon is GONE!!! sob sob sob............ ^ . . ^my piggy.................................................................................................... (_@_)mebbe its god's sign that i shd change my blogskin... sobz.....sign that i shd change my blogskin... sobz.....

after so long.... hey hey hey!!! i know u miss me... oh... juz say you do... i know u guys miss me to bits cos u havent hear from me bout my life for like... erm... more than a wk?? it was quite a crappy-fun evening.... right after out revision tutorial ended at 645, sera n i left for zouk- some NTU party.. they were giving out free tix at NP last friday.. so i thout juz go for a drink... cos feel like drinking... and the tix said "1 standard drink coupon" exact words!! so then sera n i went.. thinking of chill alil and drink alil... so we went with our t-shirt and jeans and big school bag... sera wore havanas flip flops.. and i wore a cheapo looking slip- ons... i was totally not in my clubbing gear.... no a tint of make up... and not a single piece of jewel.. we queued to get in zouk, cos there were others as cheapo as a chicken... (my teacher, Koh aka KPT said that singaporeans are reincarnation of chicken... cos we've got chicken courage to go on strikes and when we go to places like bangkok, we'll start to speak in the chicken language -cheap cheap cheap- haha i thout it was quite funny) anyway... so we went in.. changed for a drink coupon.. thinking of getting a drink and leave la... so den we went into zouk itself and saw some other frens.. then they were like "do u know wads printed on the flip side of the coupon?? it says for NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK!!!" both of us went... WAD???! and our mood were dampened!! in the end, sera ordered a coke and i had a mocktail... we left as soon as we finished the drink... went for dinner and took a cab down to Cheekys.. cos i really needed to drink.... so i went to cheeky without my clubbing gear... for a moment, Max, Ray and Rico cldnt recognise me... i was like.. Hi!! they were like squinting... hahaha... so, the major qn... Why must we dress sluttily when we go clubbing?? i think.. it's because of the Social conformity.. like how pple in that social setting dresses like that, and that we shd be wearing stuff like that... next, personally, i think Clubbing is a Slutty activity.. so pple have to dress to the occassion!! lastly, peeps in a club socialises.. people will love to experience Social Approval.. this happens when one is positively evaluated by others, and their self esteem increases. people in the club are superficial.. so they will often judge based on your physical appearance.. therefore pple dress more flamboyant to attract more attention, and pple will approach and thus self esteem increases... by the virtue of principles mentioned above, people dress sluttily for a reason!! and she might not be a slut. all the above comments are personal views!! hope u enjoyed the lil analysis above...

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suddenly, the bus became so interesting and the floor became so eye- catching

u came i gleed u left i plead we talked u probed mystery resolved

FunnyDecentBlingBlingLost Nite... dress up took cab down enter the club got 1st round of drinks from pink face sista - nim's cheapo hkg bling bling dropped- 2nd round was paid for -damn cool la.. like some movie thingy wherebt the lady's dinner was paid for or sth... haha.. illusion- 3rd round on the pink faced sista again bryan n paul came along.. one had char n one had nim and i was sitting around n went out the club saw pink face sista on the other side of the club n went over but got stuck in the middle of the rd talked to pink face sista bout work diana came nim drunk n puked, char ran to get tissue and i ran to get water dump her in the cab, had some arguements about where to stop n left ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- the later part of the nite, the sequence might not be rite, and alot of things are missed out......... char with bryan n i was having fun being alone some cute malay guy came n said his fren- fadil was interested- i asked fadil to come to me himself n later, fadil said i look like malay --> cheesie pick up line dunno how i ended up with a decent north indian guy... Holiday Inn played, n i hopped onto the podium... a few Mr Xs came along left hp with Ray n he thout i asked for his number... he juz happily keyed in his number.. Bouncer Paul wasnt bouncing.. but he was around.. n i kinda remembered that he lifted me up.. i think it was because i sneaked into mystique... hahaha.. there was a fight forgot left for char's hse... puked home

Harry's Bar Housepour Spiritz- $12 (one-for-one) Housepour Wine- $12 (one-for-one) Lychee Martini- $12 Bombaytini- $11 Sex on the Beach- $10 Malibu Pineapple- $11 Never drown your sorrow in alcohol. esp for pple who dun give a shit. anyway.. im gg to Cambodia. then, some Orstritch aka cowards can hide from me forever. are u thinking why is tt coward hiding?? i have no fucking idea.

