i miss having a boyfriend..

as of today.. it's been 1yr ++ that i've been single.. and guess who i found to be attached.. Yao Sheng.. (i hope he doesnt have the link to my blog.. or i'll be sooooooo damn embarrassed!).. why is it that i havent been attached aft so long? m i ugly or am i demanding or am i not understanding?? probably all of the above.. but anyhow..

aft seeing so many pple suffering in relationships, i dont think i really miss having a relationship.. i guess i juz miss the cuddlings and the sweet nothings and the whinings..

before this post i wrote alot.. but this thing is damn fucked up! i juz deleted almost everything and i forgot most of it.. BAH!

Russian Beach Day!! sentosa was FABULOUS!! anotha chance to make good use of my Islander Card... hehe.. i went with the nimrta-ish girlie.. today was a dres down n look bla day.. but surprising enuff, guys were checking us out like nobody's business!! it was a very fun, girly, lesbiany day.. it was pure clean fun n exciting.. den we met this Russian guy.. he was so geeky n cute.. he cldn't speak english well, but we managed to understand each other and had an interesting conversation about his music.. apparantly he plays the voilin in the Russia National Orchestra... i was like there trying to look good n all.. his frens r more gorgeous.. hehe.. *drool* in the end we still exchanged emails.. haha we took tonnes of pics!! like 70 i think.. haha.. it's BEAUTIFUL!!! hehehehehe........

nipple-less ZOUKOUT nite! yep!! i went to zoukout!! it was really D party!! it was fun.. pure clean fun.. nim n i created our own fun.. like pple watching or not.. how shd we make our way to get drinks..... the guys there was WOO HOO!! like shirts off n panties dropping.. haha.. their bod is can DIE for!! plus.. they're all so CUTE.. it's like an all-cute-guys area.. aft a few hrs, we went to Cocco Latte.. it's decor is nice but the dance floor is kinda small.. as compared to Cheekys.. but it's comparatively less sleezy.. wanted to return to Zoukout! but was having a fun time with Vim.. hehehe.. but it still turned out blah.. den along came Justin... nice eyes.. fun fun fun nite

probably it's true that wad goes ard comes ard.. i know sometimes i'm such a bitch when i was the customer.. probably tt's y now i haf nasty customers.. I DUN WANNA BE IN SERVICE LINE!

khin's virgin trip so in the end we all went to Cheekys.. i for once was awake the WHOLE ENTIRE nite.. not once tt i got drunk or high or forget anything.. it feels good the next day.. since i can remember almost everything in details esp some yummy kissies.. i wanted to get high as usual.. but my body seems to be rejecting alcohol... everytime i had something in, it felt like coming out.. (oh.. i had on my swish-sy skirt which i juz bought!! i LOVE it!!!) the clubbing trip consist of me, nim, char, khin, harpreet, n later niven n vim... i met sam.. some guy tt i knew from the previous clubbing trip.. we had our lil fun time.. but nth beats the highlight of the night.. it was shocking n surprising.. it happened near the end of the night.. ard 3 plus when we re-enter Cheeky's aft visiting Coco for awhile.. so then khin, niven, vim n i shared a cab from Coco back to Cheekys.. den khin went dancing with niven and i was dancing with vim.. so den the music was HOT!! n we danced closer together.. n was grinding.. n i was sure tt he came closer n nose to nose n later lips to lips n later locks! tt's like the summary.. i can still remember the kiss.. it lasted thru 4 songs.. yea.. tt long.. he was kinda shy.. aft we kissed.. he did not dare to look at me.. haha.. i guess im the more tongue the better person.. n i think he fits the bill.. *giggle giggle* groping a lil.. hugging alot like thru the 4 songs.. i feel weird abt the whole thing.. i mean.. making out with my gd fren's boyfriend's best fren is juz not the rite thing to do.. but wadever it is.. but wadever it is, i had a fabulous time when both of us were in our lil world.. haaaa ~sigh~ vim is Good!! cute. shy. kissable. bla bla bla.... im loving it.. oh.. did i mention bites?? yea both of us return with bite.. but when we left the club, things felt kinda awkward.. or so i thout.. maybe it's juz me... but i cant forget the long kiss which lasted thru 4 songs.. hmmmm~~~ embarrassing stuff tt i reminded myself to blog abt: we went on the podium, n danced madly.. nim brought a pad with her in case.. den she put it in her not so deep back pocket.. so aft the wild dance for 2 mins, her you-know-wad dropped.. none of us knew.. so den we went to dance at somewhere near the podium.. n a guy actually came forward n was like i think u dropped this.. was it embarrassing or was it embarrassing??? hahaha i thout it was quite nice nearing the end of the night..

it feels sucky for being neither here nor there

had some wonderful time with myself today.. i was great feeling the sea breeze -or rather, river-breeze- hitting on ur face.. and in the morning, i was at east coast blading with my daddy.. it made me realise that there's alot of things anyone can do if they set their heart to.. this idea juz sort of crept into my mind.. it's like u can do wadever u wanna do, irregardless of race, age.... but is it beneficial?? early in the morning, sent my bro to camp and me and my dad headed to east coast park.. when we reach there at 830, we saw elderlies coming to the car park to get their cars and head off.. it hit me that these people woke up so early to come to have their daily exercise and continue with the rest of the day.. den as i strolled down to the esplanade.. it made me realise that there's so many people out there doing what they've been doing.. and that if i decided that i shld juz stay in front of my screen for the whole day, i wouldn't haf accomplish ANYTHING! den i went up to the roof terrace where yao sheng and i went once.. which was like so long ago.. anyway.. anyone who juz got out of love, esplanade's roof terrace is not for u.. COS IT'S FILLED UP WITH LOVING COUPLES!! and then u will so feel like punching them in their face and be a green eye monster! so den, aft tt, i proceeded to raffles city Esprit.. looked up for my friend. and we talked.. and there's like an increase in the no. of guys who r classified as jerks.. and there are more pple who are sharing a non-status relationship.. or at least, it's unspoken of.. but any how, I NEED A DATE!! anyone who saw this msg n thinks that u haf someone who wans to date too, pls let me know.. haha.. participants will go thru strict qualifying rounds.. hahahaha.. kidding.. i really saw the difference btw the clubbing life and the morning light.. i prefer the sun.. clubbing is like being in the girl world.. being in the broad day light is the real world aka REALITY.. which always knocks into pple..

THE TEARY NIGHT like the name suggests.. it's full of tears..y?? i also dunno.... we went there (cheekys.. where else??) and tried to enter discretely.. not wanting to bump into rico.. but guess wad?? he's at the door.... n char's trying so hard to hide behind me and act as if she's so busy on the phone.. but still had to talk to him anyway.. got in free thou.. muahaha.. den there was confrontation n stuff.. it feels good to kiss someone who pierced his tongue.. as usual.. there was max, ray, tommy, rico, bla bla bla.. so den the whole thing was, the lousy drinker, aka kahyan.. got drunk la.. poor charlottey had to take care of me.. first i was whining over whether jason is coming anot.. n when he's finally here, i dunno y, i juz din wanna make a move to dance with him.. and stuck-up-chow was there.. oh.. n Singapore Idol fans, i saw leandra.. she had the lime light for a while.. but anyway.. the most embarrassing moment is that when jason was going off, i was tearing!!! i bet he was thinking like wtf!! so i dun think i'll msg him anymore until he forgets everything n msg me.. which i think takes a long time.. anyway.. den jason left.. i got even more drunk.. oh.. n i somehow rmb that i saw the nice malay guy on the faren nite.. he wanted to dance with us la.. but jason was ard.. i din wan him to think that im leaving him for someone else.. sounds weird.. but anyway.. i haf memories of Rico keeps on bringing Char n i to his another club.. n i think i broke a glass there.. n then they make out.. n i was trying to sneak away.. muahahaha.. oh.. n faddy was there too.. my dearest faddy was there!!! haha.. char cldn't take care of me, n we needed a driver.. so faddy was like a PERFECT choice.. anyway.. i dunno y i was so depressed.. n i said i needed to go to esplanade.. so we went to marina park.. the lil park next to esplanade.. in his stylish car.. (oh san, i think his mazda is a RX8.. according to char..) n at marina park, he was trying to be funny AGAIN la.. so i was like y r guys always bla bla bla.. n cried again.. like A-G-A-I-N.. as char wld put it.. so all in all, it was a teary nite.. i hope i dun scare faddy or jason... jason is like THE guy.. i think.. n faddy is like THE car.. hahaha.. so i cant lose them.. muahaha

