Getaway


and by that word, i really mean Get AWAY!
i wanna get away from this boring city........
bah...
ya.. i know i just returned from a vacation, but everyone is leaving for somewhere..
why not me.. sighhhhhhh

i wanna be heading for a weekend dive at tinggi
i wanna be planning a trip to Perth and meet amelia there
i wanna get away from here..

i'm not asking for much.. just bring me to either Ko Tao or Banlung.
either of it is perfectly fine....





Bring me back to the place filled with muscular hunks and bikini clad babes........

Granny


It was a breezy morning and all seems well.
As I walked past my dine place, my Grandma was on her wheelchair having her daily after breakfast read.
Suddenly, her face turned taut, her lips clenched, and her entire body was shaking vigorously.
So I rubbed Axe Oil on her temple and laid her down on bed.
As I stood by the bed to stroke her arms and legs, I realize it's been a long time since I last talked to her. Despite the fact that her stroke affected the mobility of her right body and her speech control, I should be talking to her regularly.

As I called her she opened her eyes slowly, loosening the grim face, and when she saw me she smiled, laughed and stroked my arms.

It reminds me of my younger times...
Where she used to bring my brother and I to tuitions and home from after school activities.
Where she used to cook and buy all the oily and yummy food for us.
Where she was able to walk and talk and laugh.
Where I used to sleep in her arms.




i miss my granny.. sob

GRADUATED!

YAY! i can finally say that i'm DONE with POLY!
muahahahaha!
it feels good to be able to exclaim and not fear that i might jinx myself!
so yea. i graduated with GPA that is not that fantastic.
and now i just fear for my future.
wad should i do? degree of course. but what if i cant get into any local U ?
i'd love to go overseas. and get away from my parents ! muahahaha!





i just want to leave for another holiday! haha

Just Go Away


if my memory is not failing me, i had a "fuck-off" last july and a "pretend that i dont exist" this mar and a "Just go away" tonight.

wow. that says alot about me doesnt it? probably i shd just really stray away from people and be A.L.O.N.E.

and everytime i get that, it hurts like hell, with that pain where the tears fills right up to the brim of ur back throat and unable to pour it out, and cant get it back in.




really, if that makes you happy, i'll leave.

Kill me please


u know wad, i should just be remained in a box for the rest of my life.. or better still, kill me!
i hate dealing with feelings and emotions.
i hate dealing with people and then more emotions pour in.
i hate going to places and falling in love with them and wanting to return.
i just dislike myself.

anyone? KILL ME PLEASE !


i know there'll be a long queue behind. so be quick!

returned from paradise


my trip was great. one of the perfect ones i would say.
it was really clear blue sea. the water was so clear that it almost seemed drinkable.
the sand was so fine and soft. it was truely paradise.

i spent a bomb doing Scuba Diving. but man, the price to pay was worth every single bit of it!
the corals, fishes, so amazing. the life underwater is just so beautiful.
managed to catch a few significant ones like nemo, angelfish, trigger fish and Stingrays.
its really beautiful!

besides diving all day long was just chilling.
either at Bingo- a sea side restaurant, or by the beach getting a tan, or swimming, or shopping.

one of the best i would say is lying on the sand at night and gazing into the sky filled with millions of little sparkles with the silverlight shone right behind me. with the waves crashing on shore, and the company, it was breath-taking.

THE vacation!
beautiful beach, delicious meals, exciting activities along with the laid back ones, interesting company, wonderful buys and a little action. what else can i ask for?



at the airport of Phuket, i wanted to run to the nearest ATM machine, withdraw money and head back to Koh Tao for longer stay.

Paradise

after a hectic semester im finally having my break..
and in less than 7hrs time i'll be heading to Koh Samui..

so in order to keep the budget low, we decided to go to Phuket via Jetstar..
and from there we will run to bus stations to hop into one to Koh Samui!

aw man! i cant wait to embrace the clear blue water and white fine sand..
lazing on the beach having an eye wash for hunks and bikini clad ladies.
with a book in my hand and a coconut by a side table! muahahha!!

so yea.. i'll be leaving tmr (oh.. actually today!) and will return on the 18th..
so until den, this empty blog will continue to remain empty!



my heaven , my paradise.. HERE I COME!

Changed



i believe that some things will never be the same again when the time has passed..


i was there, but you didnt cherish me.
now that its gone, i cant get it back.
your actions have been contradicting whatever nonsense that you've said.


im confused. so stop fucking mess with my mind!



im happy now so go fuck yourself, WUSS!