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somethings for guys to note: u dun haf to make a whole big hoo haa to put a smile on ur girl's face.. small things like putting ur arms behind her chair will make her giggle inside and giving a nice small peck on the neck while hugging will make her feel all so fizzy fuzzy... juz some small things to note..

i wasted a precious weekend.. it was online online and online.. i think it's the wireless network that my dad installed.. now i can access internet from my room perfectly well.. no need to steal my neighbour's. but now i'm so glued to my laptop.. mebbe with other reasons too... *giggle* but wadever it is.. im so glued to my laptop.. someone pls help me detach me from my laptop.... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thout of the day: ' guys think too highly of themselves- but it's this kind of things that brings laughter to ur mundane life. '

YAY!!! my dad agreed to let me go.... the next barrier is the interview.. i hope i'll get thru tt.. going to Cambodia deep into the northern part- Ban Lung.. this time, it aint those house/ school building trip.. this trip, is to study the cultures of this tribe which aint affected by the Globalization. (at least tt's wad the teacher said) so we're going there to learn about their cultures, musical talents, legends & myths, and try to translate their transcribe into English Language.. this is also one of those big activity.. a book n video will be published aft the trip (or so i was told) it'll take us 3 days to travel from where out flight lands to Ban Lung( the small village where the research begins) so we'll travel over land and water to reach Ban Lung from Phnom Penh. these travellings will not be pre booked... so it'll be immediate purchases.. it sounds so rugged rite?! we'll pass by the Mekong River too. the only thing that i hesitate is..... i have to take 4 different types of vaccinations before leaving for Cambodia.... i feel so excited!!!! i feels that recently, good things are happening on me... hahaha... *touch wood* hope it'll remain like that!!! ~big wide grin~

BAN LUNG!!! i cant wait to go!!! i wish my dad will allow me to go....... daddy........ it's on the 11 apr and it'll last 3 WEEKS!!! yes... WEEKS!!!!!! it's one of the big big thing that's gonna happen in my sch life!!! I REALLY REALLY REALLY wanna go......................... cambodia... here i come!! WEE......

13 Feb: my friend: tmr im going for dinner with him me: Whao!! ~whistles~ my friend: but have to wait for him cause have to do project. me: oh... u can stay with me... cos im doing proj too.. I totally forgot that it's Valentine's Day the next day!!!! my friend: shows me the present for him.... me: eh.. very nice ar... expensive rite cos now is ...... Valentine's Day period!! me: You're going out with him tmr cos it's Valentine's Day!! i cant believe i actually forgot that it is Valentine's Day!! n i did not whine for not having anyone to celebrate with me!! amazing~~

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wad do u think of my previous post? was it stupid?

wanna know the stooooopidest part??

i wrote it on a piece of paper b4 posting it, n i left the paper on my study room's table!!!

it's like the common room for everyone...

so i think everyone saw it!!!!!

STOOOOOOOPID!!!

in life, people come and go..
some of them leave beautiful prints,
some of them leave scars...

how to determine who should stay and who should go?
or rather, how to identify who will stay and who will leave?

in no more than 2 weeks, it's Valentines Day again...
seeing couples hand in hand, my green eye monster emerged
i wish i'll have someone with me too

BUT...

does dream comes true?