THE GREAT ESCAPE 2 03 Nov '04 so yea.. it's time for the great escape 2! so it was all the sneaky thing again.. this time was kinda bla.. but anyway.. i will still fill u in.. we met like damn late.. like 1am? n left at 330am?? one of char's fren is cute.. the rest are blah with a capital B! the music was bad.. like i only swayed to the most, 10 R&B songs.. char, we're NOT going to chinablack anymore.. n we met kerrie there.. n it was quite obvious that she had mee fen for dinner.. haha.. so den the rest was juz dancing to boring music and the lights went on, n we left.. so when we reached level 1, and as we walked out, pple kicking, punching.. den some ah beng juz shouted something in hokkien and the girlfriend pulled him away n they left.. den realised someone in the corner got stabbed as we witnessed them fighting.. SOMEONE GOT STABBED *gasps* so i was there kaypo-ing.. den there were ambulance and police and da da da.. den it was time to return.. n the next day, it was so tiring!!! did i mention that the stabbie is cute?? the stabbie's fren is cute too.. den we saw jeremy, kerrie's fren with that ger i forgot her name.. oh.. lynnette.. n char was drooling.. haha.. n tt's bout all i think.. one more thing, i'd rather witness something like this kinda attack at somewhere sleezy like Cheeky Monkey.. this makes cheeky aint no sleezy.. n the music at cheekys is DAMN good!girlies, we're gg there the next time.. n heck reputation!! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- THE PERFECT WEEKEND 06 Nov '04 it was one of those things which i missed for a long while.. it felt so good to have it back again.. not for ever.. juz to feel it again.. it was really great n perfect.. we snuggled up n watched half of White Chicks and Van Wilder.. it was funny.. the satisfaction did not come from the movies.. it came from the snugglings.. it felt gd to snuggle up.. it juz felt good.. it wasnt all abt making out.. it was abt snuggling up ya know.. u know.. u know.. u know..................... it's wonderful!!

With Halloween upon us, it is worthwhile to remember a few simple rules to help keep this season healthy, happy and SAFE!! Please use these helpful hints this and every year. 1. When it appears that you have killed the monster, NEVER check to see if it's really dead. 2. Never read a book of demon summoning aloud, even as a joke. 3. Do not search the basement, especially if the power has gone out. 4. If your children speak to you in Latin or any other language which they should not know, shoot them immediately. It will save you a lot of grief in the long run. However, it will probably take several rounds to kill them, so be prepared. This also applies to kids who speak with somebody else's voice. 5. When you have the benefit of numbers, NEVER pair off and go alone. 6. As a general rule, don't solve puzzles that open portals to Hell. 7. Never stand in, on, or above a grave, tomb, or crypt. This would apply to any other house of the dead as well. 8. If you're searching for something which caused a loud noise and find out that it's just the cat, GET THE HELL OUT! 9. If appliances start operating by themselves, do not check for short circuits; just get out. 10. Do not take ANYTHING from the dead. 11. If you find a town which looks deserted, there's probably a good reason for it. Don't stop and look around. 12. Don't fool with recombinant DNA technology unless you're sure you know what you're doing. 13. If you're running from the monster, expect to trip or fall down at east twice, more if you are female. Also note that, despite the fact that you are running and the monster is merely shambling along, it's still moving fast enough to catch up with you. 14. If your companions suddenly begin to exhibit uncharacteristic behavior such as hissing, fascination for blood, glowing eyes, increasing hairiness, and so on, kill them immediately. 15. Stay away from certain geographical locations, some of which are listed here: Amityville, Elm Street, Transylvania, Nilbog (you're in trouble if you recognize this one), anywhere in Texas where chainsaws are sold, the Bermuda Triangle, or any small town in Maine. 16. If your car runs out of gas at night on a lonely road, do not go to he nearby deserted-looking house to phone for help. If you think that it is strange you ran out of gas because you thought you had most of a tank, hoot yourself instead. You are going to die anyway, and most likely be eaten. 17. Beware of strangers bearing tools. For example: chainsaws, staple uns, hedge trimmers, electric carving knives, combines, lawnmowers, butane torches, soldering irons, band saws, or any devices made from deceased companions. 18. If you find that your house is built upon a cemetery, now is the time to move in with the in-laws. This also applies to houses that had previous inhabitants who went mad or committed suicide or died in some horrible fashion, or had inhabitants who performed satanic practices. 19. Dress appropriately. When investigating a noise downstairs in an old house, women should not wear a flimsy negligee. And carry a flashlight, not a candle. 20. Do not mention the names of demons around open flames, as these can flare suddenly. Be especially careful of fireplaces in this regard. 21. Do not go looking for witches in the Maryland countryside. HAVE A SAFE AND HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

nimzie.. trying to look all-so-sophisticated..

char's lacey top with a matching tree-like bottom.. hehe

my sexy outfit.. muahahaha

me n my girlies *winks*

the rockin nite!!!

