appreciative?? unappreciative??

I was talking to my date- Daniel last night..
Dan: let me tell you wad has been on my mind for the past few weeks..
Me: ok.. and what is it??
Dan: i feel that when u r happy, you're with piggy, n only when you're sad that you're with me..
THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!!!! Not true.. it should be like "when I'm with piggy that I'm happy.." not like when I'm happy I'll throw my arms around him..NOT TRUE NOT TURE!!! And if you're reading this, Daniel, I'm happy when I'm with you too.. and it's not like I do NOT appreciate you!! I do!! U ought to be shot even having this thout to cross ur mind!!! so.. anyway, we continued..
Dan: and I feel that he is not appreciating you the level of appreciation you have for him..
Me: be contented with what you ALREADY have..
Dan: ya.. but I think you should be appreciated more than this..
Me: life will be better if you think of what you already have and be contented with it rather than thinking of what you CAN/ SHOULD have, and make yourself miserable.. and that expecting a little lesser will make your life much happier.. isn't it so??

See, it's a long way that I reach this stage.. not like we're attached or we're living happily ever after sort of thing..but more like looking back at what you didn't have.. I had this OMG-he's-here feeling even before I know he's name, even before I know he's a nationality, even before I know he was from some boy school, even before I know he's a damn good athlete.. although all of these sort that I mentioned is like written all over his face.. hahahahah.. moving along, so ya.. this OMG-he's-here feeling continued from last sem to this semester..

This guy that I first saw in my S&W, last semester, cheering Carol on for her standing broad jump! I think that was when I noticed him.. he became my motivator.. cos he motivated me jumped like damn far.. like a 170 or something like that.. anyway.. since then he's been known as my "MOTIVATOR".. then this semester, I was in the lift in block 50 going for my very first CATS lesson..in the lift, SK n JY was asking me which class I was in.. so I was like "er.. T38D and T58.. wad bout u??" and before I could even finish my sentence, I felt this guy peering through the people in the lift and finally my eyes met his.. I think that was when he realize my existence.. then we entered the same class room.. We became CLASSMATES!!! I was thrilled by the fact that we're in the same class for at least one module.. soon, our tutor wants us to be split into groups.. my dearest friend, Ching Yi, somehow manages to get Piggy into our group.. she rox man!! So we were in the same project group for IAC and CATS.. this brought us even closer to each other.. especially IAC cos we had to do come community service kinda thing.. so ya.. we got even closer.. and sometimes when we were talking, he wouldn't mind telling me wads on he's mind and sometimes he wld say his prob too.. but really seldom la.. better than nothing rite?? so one day I went clubbing with my usual clubbing kakis at Shanghai Sally's n I gave him a msg saying that the club was REALLY EMPTY!!! And I meant really empty!! And he CALLED me back!! He was saying that he might be going to Zouk later on, and tt we cld go together next time.. COOL!! And on my Bday nite, he knew that we were going to club, he was sweet in a way.. he said "if ANYTHING, call me" but in the end he din appear too.. anyway, so I was sharing with him the pics tt we took on my bday nite, he commented tt I looked gd *shy shy* hahaha.. so I was asking him why is his status always 'away' on msn?? He said that's cos he doesn't wanna talk to some pple and he doesn't wanna chat with so many pple in a time.. but he'll reply most of the time to pple that he wanna chat with, pple like me, he dun mind talking to.. *awwwwww* blush!!! we also exchange songs, pics, craps n lotsa craps over the msn!!! See.. he isn't that unappreciative after all..

So you see, from a TOTAL STRANGER to a PROJECT MATE, then to a FREN.. not like we're SUPER CLOSE FRENS but be glad that at least we're not on BAD-TERMS.. isn't that enough?? What more should I even ask for right?? What else can I ask for??? Shouldn't I be contented already?? Considering the fact that we were TOTAL strangers.. what I should do is to thank God for what He'd given me, and that I should be contented with what I have and be happy with it.. isn't it amazing how things are placed in your life?? How you can be related from a stranger to a friend..

I'm contented with what I'm having now, or what i already have.. and probably we cld go clubbing together someday.. hahaha.. wish wish wish.. n I hope that things will remain like this (or better will be good.. geez).. but shan't be greedy la!! anyway, this is just a crush/ infatuation after all, so I dun really put too much hope in this.. cos the higher the expectation, the heavier the fall will be.. yup.. n if he ever sees this blog, I'LL BE SO DEAD!!! So pple who have access to this blog, pls dun give this webbie away.. kinda personal, but I dun mind sharing with close frens like YOU!!! Thanx people!! MUAX!!!!!!