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22 Jan 2005 The Girlies First Clubbing Night of the Year 2005 it was finally the night that we long anticipated... or at least i was anticipating.. finally a cure to our Cheekys-Withdrawal Syndrome. i slipped on my newly bought clubbing top.. it was chic.. it's like this black swishy skirt that i always love and a black halter with a diamond stud brooch.. my hair was done in mane of curls, which i later tied them into a curly bun.. nimzie was in her MANGO top which was totally SCREAMING for attention.. with this short blue coudroy skirt which totally flare her LONG LEGS!! char was in her pink low cut top which shows her creamy-skinned boobs.. with a white skirt.. underneath was a cute undie with nice ribbons.. and she decided to have her hair plaited, but she removed them later.. so we were dressing up.. dressing up always seems to be the best part of a clubbing trip!! if anyone ask why do u enjoy clubbing? i would say i love to dress up with my girlies!! hehehe we reached Cheekys pretty early that night.. and once again, we couldn't stop right in front of Cheekys.. surprisingly we only paid 10 bucks... but there wasnt any complimentary drinks.. so actually it's about the same.. Ray was looking so fine.. and his brother was there.. he was so excited to introduce him to us... haha.. he was playing with rays of fire that night.. awww.... so cute..... Max was cute.. winked and made us unknown drinks.. the New guy.. getting Cheekier as the week goes by.. mebbe thats why he works for Cheekys.. hahaha the Promoted Guy.. always cracks us up whenever we sees him... Rico came in later part of the night.. he was wearing a weird pants and a funny looking shoes.. according to char, he has got smooth skin- he goes for body scrub twice a month. and he is involve in some man hunt thingy.... hahahahahahah... Paul was still as big as ever... always hanging around and looking so tall and scary... and guess wad?!?! he is taking part in SEA GAMES for Weight Lifting.... hahahahaha i had my fair share of fun... hahaha... i even got grinded by 2 guys at the same time... actually, that didn't feel too bad... hehe... den there was this guy in the Red Bull Shirt.. he was cute.... but sweaty.. and Jeremy... YUCKS!! overall.. it was fun.. at least i thought it was.. oh... and we witnessed a fight.. not exactly witnessed.. but we saw this guy with a punched nose and tattered top... *ouch!* and the bouncers of various clubs gathered at one place together... eventful night!

Ka- Ching.. man.. i had a great times with nimzie n pooja shopping This Fashion........... never thought i was a This Fashion person.. the last time i actually shopped and bought something from This Fashion was like erm... ages... say sec 2.. i bought this ULTIMATE clubbing top.. only $16!! Ka- Ching... real good deal.. i mean the top is really nice, that u go and tell pple that u bought from Mango or Zara they'll actually believe u.. and i saw this dress.... like OMG!! NICE!!! opnly $19.. it;s really nice.. one of those that Topshop used to sell for $70 or above!! Ka- Ching... nim and i came to a conlusion: This Fashion is a good place to buy clubbing clothes or those clothes that u know u will only wear it once or twice...

contradicting..... sometimes i so yearn to have a boyfriend.. but sometimes, i'm glad that im single too... yea.. getting into a relationship is sometimes the happiest thing in ur life.. however, it is also one of the saddest part of ur life.. especially the seperating moments. it's been like erm.... 1 yr and 2 mths that i've been single... i miss cuddling with the one that u love and knows that ur love has been reciprocate.. the feeling is totally different from getting a booty call from someone u hardly love.. however, seeing couples fighting ensures me that staying single is one of the best choices. it's heart broken to fight with someone.. needless to say the hurt amounting in oneself when he/she quarrels with their love ones.. but i still believe that being in a relationship means being loved and getting hurt.. n i believe that the blissful times are much more than the sorrow moments.. so dear friends.. whoever u are.. if u are suffering in a relationship now, hang on to it.. unless u think it's REALLY THE END.. your rainbow will come shortly and soon u will find the gold pot at the end of the rainbow..

