The Mood Elevator!


ok.. im officially ABNormal!! hahahaha

im getting damn high and HAPPY as i was reading this:
http://www.ppscuba.com/divetrips.htm#hindaeng

and oh.. by the way, for any Audience ANY!! that is reading my blog, OR is concerned with what is going on in my life,

KAHYANNY IS GOING TO KRABI IN DECEMEBER!!!!


hehehe..

okie.. i concluded it should be Exams and Japenese STRESS!! but im damn HAPPY NOW!!

so now i know.. when im sad, down, or unhappy, i just need to look harder into some Traveling Info! it works better than watching videos!! (=


!!WOOT!!

Lost Way

it was a road with hurdles.
i jumped, and took big strike across.

now i feel that i have, at the same time, leaped across faith.

I lost faith along the way.



gone with the wind. pls return soon

and seriously.

Just when you think everything in life is going perfectly smooth,
that's when you are overlooking something that is going very wrong!

Terms and Definitions

i dont know what am i more confused.

the fact that we are neither black nor white, or the grey terms that perpetually surfaces.
however, on the other hand, some not-so-grey terminology, or rather, terminologies near the extreme end of Black (as well as White) has been surfacing as well..


At this point, frustration has built such a tall wall. going way taller than the sky-high confusion!


yes, grey can be very nice, when instructions are strictly abided, at an appropriate timing!


and my fear of all has just dawn on me that, it probably is an out of sight, out of mind thing.
im scared, fearful, afraid, frightened, horrified, terrified!


Gah! i am starting to ignore! humph!

Halloween Party!

My first EVER in my 21 years of living..

Allow me to digress a little.. speaking of 21 years, I AM FEELING EXTREMELY OLD!

goodness-gracious!

I was just talking to some friends about how we were young, and stupid things that we did in Secondary School which constantly get us into trouble and how they dont even matter now AT ALL.

Like whether viewing a "Gang Fight" would have a black mark in ur testimonial.. or something along that line. the fact is, as you go up the education level, people only ONLY ONLY care about your latest achievements, like what you;ve done in poly/JC/Uni.

Resume being the best Example! who is interested in what you've done in Secondary School? all people care about is ur contributions and achievements in the later part of your life! bah!

And then i got disgusted at how i was afraid i'll be marked down for the rest of my life! which is all just bullshit!

anyway.,.. coming back to what I have started with! YES!!

MY VIRGIN HALLOWEEN PARTY!!!!

and oh yea.. it was hell lot of fun looking at how people dressed up and all..

but the only regretful part was that i wasnt prepared to go for a Halloween Party. My "Costume" wasnt even something that I would say is refreshing and nice..

My head accessory was a present for my 21st birthday! hahaha. and that dress is ermm just some white dressy stuff..

and here are more pictures!

I went with my friend, Joyce, who dressed up as a mamasan! hahaha. with the Chiong Sum and a mole that she drew on herself. which can hardly be seen from here. see the little mole on her left cheek? yup.. thats the one!

Along with us was (from Left to Right) a Slut, the Mamasan, the Angel, and a Witch! and then it was the incomplete family of the not-so-power-rangers! hahahah

and as the lost angel ran into Sadako! who was also in a white dress! geez

and finally found my Priest to calm my nerves! hahahaha

it was all at Plush! we went down to Zouk, only to find the SUPERWHOOPERDUPER Long Queue! so, on that night, Plush was like enjoying the spill-over effects from Zouk.. hahahah

it was quite a good night.. only i was filled with guilt tt i should have spent time studying instead.

but it was great and a fruitful *winks winks* night! hehehe

Obvious Pattern

Its time for me to multi-task and juggle well!
Everytime after a somewhat perfect date, I would set up this HUGE and ENORMOUS expectations, which promptly blow-up on my little face.

Or so to speak, I tend to put all the devil eggs in one small little basket.

Maybe I should spread it around a little more; date a few people at once, then, I wont feel so disappointed. HAH!

No one should ever fall ino this one-guy-at-a-time pattern. Its too risky. Unless of course, its a relationship, then, that is a different story!

some might say, u'll learn from ur past experiences, and so, when someone similar comes along, you know what to expect from this person.

and then i wondered ....


"are we all victims of conditioned responses, doomed to repeat the same unconscious relationship patterns? or are we all just, in fact, dating the same person over and over again??"

Ignore

The Previous Post.
Due to lack of Friends Advises.
BAH!

Ignore the previous post

Note to The Wild Rose

Dear Wild Rose,

Thank You for being around, sticking by me for the past 6 to 9 months.
The times that I traveled-light, you were my best companion.
Thank You for taking a breather as I return to this heavily-priced contest.

Also, Thanx for your concern.. But after more than a year, I think I can finally peel myself off the ending point of the last race, and continue running from a new starting point. I would prefer this to be a super-duper-long-distance marathon and not a sprint. Please pray and hope that I will NOT experience the tears-choke-in-throat syndrome, or anything that will make this race a sprint rather than a super-duper-long-distance marathon.

I hope for the best for you, Rose. But do keep me in mind to constantly return to check on me.

This is a request for appointment with you.
If one day you're informed about me missing someone painfully, and crying desperately, please return and be part of me again.


Elbaren Luv





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