nim, this is for you.. let me update u with some cool stuff tt happened on the rockin nite of clubbing we had on last sat.. it's one of the wildest, fun-nest, coolest, happening-est nite me n my girlies have ever had!! first, i went to char's place n we started dressing n dolling up... char wore this green lacey top which is like see thru.. with a maroon bra underneath.. with a brown coudroy skirt.. i thout she looked like a tree.. but she'll resemble a christmas tree if she were to wear the red bra which i was thinking of lending her.. as for me, i was wearing this brown, lacey, see through, low cut mango top, which i thout was totally A.W.E.S.O.M.E! with my awesomely looking jeans.. hehe.. den we went to nimzie's place.. she wore this sophisticated looking tube and a super mini blue coudroy skirt which flew all the way back from thailand.. so in her place, we snapped n snapped n snapped.. oh.. n did i mention tt both of us weren't wearing a bra?? hehe.. so anyway.. we headed to cheekys.. yea.. our all-time-favourite.. we took a cab down n char insisted tt we shld stop far away n walk down.. so we did.. when we finally finally finally reached cheekys, Rico was there at the door seemingly waiting for our arrival *giggles*.. so he told the counter lady tt we shld not pay counter lady: " satoo" Rico: " nono.. tiga tiga" so then we gracefully sashay to the counter to get our chops.. den char came n say:"he's getting us a jug" so nim n i happily waited for it.. hehe... when we were sipping away from the jug, Rico came n invited us to the VIP corner.. n may i emphasize the VIP corner!!! like OMG!!! haha.. den we were inside, talking bout how we cant know guys since we are being "closed" up in this little VIP corner.. so then, i was like bored.. n went to the toilet den went to get a drink.. th bartender -whose name is ray- was totally staring down my boobs man.. he made no effort to hide it.. so den.. we went back to our lil cosy corner aka the VIP corner n was juz chilling n stuff.. so Ray, decided to flash a RAY of light at us with a torch.. den we were like giggling n giggling.. den nim n char went to get some other drinks.. this time, i was alone.. and Ray was signaling for me to go over.. so i went over.. n talked.. n a lil of introducing n stuff.. n sth embarrassing happened (i think i forgot to tell u girlies tt day).. the corner thingy is like a platform.. so den when i was talking to him, the chair kinda slipped off the plaatform area.. but all was good.. anyway, den Jason msg to say he wasn't coming!!! *POUT* den we got a lil bored of tt lil cosy corner n decided to shake our asses a lil... so we went to the dance floor.. aft twirling a few rounds, our lil cosy corner got occupied.. wtf!! den the girls came.. sandy, who was wearing this black spag with black skirt.. it wld be nicer if she's a lil more meaty.. hehe.. a lil too skinny.. juz a lil!! im sure u can get back the meat.. dun worry.. den rach, who was wearing this off-shoulder which i thout was very nice.. esp it's in green!! with her hair plaited.. den L, who was wearing a plain-o white spag with jeans.. so den the rest was a more or less clubbing scene.. n i cant really remember... juz rmb tt i drank alot.. oh OH!!! i rmb.. i rmb seeing SU!!! it felt like.. BAH!! char, i thout u said he wldn't wanna come.. or was tt illusion.. it looks kinda blur... anyway.. i rmb tt nite i was always asking pple to go on podium n whenever i was on the podium, i was shamelessly making eye contact with Su.. den we went off the podium n char n i was dancing (where's nim?? she's with her guy- Giri..), den Su came.. deni forgot wad happened.. den char n i was making out in front of him.. i dunno y i did tt.. den he was like.. is tt a sign for me to leave? i was like wadever.. i forgot wad i said.. n he left.. den aft tt i dunno how i know this retro guy.. his name- fraddy.. he was wearing this pink flower shirt.. so i forgot how i knew him too.. think he was standing ard n i was standing ard den we started talking?? something like tt.. think he's some rich farts.. den i think san had to go.. den rach went off.. den char was with this guy- Justin (who is very caring *wink*) den i do not know wad happened.. all i knew was, nim was with Giri, i was with retro guy, Char was with Justin, san n rach had guys too.. n the mystery of L remains unsolved.. so anyway.. oh ya.. i made frens with 2 bouncers- Paul n Tommy.. but i dun care cos Ray is far far far far cuter than any of em.. whatever.. i was late, n the club closed... u think our nite ended?? NO!!! we went to chinablack!! hehehe.. fraddy drives!! *slurps* hehehe.. so, on our way to get his mazda, we went down the stairs n stuff.. i dun really rmb the walk.. but i rmb rolling down the stairs.. talk about being embarrassed.. now i still have bruises.. he drives a very stylish mazda.. char n justin was in the back seat, i was in the front seat n fraddy of cos was driving.. duh?! den we passed by cheekys, only seeing nim n Giri outside.. so we honked at them.. it juz feels so good to be in the front seat of a stylish car n honk at someone on the road.. muahahaha.. anyway.. when we were at lido, the guys all went to withdraw cash.. muahahaha.. they paid for chinablack n bla bla bla... from here, i was kinda KO.. den the next scene i rmb was the prata scene.. prata was nice n we went back to char's hse to slp.. n i have to mention tt char's parents r so nice n warm n stuff to have us over.. thank you uncle and auntie!! tt's abt all i guess.. anything else to add??

oh.. n i wld like to add tt in one point in time, everyone seems to be grabbing n squeezing n "piak-ing" my boobs.. for dunno wad reason.. n theres this point in time in the club, someone juz grabbed my ass n went away.. wad the fuck!

finally went for THE trip with me n my girlies!! hehe... love it!! tireD!! till now haven sleep yet.. anyway.. jason stood up on me.. he din come.. bah!

crying out loud: Cant wait for thumping music to deafen my ears, flashing lights to irritate my sight of gorgeous guys, drown down some awesome shooters, having fun with my girlies... just cant wait to party AGAIN!!!

my next clubbing outfit!!! i juz love the brown mango top so much!!!!

Jason.. ~swoon~ Yup.. tt's rite.. I met Jason juz now.. from like 5 till 630.. we met at furama hotel den went to some coffee shop at peoples park centre for a talk.. it felt gd to meet him outside clubbing.. thou we still talked about clubbing.. but it's a whole different feeling.. like hes not the guy who gropes around in the club.. it juz felt so.. .. .. .. nice.. .. .. .. it was nice talking to him.. like juz seat down n have a long, good talk kinda thing.. its been almost an year that I met him in SOS!! Probably 11 months.. since I met him mid November.. He's one of the guys tt I'll go.. *gasps* its Jason!! N go how how?? *blush blush* u know tt kinda feeling.. anyway.. we were talking bout lotsa things.. first we talked about how you've been n stuff.. n only den I know tt his NS ended.. n he asked about my girlfriends too.. sandy n char.. he juz has this weird ability to remember names.. so then we talked about his weird fren- Ben.. who transformed my white tube into a tube with gray patch.. n I told him about my sneaky escapade.. haha.. then we saw this girl who is so slim with nice, long legs.. she was wearing this SUPER mini skirt made with this SUPER light material and it was like flying around.. it was juz so captivating.. probably juz me.. so I was like.. "woo.. nice legs!" n Jason looked.. we had fun analyzing the legs n the skirt which will show everything if a light breeze visits. Then we talked about my plans aft diploma.. degree?? Work?? Not sure.. he said that I cant be their accountant- not like I'm good in accounts- after my diploma.. which I think was juz a joke.. he's currently working in a dot com company who does sth similar as the credit cards company.. whereby they have this database and that they go to diff company to bargain n they'll share their databases.. or sth like tt.. I wasn't too sure but I din wanna look dumb.. den we talked about studying overseas, like aus, which might cost somewhat $70K not including pocket money and party money.. haha.. den he said sth like if he were to study in aussieland, he can save on the money of living in a dorm.. as half of his family stays there or so he says. Den dunno how, we talked about O'levels, n miracles which happened during the O'level time, I would say the hardwork instead.. then we talked about music.. did I tell u that he can sing? He wish tt the could play a keyboard, n I wish tt I could sing well.. so we were talking about singing den we talked about my piano.. then we were happily yakking away.. den a puff of smoke came.. it was a spoiler la!! Like a major spoiler!! He dun smoke n I dun like pple's smoke to come into my face.. so den he suggested to walk me home.. The walk home seems so fast.. gave each other a hug n left.. I feels sooooo good when u can actually seat down with a guy which u swoon over to have a talk about abit of everything.. connection?? Nah.. after the faren thing.. nth is connection.. for all u know, it's juz that u think tt there's a connection, n probably he's able to "connect" with all the girls out there.. besides that, all is good.. n I'll be meeting him lotsa times during my attachment days for lunch.. I hope..