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the previous entry was posted by THICK SKINNED NIMZIE!! anyway.. hello to everyone tuning in right now.. thank you for being such loyal fans constantly reminding me that it;s time to update my blog. today, we will be discussing about the topic- mentality... different people have different mindset and mentality. some people are open-minded, while some are narrow- minded.. under the category of narrow- minded, there are different sub-groups. some juz dun care, some people try to understand n some judge! those people who judges are often judgmental- judge people by only listening to others of how he/she behaves rather than knowing him/her personally.. among these people, most of them have thoughts of their own, that's why they judge people.. there are also minority amongst these people who are full of judgements, but do not know/ have any common knowledge.. i've got a friend... she is EXTREMELY judgemental.. she's one of those that thinks that going clubbing is stepping into a sinful room.. however, her general knowledge is very LIMITED!! she thout that CANADA is in ASIA!!! OMG!!! and she thinks that TEXTILES are TILES!! like floor tiles.. besides, she does not have a mind of her own.. she is so dependent that she cannot recognize the way to move around in school... in conclusion, this world is filled with people of different types, categories, etc...

i am kah yan i am so pretty! i love nimrta! she's even prettier! why are they playing cina kuei songs? hmm........ y do i care? la di da di da! oh man i cannot get over the fact that my babe, NIMRTA KAUR SANDHU is like sooooooooooooooooooooo pretty!!!! *sigh* whiney whiney whiney... pigggyyy piggggyy love you guys! but i love nimrta!! bcoz im an intellectual bimbo. kekeke! business rules! bubye.....

It's one of those days..

You know.. one of those days whereby you wish someone is juz right next to you to listen to all your whines and sorrows.. it’s one of those times that u REALLY, truly feel like being attached.. it's one of those periods that you want to know someone appreciates you and reciprocates your love..

That aside.. I had a fun time exploring Serangoon Road.. I accompanied my fren to this salon to do threading.. it was so painful, she had tears in her rim.. it was fast! Like FAST!! Everything was tidied and neat in no more than 5 mins.. aft threading, we walked to tekka market and had some yummy food.. as we strolled down to the market, there are shops displaying langa and sari and everything.. it was so nice!! The langa was gorgeous! Esp this specific one with long skirt that starts at the hips, with pink sequins and a small tube top to finish off with.. it was FABULOUS!! It's like SO nice.. I'll buy that for nim's or deva's wedding.. haha.. that means I haf to work out now..

So I had chesse prata while deva and fad had bryani and chicken and fish respectively.. as we left the market to tekka mall, we passed by this fortune teller stall.. it was like $2, so I thout juz give it a try.. haha.. so the fortune teller asked for my name and told his parrot to pick a card on the tables as he repeated my name.. deva was next to me constantly reminding me that wadever happens will be crap.. it was so nice of her.. just in case I get something bad.. but the card wasn't that bad.. it said sth like my business will prosperous.. but I do not haf any.. den it says that I’ll be having a wedding in the family soon.. which was true.. my cousin is going for ROM on 11 Jan.. it says my bad star has disappear.. I hope that’s true too.. haha..

Den we went to walked around tekka mall.. it was exciting.. cos I haven't been there.. den we went to this lil place across tekka market.. they sell a lot of barang barang.. I bought a bracelet for $3.. but I really love it!!if you’re feeling rich, you shld really shop there.. the stuff there are really nice.. the belt thingy and the bangles and all..

NEW PLACE TO SHOP!

