Insignificance

enuff said

things will never be the same anymore. bye.

The Dead Lizard

do you believe in life after death?
have you ever wonder where the spirit of the dead cockroach goes after being slammed by your slippers?
have you wonder where the spirits of the little ants float to after being squashed by the at fat thumb of yours?
well.. i was wondering.. hmmm....

lizards have never looked so harmless before.

one super early morning, like 2 am, i decided to go to the toilet. as i switched on the light, i saw this nicely curled lizard seemingly ready to pounce on some little irritating flies, and i got shock a little as i saw it curled there. i brisked pass it, hopefully it will not come in my direction.

after using the toilet as i return to my room, it was still in that curled up position. and this time, it looked so harmless and pale. for a moment, it looked montionless.

the next day morning, a witness reported saying the lizard body was surrounded my massive amount of ants.
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upon hearing the news, that moment i felt so sorry for the lizard!
gee! i felt sorry for that lizard that never fail to scare me by hiding behind the doors everytime i need to go toilet late at night!

and the 2nd thought was, people always believe in life after death. wad bout lizards, ants and cockroaches?

do they get released during the hungry ghost festival too?

isn't it ironic?

hmmm... is blog really a space for one to vent their anger and frustrations?
there is an increasing number of bloggers who got charged for illegal ramblings..
and that makes me think twice about the content that i want to "write" in my DIARY.

so, how did the authorities know about such cases?
do they hang around n read everyone's blog everyday?
wouldn't they offend people who really wanna keep their blogs PRIVATE?

isn't it ironic that authorities who acquire legal knowledge are violating the public's privacy by poking their noses into other people's personal diary?? [char, pls educate me on some legal issues, hahaha]

and now, as im posting this, i have a weird and constant feeling that some authoritative figure is reading my post......

and now im scared that i'll be charged for posting this. *yikes*
but, isnt it ironic?

Best moments...

- when you go home and strike off the number of days left
- when you go home and file up the notes that are no longer useful
- reading the examination paper and know that you've got all it takes
- knowing that you've beat the Distraction Demon!

Worst moments...

- days n days without ample rest
- slog n slog n slog
- leaving the exam hall regretting not writting certain things
- the burning desire to see something that i havent go a chance to for like EVER!

What i hate most is the time everyone discusses about the paper outside the exam hall!

Friends

it can be a very superficial thing, or even something that is just for show. but i truely treasure each and every one of my friends. sappy, i know.

but i'm not here to just say a whole lot of things that i dun feel for and just to make myself feel better. neither am i here to show that- there, i've apologise. it's up to you to forgive me. it's not the whole purpose of this entry.

to Charlotte:
Initially, i really didnt know what i've done was wrong. it didnt occur to me that you wanna get away from people, i thought it was just a person. i'm truely sorry and i hope this dun get into the way of our 7 years of friendship.

Besides that, we have been chatting but we havent been talking to one another. I've learnt alot about you from a 3rd party. that's not how i want our friendship to turn out to be. im not saying anyone is at fault for all these to happen. if anyone has got to be blamed, it has to be me, for not taking out my time to get together with you, for not taking the initiative to call, for not understanding you.

but on the other hand, i chose not to do any of these. i dont know wad to say, and i dont know what you guys are saying. i'm lost and i feel that im no longer in the picture.

so whatever i've said, i'm really sorry, and i dont want this to get in between our friendship.

love, KY.

Proven

yes! it has been officially proven....

being in a relationship leads to an increase in bimboism, aka intellectually stumped!
it has been clinically tested on both me n NIMRTA KAUR SANDHU!

this irritating slut cant stop gushing bout her darling.. arrrggh!! go away!! but little does she realise that he is turning her into a bimbo as the day goes by... hahaha...

Against Animal Testing!

SPIES!

i swear these people out there who hates me hire spies to check out my exam timetable.

and then wad they do with it?

they just send it to ALL the bloody contractors that u can ever find in Singapore and they all decide to come to Chinatown to starts drilling n knocking n slamming.

it's like EVERY EXAM PERIOD, they will start to drill n drill n drill... arrrggghhhhhhh

i swear they are out to get me!

10 years ago...

i was in my little blue and white uniform, playing hopscotch and five stones before the morning assembly, running around the basketball court during recess, and peering into the murky pond water before remedial. That, was my Primary school life. i was not in the best instituition, but i had the best mix of company- Australian, Indonesians, HongKongers, Chinese, etc.

today, we met up for a little get togather, all being 19s and 21s. like every kind of gathering, there bound to be some groups missing, but that did not spoil ours. we had great chats and i've gained alot of knowledge from this social activity. and my world seems to be so minute, so limited, so planned and peaceful, so delusional.

so i've learnt that Alex's (21) hometown is not Australia; it's Papua New Guinea- Cool Shit! and his experiences and how they have homemade shotguns and his encounters with them. but besides the threat, he also shared the nature and greens, and his favourite pastime- fishing. he also offered to play as a nice host when i goes to PNG.

like every class, there will bound to be a joker. this other guy (21) that met up with us today made our primary sch days more colourful. although he is not book-smart, he is streetwise. stopped at N level and enter NS. he is currently working, dealing with foreign students coming into Singapore. heard that he is preparing for his own business and he's getting engaged before this year ends.

and in every typical class, there will be this Loser (19). he is the guy that nobody wanted to play with because people thinks that he is just so lousy. not book-smart either, but definitely can if he puts in effort. currently in ITE but is involved in some MLM business and already has 5 digits in his bank account by his own effort.

lastly, every class has this girl that always jumps around, luagh and be mad. this mad girl (19) is currently studying in NP Business Studies, but she is not planning to haf any sort of business- at least not in the near future. she has not seen the real world, not getting engaged, neither is she working. needless to mention, there is no 5 digit figure in her bank account.

what have achieved in my 19 years of life?

Dreams

do dreams come true?
i hope they do..
you became my boo
as i paint myself blue..

arrrgggh wadever...

so.. once again i've got another dream intruder! hmph!
hey! no trespassing through private property, ok! and it's not like one night, it's like for NIGHTS!
bah!

though some part of my cells do wish that the dream comes true.. *giggles*