"she is soo.... pretty, sweet, cute, nice.." this is wad i found when kaypo-ing in others friendster... is tt what guys nowadays are attracted to??? for all u know, this ger might be so dependent on others, have no thoughts of her own, have no thoughts for life (nim, i can hear u mumbling, but the fact is i really have more thouts than she does), no sense of direction or whatsoever.. what im trying to say here is not that she's blah blah blah or blah blah blah... what im trying to point out is, is this "she is soo.... pretty, sweet, cute, nice.." all guys see in a girl?? *roll eyes*.. what about independence?? which is really an important part in life.... chapter 1- independence like able to take care of urself, so ger do not haf to call guy in the middle of nite n say, "im having menses.. HOW???" ger oso do not have to call guy when he's in the middle of the meetin n say, "i dunno how to go to bla bla bla.. can u come n fetch me pls, even thou u r in the west n im in the east" n every other thing about independence... but when u come to think of it, it's the unindependence= dependence, tt guys like.. eg. "hun, can u come n fetch me.. i dunno how to go.. wad if i got lost??" the guy will be like, arrgh i all i can do is try to go down to fetch her if not she'll get lost, cry, pout, bla bla bla... den he'll juz go alll the way down to fetch her, n she'll think tt he's so sweet... aww... den kiss him, hug him, bla bla bla... den he'll think, hmmm... it's not a bad idea tt i came n pick her.. so den, she likes, n he likes, n happili ever after.. probably tt's y im not in a relationship.. cos i enjoy being independent... thou i rely on my girlies once in a while.. but i still prefer to go to a specific place on my own, figure out directions on my own.. bla bla..

chapter 2- thoughts... (the next time i blog)

Top Ten Signs You're Becoming a Teenager 10. Like is, like, the most commonly used word in your vocabulary. 9. "Metal Mouth" and "Tinsel Teeth" have replaced your real name. 8. You fight with your hair every morning . . . and you lose! 7. Your parents have never heard of your favorite rock group. 6. Even your zits have zits! 5. It's not safe to say the word "mall" around you. 4. Let's just say . . . sometimes you don't smell too good. 3. You've gone from "A". . . to "B" . . . to "C" . . . cup! 2. If you have to speak in front of your class, you care more about what you're wearing than what you're going to say. And finally, the number ONE sign you're becoming a teenager is... 1. If someone at your house is PMSing, it's not always your mom!

the tag on it... my Levi's 593

THE jeans!! my Levi's

muahahahahahaha bought my 1st pair of Levi's!!! n i think it's THE jeans!!! it's so A.W.E.S.O.M.E!!! juz cant wait to share with my frens, galfrens, girlies.... anyway.. in life, girlfriends/ girlies are juz so important.. they shop with u to get ur fav jeans, they will cheer u up when u're feeling blah!! and most importantly, u can share with them ur troubles, happiness n GOSSIPS!! hehehe.. so sandy, if there's anything, pls come n look for me.... i'll lend u my ear.. lets go on a girly day aft my papers!! love ya..

no meat day!! ya.. today is all fruits, fruits and fruits!!!! lunch time came.. but none of us are willing to go down to get lunch and my maid is on leave.. so we thout we could make something nice out of wad with have.. which was F.R.U.I.T.S! lunch was watermelon, guava, pear and apple.. so then it was napping n dinner came.. n similarly, no one wanna go get dinner, so we all had FRUITS again.. like how interesting man.. this time it was grapes, pear, strawberries, celery and bananas.... interesting fruity day.. so... conclusion: fruits are gd.. but having family members willing to get meals will be better....

hey hey hey it's time to blog again.. muahahahaha... feel so blah bah bleah baaa baaaaah studying.. plus i din study much too.. cos everytime i sit at my desk, i try to settle down n study.. n eventually, i cant focus!!!! like.. ARRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so anyway... to pple studying, nim, char, kerrie and whoever tt's reading this n is mugging..... some wise words by char n it's been effective for me: study hard now and party twice as hard later!!! tt's why we shld study now!!! so we can party later!!! plus u can play GUILT-LESS-LY! so ENDURE, have DISCIPLINE and STRIVE on the last lap of this semester!!!!

BAH!!! i cant view my blog!!! wtf is happening!?!? arrrrgh

finally know my attachment working times...

monday to friday: 10am to 7 pm!!! (BAH!!! end so late!!!)
saturday: 10am to 2 pm!!!! (bleah!!! saturday still have to work!!!)

how interesting rite?? anyway it's nice cos it's juz a brigde away.. haha.. bah...
HAVE TO STUDY!!! let's go parteeee on 22nd Oct??? anyone wanna come??? let me know k... cant wait to have fun again............................ now, study!!

i can hardly believe this!!

last nite, my girlies were at Cheekys.. so me bring cooped at home really want to go.. since i missed the last week's action... n guess wad i did!!! guess.. GUESS com' on.. juz give a really wild guess, cos wad i did was W.I.L.D!!!

did u guess correctly?!?! ya man.. i sneaked out of my hse!! this is something which is really absurd!!! like totally man!!! i cant believed tt i've done it.. it's too true to be true!!! finally im living my life!! no more what ifs.. well i had some what ifs with me.. but my devil aka charlotte snapped the what ifs out of me... finally i have something to share with my children or grandchildren about!!

i mean.. i only live for once!! i should juz do what i wanna do man!! esp at this age.. if i do not do anything outrageous now, the chances will get slim!!! cos growing older and getting what i want, i do not have the chance of climbing through my grandma's window and unlock of gate so softly then unlock the lock so quietly! den change into my skirt in my balcony, locking the gate as soft as possible and bringing my heels with me till i reach the lift lobby.... it was really A.W.E.S.O.M.E. man!! like totally!!

the party last nite was OK la.. not like WHAO!! but not bad la.. the peak of the night was the part where i reached Cheekys after sneaking out of my hse... tt was like the peak la... everything was so exciting!! muahahahahahahaha!!!!! n i was able to sneak back in successfully too!!! hahaha...

PROJECTS they flow in one after another like water flowing down from the stream..... went to work on sunday. and guess wad?? the next day had to hand in my Project which is like 50 pages long!! BAH!! so.. sunday, the work was kinda fun.. thou it was tiring but FUN!!! made frens.. juz stood at one spot to give out a tote bag and pursuade people to fill in some lucky draw forms... singaporeans are FREAKS man.. once noone come to take the bags, no one will wanna go near u.. but once when one come, everyone comes like bees!! like nim wld say: it was mountain moving to Mohamad.. we had MARCHE for dinner.. their MASH POTATO is like MARVELLOUS!!! like finger licking good.. muahahahahhaha after work, we- Sandy, Nim, Rachel and i- went to Hendrix for a drink.. it was like CHEAP!!! like $5 and free flow... anyway.. rachel and nim became friends.. n rachel is like not a gd drinker.. haha.. i wasnt tt fantastic either.. to be continued

Dear Mom aka W.I.T.C.H aka hse B*TCH, CONGRATULATIONS Mom aka W.I.T.C.H aka hse B*TCH You've succeeded in locking me up in this tall tower which is filled with witches and wizards and monsters and ogres. With no doors and windows, everything beyond these 4 walls is unreachable. The thumping music and flashing lights are just as far as outer space. However, the nags and grumbles that I receive seem so near.. as if they're juz in Malaysia. I dun even think my prince charming can get me out of this unbreakable tower, because there is no window and I do not have a sweet voice which can charm the prince. My future is juz so deem in front of me. Almost nothing. Probably prince un-charming will be attracted to my croaking voice and my pig- like figure. The only time I'm being let out is when you want me to learn how do I make a potion, how do I foresee the future, and when u want me to learn to play a harp. I'm not allowed to play with my little friends. Let alone going to the play ground with them, and not to mention of having some little friendly times with my little pals. So let's juz not think about attending any birthday parties! Fun seems to not be in your dictionary. Isn't that sad? I mean, H-E-L-L-O!! probably you've had your share of sleeping overs and birthday parties, cant u juz let me have some of it too?? Oh.. probably your mom din allow u to go either.. and u had to stay at home and sulk as u r being forced to do the chores.. so y do u not let me go?? Y wld u want me to sulk like u did? When I asked if I can go to town to pick up some jelly beans or a new cloak, u wld always ask me to stay home instead. When Halloween or thanks-giving is round the corner, and my little friends invite me over, I ALWAYS have to be Sevenrella!! I have to leave like 7 when everything juz started and u say they shld understand. But the thing is I dun even understand u! how can they understand?! Anyway.. juz to let u know, I'll be digging my way out of this damn tower! Because I’m near to suffocating to death. I may take all the gold u have in ur treasure box, ride on your precious Horsey and never return. This day will come right after my education ends! Trying very hard to love you, Sevenrella.

