wad m i thinking??

i dont know wad's wrong.. recently, i've been logging online aimlessly, not knowing what i want, dont know which site to go to and have no idea why m i not logging off!!! somehow i know why is this happening.. because i wanna meet him online.. and i havent seen him on msn for the past few days... agrrrrh... i hate myself when this part of me is showing!! missing someone, and hoping tt i can see him n all.. totally hate this... but y m i not seeing him?!!? something's wrong with his msn?? we're not fated??? maybe it's true that things happen when we least expect them to... oh well.. i'll expect to see him when i less expect it.. hahahaha.. contradicting... ok.. i'll psycho myself.."i'll not see him, i'll not see him, i'll not see him..." so mebbe there's a chance tt i can see him.. hahahaha.. RIGHT!!!