As soon as I got familiarize with writing dates with "2004", it is coming to an end.. 2005 approached and I couldnt be more than delighted.. 2004 Has been fabulous.. it couldnt have been better.. maybe thats why pple say that being 18 is a great time.. I learnt a lot.. be it educational aspect or in life.. thru nice ways, hard work and thru the HARD ways.. n I mean really hard.. like a knock in the head that you will always remember. I played a lot.. took up a CCA in sch.. been clubbing like an owl.. been shopping like a rich tai tai.. been bladding with my daddy.. been tanning till I achieve the colour of charcoal.. been for the DNA camp at genting which I had a lot of fun!!! I have 2 great Bs.. haha.. yea.. my girlies.. not forgetting pple like san, rach, etc... I became a regular of Cheekys.. or at least I think.. from crashing with stomach filled with butterflies to entering without being checked to sneaking out, trying not to get caught.. from zouk - wow to zouk- BAH! From 1 or 2 shots to 5 shots down at a time.. from sober to drunk (fateful nite).. from Jason to (hmm.. who was the last one??) sam?? Christian?? Faddy?? Gin?? Zach?? rico (yucks)?? Faren?? Suhairi?? Maz?? Ray ( so cute!)?? I have been single of the whole of 2004.. I think that is a great achievement. Dun u think so?? But l quite a handful of dates around to spice up life.. 2004 consist of a confession.. it also taught me that even the one that seems the most reliable will lose faith.. At the very end of it, 2004 made me realize that I am very fortunate.. it made me realize that without Sumatra island, we would be a sunken city.. it made me realize that I'm taking my life for granted.. it made me realize that what goes around comes around- if you do not protect the nature, keeps dumping in pollution, what u get in return will be a great disaster that no one foresees.. it made me realize that the rich will remain rich, while the poor (Bangladesh, Indonesia..) will remain poor.. it made me realize that I actually DO care for what is going on around me.. In conclusion, I love my 2004!! This is one of those memorable years whereby I will remember that I sneaked out, worked hard and got touched.. 2005, I hope you will be kind to me..

i miss having a boyfriend..

as of today.. it's been 1yr ++ that i've been single.. and guess who i found to be attached.. Yao Sheng.. (i hope he doesnt have the link to my blog.. or i'll be sooooooo damn embarrassed!).. why is it that i havent been attached aft so long? m i ugly or am i demanding or am i not understanding?? probably all of the above.. but anyhow..

aft seeing so many pple suffering in relationships, i dont think i really miss having a relationship.. i guess i juz miss the cuddlings and the sweet nothings and the whinings..

before this post i wrote alot.. but this thing is damn fucked up! i juz deleted almost everything and i forgot most of it.. BAH!

Russian Beach Day!! sentosa was FABULOUS!! anotha chance to make good use of my Islander Card... hehe.. i went with the nimrta-ish girlie.. today was a dres down n look bla day.. but surprising enuff, guys were checking us out like nobody's business!! it was a very fun, girly, lesbiany day.. it was pure clean fun n exciting.. den we met this Russian guy.. he was so geeky n cute.. he cldn't speak english well, but we managed to understand each other and had an interesting conversation about his music.. apparantly he plays the voilin in the Russia National Orchestra... i was like there trying to look good n all.. his frens r more gorgeous.. hehe.. *drool* in the end we still exchanged emails.. haha we took tonnes of pics!! like 70 i think.. haha.. it's BEAUTIFUL!!! hehehehehe........

nipple-less ZOUKOUT nite! yep!! i went to zoukout!! it was really D party!! it was fun.. pure clean fun.. nim n i created our own fun.. like pple watching or not.. how shd we make our way to get drinks..... the guys there was WOO HOO!! like shirts off n panties dropping.. haha.. their bod is can DIE for!! plus.. they're all so CUTE.. it's like an all-cute-guys area.. aft a few hrs, we went to Cocco Latte.. it's decor is nice but the dance floor is kinda small.. as compared to Cheekys.. but it's comparatively less sleezy.. wanted to return to Zoukout! but was having a fun time with Vim.. hehehe.. but it still turned out blah.. den along came Justin... nice eyes.. fun fun fun nite

probably it's true that wad goes ard comes ard.. i know sometimes i'm such a bitch when i was the customer.. probably tt's y now i haf nasty customers.. I DUN WANNA BE IN SERVICE LINE!