yup.. im in sch again.. everything is geting very irritating.. i mean like totally.. i'll elaborate later.. or probably during the party line.. haha.. any-o-how.. nim n i was talking abt love and dependence.. which is greater?? you can be in love for someone yet your dependency for someone could be so great that you wanna be with him/her.. anyway.. the point is why cant human juz be ALL so independent? why muz we depend on something/ someone to relief your dependency??? it's juz so........... weird? but the farni part is that someone's love can be nurtured because of dependency.. likewise, someone's dependency for another person will increase because of love... sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat sat club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club club yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay

BAH!!! in sch now using the damn laptop which cant survive without the charger.. talk abt being a loser man..... anyway... project project and PROJECTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrrgghh..... so.. actually this sun i was supposed to work with san.. but now tt i realise tt my project is like POURING on me, i thout mebbe i shldn't go.. but oh well... i cant get out of it... totally looking forward to this sat.. finally can rest from the hectiv projects!! la la la la la... but have to wake up early on sun to WORK! moral of the story: never made any gurantees until you're sure of ur schedule! BAH!! this sat this sat this sat.. abel to UNWIND!!! hopefully my girles wun ditch me -last min- esp nim!! the super famous last minute ditcher! esp she's gg for another party the nite before!!! cant wait cant wait cant wait!! CANT WAIT TO CLUB AGAIN...

la la la hey hey hey.. im making an effort to blog almost everyday.. hahahaha.. anyway.. busy week ahead.. cant wait for clubbing to come!!! muahahaha.. den i can go crazy with my girlies....

phew even my weekends are spent on projects!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! willium hungs so cute.... hahaha.. watching rite now.. ciao

Contradictions life is a piece of contradicting ass... when u put in ur effort to do somethings, it will in turn become something BAD.. but when u become heck care once in a while, the end result will surprisingly be better.. it contradicts when pple ask u to put in effort to do things, and the performance of it is like worse than u heck care.. and because you really put in effort when doing something, n the end of it, the performance was much lesser than wad u expected, n u become depressed and really sad and cry over it.. since putting effort = worse results + depressions and being sad, y shld anyone put in effort in the things they do?? it juz doesn't make sense.. rite?? n i think that this applies to everything.. mebbe thats where the phrase Everything Happens When you Least Expect Them to comes from..

Shuddup nim.. unlike you, i happen to haf alot of projects due and tests to study.. and unlike you, i do not waste my precious time surfing when i haf to prepare for so many stuff.... n because i was a lil like u, tt's y i screwed up my Accounts paper today!! like totally screwed up....... last nite i was happily studying n studying.. den the thout of us going to club nxt sat happily crept into my already-filled-up-with-lotsa-stuff mind... so den i was happily imagining char flirting with the bouncers and MAX n imagining nim packing n chucking me aside... imagining whether we can get my underage fren in like smuggle in.. imagining wad will i be wearing.. which get will i get hooked up with.. imagining imagining imagining... next sat..... but i still haf lots to do before i shld parteeee... and coming back to the accounts paper.. it was totally screwed.. i juz forgot everything when i entered the hall... BAH!!! cant wait for next sat................. SIGH!!

In Class...

yup.. im in class right now.. waiting to complete my Web Site.. cool eh.. ya.. im making my own web site!! like totally AWESOME.. anyway... BORED

the world today.. what's with the world today?! y is it so tt people r killing each other? y some people have to take KIDS- mind u! kids- as hostage? is not like they're the ones who do not meet with ur demand.. y do people bomb embassies? ultimately, most of the died and injured ones are their own people and not the caucasians. what if one day something like that happened in Singapore? wad if one day, a grp of terrorist juz charged into NP n dig open their "underground compartment" to retrieve their weapons and start to shoot at everyone, forcing everyone to the sports hall.. which totally cant fit all the NPians.. the very first thing is, we'll be squeeze to death.. any how.. this is not wad i wanna say.. wad i wanna say is.. the world now is so unpredictable.. wad if suddenly, something like tt happened?? i juz wanna say that I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! no matter how u BIMBO u think i am.. no matter how LOUD you think i am.. no matter how IRRITATING i can sometimes be.. no matter how RUDE i may be.. to my GIRLIES, FRENS n MOMMY!! I LOVE U SO MUCH! ~MUACKS~

the HAZE is back! this time is it Malaysia or Indonesia?? not like anyone will appreciate this topic, but TB!! this is MY BLOG!! muahahaha.. as i was saying.. HAZE is BACK!! i cld clearly see cable cars and SGH but now it's totally misty and fogy.. but m i the only one who realised this?? talked to a few frens abt it, they juz acted all so bimboic and like it isn't any big issue.. true enough.. it's not tt big an issue.. but i personally think that it's really important to know and warn and keep people informed that the haze is back... and by having PSI really helped alot.. Benefits: 1. people who are down with asthma will take extra precautions so that they wont get caught off guard. 2. clinics and hospital will probably inform their doctors to standby 24 hrs as lotsa people might get infected especially the throat, nose and eyes area. 3. suppliers of pharmacies will probably increase the stock of mask as KIASU singaporeans pour into pharmacies the purchase the masks. 4. coffeeshop uncle will probably place more seats in the coffeeshop itself than in the outdoor area as the air is really polluted. 5. suppliers of the air purifier will probably stay on guard for more orders. 6. people who own those purifier thingy will use them (like my family) instead of allowing a thick layer of dust to grow on them. 7. drivers will be prepared if all of a sudden a thick mist juz appear, n they'll know tt they shld slow down before getting killed. anyway.. in addition to the already-polluted environment, people nowadays, esp the younger generations, do not appreciate the environment and mother nature.. not like i dun use paper and all.. but im aware and im scared of the consequences that all these pollutions will bring to us!! Example: 1. if the movie, The Day After Tomorrow really comes true, which i truly believe.. one day this will happen.. den it'll be disastrous!! if you've been watching news, you'd probably realise that floods and typhoons are attacking countries like Japan, China, Taiwan, etc. if tt's not enough to frightem you, these are South East Asia countries.. and they're like really CLOSE to us.. if there will be a drastic drop in temperature, u think we wun be affected?? YOU WISH!! probably the books in our national library aren't enough to keep us warm.. 2. some movie which i-forgot-wad.. it;s about sometime in the future.. where people travel and stay and all their daily life above normal building level because the air is way too polluted that they can no longer live there. if this is really wad will happened, i'd like to urge researchers to develop the kind of technologies that allow people to travel and stay above normal builing level. and this will be kinda sucky as people will haf to adapt to an all new environment. and human evolution will den come in place as people will den be travelling in some flying objects as there is no longer land for people to walk on.. people of tt age will probably haf super small legs, as they are no longer in use.. any-o-how.. all im trying to say here is, dear Mr Lee.. probably reproduction and marriage are some vital issues in our society today, health is an important part in life too.. please put on the PSI thing, so people will know tt it;s probably not safe to travel. thank you.

Nimrta Kaur Sandhu... stop calling me a BIMBO!! cos i've someone MUCH MORE BIMBOTIC than i am!!! hahahahahahahaha... muahahahahahha.. at least i know how to do my tutorials, which is juz following instructions... hahahaha.... later during the conference or sth i'll tell u girles... muahahahahahah..... YAY!!!

SCH STARTS AGAIN!!

yep.. today is monday n sch starts again after the limited amount of fun which i had the past 2 wks.. on sat, we had a OI reunion.. having fun n gossiping n it reminds me of the OI times which was SUPERB!!! remember i was all alone (as in no close frens with me) in OI.. not much GESSIANS with me.. only Clement and Ananthini.. as if they're my bestest fren of all.. so anyway.. OI days were skipping lect and even skipping tutorial.. playing pokar cards and even mahjong.. going town almost everyday and taking neo-prints.. going to sentosa and get a BAD tan.. unforgettable.. those were the carefree days..

back to reality.. as in now... got a bunch of girlies who r fun to talk to.. like char's blog mentioned, the who to marry n eventually with who kinda thing is like cool man.. n i havent know who is the guy that i WANT to marry... n it's also interesting how God make each other meet.. i hope i'll meet the guy that i WANT to marry before im married... get wad i mean ya..

if not, it'll be totally depressing.............. like totally

BAH!!! it's only thursday.. my last paper is on saturday.. n it's Operation Management... n i havent start to study yet.. plus im going for a hair cut tmr.. it'll take me like 3 hrs!!! argh.... ~back to books~

Y.A.W.N.

la la la la.. it's the time of the day again.. the period where i always gets distracted and come to my laptop.. muahahaha.. anyway.. mid term test starts tmr!!! like Y.A.W.N!! haha.. preparation?? well.. ok la.. wise words from char tt haf to be kept in mind time to time: Study Hard now and Party TWICE as Hard later!!! looking forward to clubbing again.. haha.. but it;s not like i can get out of this prison.. where's my prince charming who is coming to save me out of this eerie tower, battle those disgusting spiders off me and kill that bitchy W.I.T.C.H who is constantly pulling and yanking me silky L.O.N.G lockes... where is the L.O.V.E...... arrrggghhhh... y m i being such a drama queen?? probably i've inherited sandy's imaginative thinking and nimrta's exaggerating-ness and charlotte's abbreviations... muahahahaha ~back to studying~ S.I.G.H

Lying?? Not Lying!!

Lying? NOT Lying!! Rite.. so I lied.. but it wasn't really lying.. it's like I dun really mind yet I feel the pinch in me.. and why should I be selfish by stopping my best fren having her own life when im being a sour grape? Anyway this sour grape will roll away one fine day, like how the crush I had on Andre flew off all of a sudden and everything will be fine.. and since everything will be fine, nimzie, juz continue with ur chats n texts and all.. I'm fine.. really.. u dun haf to like worry about me.. you've worried bout me WHEN CLUBBING.. den u had to worry about me AFTER clubbing.. and now back to the REAL WORLD, u dun haf to be worrying bout me.. I'll be fine sweetie.. and I dun mind.. i mean really!! n y muz we even care about this sad ass!?!?! N talk about being wild, char, u lived up to our dreams ger!! First I couldn't believe you were going to thai behind ur parents back.. n now I cant believe you went to thai and came back! Like OMG!! Hahaha.. missed ur abbreviations.. LT man!! Hahaha.. so anyway, guess u learnt ur lesson.. always prepare a to-bring list.. and always take extra precautions when u r overseas.. there was a Tin Tin Adventure.. now here's the Abbreviation Ass Adventure.. hahaha.. Triple A.. cool!! Haha.. and really thank u sweetie for buying stuff for us even u landed with no money!! Really thank you so much babe!! Muacks!! Anyway I learnt a valuable lesson in a hard and fast way! oh.. and char learnt her lesson too ya.. haha.. in a hard n fast way too.. anyway, Everyone will fall eventually, but the one who gets back on his/her feet fastest is the winner.. and since everyone make mistakes, that's why erasers are made on top of pencils.. *winks* dun worry bout me girlie.. love u always.. muacks muacks~

not getting any better

Not Getting Any Better

my sore throat aint getting any better!! i haf difficulty even swallowing water.. ya.. like wad the hell man... n at this time i need the most sayang n whines, my mom juz kept nagging at me.. arrrggh... like it's so irritating... fine if u dun wanna sayang me.. y muz u nag at a poor child with BAD (n i mean really bad) sore throat!!! arrrrrgggh.. this is wad you'll get the next time u gets ill!! humph!!

FEVER!!!

FEVER!!

this is like the 2nd or 3rd time this yr tt i haf fever.. totally sux.. with SUPER bad sore throat... argh.. like i can feel the lump on the sides of my throat.. cant even drink water.. it's like so painful

@new features

NEW FEATURES !!!

okie.. i juz realised blogger have some new features.. nothing really happened these days.. nothing exciting, nothing important to take note of.. n being a bimbo, i dun really haf thouts for life.. so i shall announce: NO NEW UPADATES!!

i miss zach thou.. he's away for back packing in aussieland.. hope he doesn't forget abt me.. hahahaha..

toking abt the new features, i hafta try it out now.. this is like really awesome... like totally!! lurve it... n i think that red is the colour of confidence.. till den, haf a great time biatches..

wonder when will i club again... wonder when can i club again.. wonder when can i be less bimbotic.. wonders into deep thouts......

sch started

School Started

woo.. mould n fungus growing here ya.. it's been a long time since my last entry.. well.. sch has started for a week now.. n hols is over...
During the Holidays...
it was party, party n more party.. i went on a 3 nites in a row clubbing trip with different clubbing kakis.. haha.. dun try it. believe me.. it's TIRING!! 1st nite was wed nite at Chinablack.. i went with kerrie, her frens, sera n her frens and some of my classmates.. the best part, IT WAS LADIES NITE!!! yep yep.. so i had drinks.. lotsa lotsa lotsa them.. like er.. 6 cups or more.. and the bar tender is one hell of an assoholic.. he refuses to serve kerrie but anyway besides that was fun.. kerrie was having trouble to look aft me.. thanx pal!! so.. the next nite, thurs nite.. was planning to go to centro with nim.. so we decided to pop at Cheeky Monkey to have a drink 1st(cos it was ladies nite)den move on to centro.. but guess wad?!!? nim n i both got DRUNK!! we were totally OFF!!! poor zhou huan have to manage 2 gers twice her size.. which means her had to handle 4 of herself.. haha.. thanx sweetie.. n i forgot to mention, i vomited blood.. arrgh.. scared scared!! so.. the last nite, which was a friday nite, we went to rouge.. this time was with sandy n rachel n their frens.. n on tt nite, i know this guy name allen.. till now we;re still on the phone n all.. sweet guy la.. but dun think i wanna get into a relationship anytime soon.. so ya...
den the last clubbing trip b4 sch starts was on the last thurs (24/6).. this time i went with char, kerrie n her fren.. so we went to MU to haf a drink 1st (as usual.. cos it was ladies nite) den moved down to Chinablack.. saw Piggy n as usual.. surrounded by gers.. it wasnt too bad.. except tt i was being cheated.. it wasnt RnB all nite!! HUMPH!! n there was one pt of time i was messaging kerrie asking her where she was.. i was standing by the bar.. waiting for her reply at the same time admiring Piggy.. n this guy offered me a drink, left his name n went off.. weird thou.. drank it.. nth happened.. so ya.. den we went dancing, char n i.. den know this guy in beanie- Zach.. think he's quite cute thou..

Back to today...
juz return from the date with Zach.. besides his hair, his appearance is pleasant.. watched Spiderman 2 n had a meal at Cafe Cartel.. yum yum..
so.. by now, sch has alrdy started for a week.. not too bad.. hopefully i'd stop skipping lects.. n ya.. enjoy my sch term.. hope hope!!

clubbing trip AGAIN!!

latest clubbing updates

yup.. yet anotha clubbing trip... GRINS!! wanted to go to Chinablack.. so we can skip the cover charges.. but the queue was so damn long... n since we missed the chance of going in free, we wld rather pay $1 less n go to Cheeky Monkeys.. with a free drink oso.. so we took a cab down..

like the usual routine, i'll go to 7-11 to get a drink 1st.. i bought Long Island yesterday.. 10% alcohol.. it's nice.. i'll get tt the next time.. plus i din haf dinner, i was floating away as soon as nim n i finished the bottle.. ya.. wadever.. im a lousy drinker..we got in, we found a spot to settle down.. nim got picked up by 2 caucasian guys as soon as we got in.. saying that Singapore gers are very pretty.. anyway.. after that, i was supposed to haf a Rum.. but i got a vodka instead.. but still, i was HIGH!!! so i wanted to dance.. but everyone else was still awake so they din wan to get their ass off the chair.. n after another tequila shot, char, nim, pooja n i went to the dance floor to dance our ass off!! while ZhouHuan was seating there msging her cutie(i juz realise that this is our 1st no-guy clubbing trip) so we were dancing in the middle of the dance floor..

this group of guys came and danced around us.. there was this guy who was so cute!! he was wearing this t-shirt which says "A" in the middle of the shirt, so we call him the A-guy.. this A-guy was dancing ard/behind charlotte, so i was saying char, the guy behind u is trying to dance with you and he's CUTE!!.. char din seem interested so i made eye contact with him shamelessly.. *grins* den he came over and danced with me.. so we were dancing n less than 2 mins we started making out.. i really haf to think abt this man.. y do guys make up with me so fast? i din grab their dick or lap dance with them.. so anyway.. i was dancing with this A-guy.. den i saw this really cute guy starring at me..

JASON!!! yes!!! it was JASON!!!omg he's so cute.. i swear he's the sweetest talker that i ever know.. ya.. i was exhilerated when i saw him.. i mean everytime i club i ask if he will be clubbing but no.. our timings are always not able to match... n last nite, i knew he was clubbing but he said he was going to devils bar or sth like tt.. so not a single bit of me ever thout that i cld see him.. so i told the A-guy: 1 second.. and i went to look for Jason.. chatting with him n all n ended up dancing together.. he's a great dancer man.. even when he was alone.. n he's all so gentle with gers... so anyway.. he fely guilty for leaving his fren alone so he went to look for his fren.. and i went to look for my girlfriends.. only to realise that they are all not at the usual spot.. plus i din haf my phone.. so i went outa the club n saw char.. both of us was phone-less.. n i saw the A-guy there, i wanted to borrow his hp but he seems busy so we approached some stranger on the road to borrow his phone.. den we got nim.. n she passed me my $2 so char n i went to get a bottle of mineral water.. den we cant open the bottle.. it was really difficult to open.. so we approached 2 indians to open the bottle for us.. but they failed so we went ard and anotha guy who looked quite old opened it for us.. anyway.. it was hilarious.. if u were there..

so we went in again.. this time i was dancing with char.. den Jason asked us to join them so i cld dance with Jason n char cld dance with his fren.. half way thru the dance, Jason suggested changing partners.. i din mind.. so we did exchange.. Jason's fren, Dan is damn wet!! perpiring like nobody's business.. he was hugging me and all..stupid guy!! so high tt he was kinda outa control!! my goodness.. i was soaked aft dancing with him.. so we went out cos nim haf to leave.. i din wanna go.. for some obvious reasons.. so i ditched her (sorry nimo!!)

den we went in again.. this time i was warned not to dance with Jason cos he has got some hands which slides into dark coners.. (char, thanx alot baby..) so we went to dance in the middle of the dance floor.. but i so much wanted to dance with him but i cant leave her alone.. so i didn't.. anyway.. then came along 2 chinese guys dancing with both of us.. so we were dancing.. i swear i was dancing the most decently this time round cos i wasnt high at all.. but we still made out in like less than 10 mins.. but it's not a 2 way thing.. he was the one trying to kiss me...... i was hiding, avoiding, siam-ing.......... so anyway.. tt's abt all tt happened..

cant wait for next week.. and u know wad?! i haf the craziest thout.. i told my parents tt i haf a camp next week.. the "actual" camp.. n the craziest idea snapped me!! i can club on wed cos ladies nite, den thurs cos nim's fren bday and fri cos there's some party going on at rouge!!! muahahahahahaha *evil grin* anyone wanna acc me or gimmi some place to go??? *winks*

fever

FEVER!!!

yep.. now is my turn to haf fever... arrgh... i dun wann haf fever.. i wanna be clubbing tmr nite!!!!!!!!!! arrrgghhhh....to tired to write anymore..

divorce and remarry..

Divorced and Remarried

was reading the papers this morning, only then, i realise that J Lo got remarried AGAIN!!! gosh... doesn't she get sick of entering a marriage and say goodbye to the relationship in a yr or less?? wad has the world come to?? pple leaving each other after a MARRIAGE.. it's suppose to be something sacred isn't it? anyway.. J Lo's first marriage to Cuban waiter Ojani Noa ended in 1998 after a year. her second mariage to backup dancer Cris Judd floundered a few months after their September 2001 nuptials. Her 18-month courtship with Affleck ended in January, after a cancelled September 2003 wedding... and last saturday, a wedding held for J Lo and Marc Anthony at J Lo's Beverly Hills was a kept the the lowest.. i wonder how long will this relationship/ marriage of theirs last... im so disgusted by this big ass lady........

clubbing trip again

clubbing trip again

alrighty.. here i am trying to recall wad we did last nite...this is the 2nd clubbing trip this week.. really tiring.. went with nim, nic, alvin, fadrick/fadrid.. wadever.. so anyway.. there was a JC party at rouge.. the crowd looks good.. until i realised that almost 70% of the crowd is UNDERAGE!! i knew i was once like that.. but but but... anyway.. we were in the queue since 2215 to 2300.. and the queue is not moving at all!!was so disgusted.. so i got frustrated and was whiney away.. lucky i was with nim, otherwise someone else will juz stuff some unknown object up my mouth.. but nim wanted to do that too.. so anyway..we decided to leave aft a quick discussion.. so we went to Shanghai Sally's.. to realise that there was a bunch of aunties and uncles in their mid-30s to 40s conquering the dance floor.. so lucky it was juz nim n i who went in to take a look first since it was free enterance for ladies..

so in the end we left Shanghai Sally's and went to Cheeky Monkey.. the cover was $20 with a drink.. there was a crowd in there.. and the crowd looks good too.. plus it's R&B and hip-hop all nite..so we danced together.. den it became nim n i.. we went to get shots i think i got 4 and half shots n nim had 4 and a half shot too.. so u can imagine we were kinda high.. at least i was.. so anyway.. nim went onto the podium... n unlike anywhere else, the podium is kinda small.. it can feet like 5 person the max.. so nim went up.. with her short skirt.. she had the limelight.. hahaha.. so she came down and both of us were dancing in the crowd, n forgot abt the guys.. so there was this indian guy- shaun dancing to me.. hoping that i wld dance back.. but i was dogding and getting away from him... so anyway he asked:"can i dance with you" so i said alright.. since i din haf anyone to dance to den n someone was aft nim.. we both danced.. hahahahaha.. we went out to get some fresh air and as i was kinda tipsy he tried to fresh me up.. i was still aware of wads going on.. so i stopped him.. sth worse happened.. but all is well.. im fine n all.. n i kinda ditched him at like 0220 when the club is closing at 0300.. but in the end there was this other guy la.. im not sure if he is a malay or chinese..very cute.. haf an indonesian accent thou..but he is a Singaporean.. so anyway..he was not any better than Shaun.. but it wasnt as traumatising as Shaun's action.. anyway...

down to one conclusion- guys at club are looking for girls that they can bring to a hotel or have sex with.. and a piece of advice for girls- everything is in the name of fun.. know wad u r doing.. stop at where u shld n dun go overboard.. cos we're at the lost...

RESULTS!!!

RESULTS!!!

Results... Piping hot results... juz got it rite from NPal.. YAY!!! i passed my Business Management!! yipee... remember?? business managment?? that paper which i got distracted and forgot the last page?? YUP!!! the result is not good thou.. but THANK GOD.. at least i passed.. alrite.. results for this semester.. hehe... lucky lucky lucky... quite satisfied with the results this time round.. but still can be better... i'll work harder.. so glad that i got an A+ for accounts!!! but truly, hard work pays off well.. and we shld work hard to achieve it... I'LL WORK HARDER FOR NEXT SEMESTER!!

alrite.. now the clubbing part last nite.. i went to join charlotte and her friends at Chinablack..free cover plus free flow.. guys out there, dun pout.. hehe.. the queue there was damn long.. waited for some 15 mins before getting in.. thanx char.. for coming down to acc me in the queue.. hehe.. as soon as we got into the club, i poured down glasses of drinks.. eagerly wanting to get high...so as i was drinking, i saw Henicks(Sandy's fren) again.. and i saw the guy that i danced with at SOS the other time- Daniel.. this is a long story.. trace back:

mid-dec/nov 2003, sandy, nic, shaun, alvin n i went to club at SOS n i cldn't get in.. that was my 1st clubbing experience.. den sandy came.. and she know the guy who held the party that nite.. so u know.. somehow i got in.. anyway.. so we were drinking n drinking.. den a ger fren of one of the guys came.. so we all went to say hi.. it's geting hot in here, so take off all your clothes..sandy and i wanted to dance to this song so we left the guys, n both of us went to the dance floor.. but as soon as we squeezed to the middle of the dance floor, the song stopped.. den sandy saw this 2 guys.. they were wearing the same kinda specs and look kinda similar.. so my very smart sandy popped to one of them(Henicks) a qn:"are you twins??" the ans was no.. den Henicks and sandy was dancing away.. i din wanna dance with his fren so i stood next to sandy and danced to her.. in other words, sandy was being sandwiched... hehe.. den aft quite sometime when they wanted to be alone, Henicks said:"do u mind dancing with my fren(Daniel)??" it was hard to reject.. so i said ok.. den we danced.. n omg.. he had BAD BREATH!!! super turn off.. n he so cant dance!!! anyway.. so that was when i spot Jason.. this tall, muscular, exortic looking guy.. think nim n amanda saw him.. cute rite?!?!?! haha.. so Jason was behind me.. n i so wanted to get away from Daniel.. so i changed direction.. den i danced with Jason.. it's kinda bad la.. but im glad i did.. haha..this is my 1st clubbing experience and the BEST clubbing experience i ever had..

ok.. so back to current situation.. so i saw him.. i dunno if i shld say hi.. n i was laughing away.. thinking wad i did to him the other day at SOS.. it was kinda farni la.. but in the end i still did say hi and went to dance with him in the dance floor.. but too bad.. the music sucked at tt time.. so we din progress much.. din wan to anyway.. haha.. so nearing to the end of the nite, we(char, wj, his fren and i) managed to get onto the podium!! the highest podium.. haha...... it was a nice view up there..looking at how hot pple get and all.. i wonder if it was a nice view for pple at the dance floor cos char n i were wearing short skirts..hahaha.. think that's about it...

I'LL WORK HARD AND PARTY HARD THE NEXT SEM!!

i miss DNA

i miss DNA

im back.. glad that im back.. so i can see u guys again.. but besides this i dun really wanna return to face my the monster at home... anyway.. i left on sunday (16/5) and return on wed (19/5).. it was a hell lot of fun.. thou it's called a camp, we stayed in a hotel, had buffet for all meals from sunday till tuesday afternoon.. den we moved to our camp site.. which wasnt that bad aft all.. we did abseiling on the 1st day.. forward abseiling and backward abseiling.. on two different heights.. 80 feet and 120 feet... i was scared when i was on the top of the cliff... but when i reached the middle part of the cliff, i cant turn back.. so i had to go all the way.. but i haf no regrets.. it was all in the name of fun.. the 2nd day we did rock climbing, flying fox, obstacle courses and night jungle trekking..

n i mean jungle.. where logs, trees and branches falls in a undesirable manner.. and huge grasshoppers, spiders and bettles are right next to you... and looking at fireflies and stick insect in real life in my entire 18 yrs on living.. it was amazing... and how dangerous the jungle is... how close u r to a cliff which is really high from the ground.. n during my solo camping, my torch went dead on me... damn!!! so i was kinda handicapped.. cos it's really dark inside.. so i had to rely on my team mates to shine for me... hehe.. on the 3rd night was the last night and the performance night.. we danced to a chinese song which we learned for only a week.. ai ni by cyndi..

i miss my camp days!!! really!! i miss the weather there.. i miss the activities that i've done there.. i miss the times where i dun haf to face some idiotic monster at home.. i miss living in a hotel room with 2 other room mates.. i miss sharing foot bubble bath with my room mates after night trekking and haf our mini concert while relaxing our feet... i miss having buffet for all meals.. i miss the indian keropok where the chef fries for all buffet sessions... i miss going around cheering for our group... i miss having my group to gather in my room late at night to practice the dance, to discuss bout cheers and grp song... i miss having the facilitators to chase pple outa my room cos it was too late at night and it was suppose to be lights off.. i miss playing games with my grp.. i miss standing at the balcony of my room and start shouting out names.. i miss standing at my balcony and munching dried mangoes.. i miss the long walk from the hotel to where all different activities are at.. i miss my grp mate.. i miss Agu.. i miss Benson.. i miss Perry.. i miss Mr Mark Tan.. i miss playing Archery sneakily at Eco Sports Hall.. i miss night trekking.. i miss abseiling.. i miss rock climbing.. i miss flying fox.. i miss gazing at the stars which u can NEVER see in singapore, not even in Sentosa or East coast... i miss having my group to sit down as a grp to do the grp song.. i miss knocking on the door of my grp mates in the middle of the night to collect out "grp t-shirts" to write 'AGU' for the dance.. i miss taking a bath with real chilly water early in the morning, and the water felt like less than 20 degree celsius.. i miss almost everything there.. i miss my trip there!!!! i miss my DNA camp!!!

my grp song:
ten cows arising
after solo-camping
reaching out to the cow above
who jumps over the moon
take a peek at the starry sky
can you see that cow so high
i say ten cows arising
into the morning light...
chorus:
cow on us Agu
cow on us Agu
cow on us to give the bestest moo
together Agu we will moo
together Agu we will moo

clubbing...

clubbing...

so this is the day when charlotte and i clubbed.. rite.. but in the end we were with wj and eugene... so the 4 of us were together for that night.. we were at chinablack.. from like 9:45pm to 12:00 am or sth like that... n since it was ladies night, char n i din haf to pay for the cover charges n drinks.. too bad tt shots were not for free... bleah! anyway the crowd at chinablack was great.. and the music is marvellous too!!! if not because of piggy, i wldn't wanna go down to zouk too.. yea.. so in the end we went to phuture... char n i popped by zouk to see how retarded the retards looked like.. all doing the same action and all.. you know, the typical mambo night stuff... yup.. n i saw piggy... he was with his ex.. n another 2 frens..

Piggy: who are you with?
me: my fren (pointing at char's direction) and another 2 frens..
piggy: 2 gers and 2 guys huh?! double date?!
me: no.... juz frens la.. who r u with??
piggy: with my ex (showing the i-dun-wan-her-to-be-here face)and 2 other frens
me: oh.. ok... i'll see u ard...

i think this was how the conversation went.. dun really remember.. only if he wasn't with his ex... anyway.. phuture was really crowded!! n i mean crowded.. like a skin on skin kinda thing... cant wait for my next clubbing experience.. i think ladies night is uch fun-ner than wkend clubbing!!! woohoo......

finally!!

finally!!

finally i saw him online last nite!!! YAY!!! n we were chatting n chatting n chatting.. n he was asking if i'm gonna club this wed at zouk... i said mebbe.. alrite.. he said he's gonna be there.... so my dearest clubbing kakis.... pls go zouk this fri... PLEASE.. pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls........ thanx babies!! lurve ya.. MMuuUUaaAAaXXxXXXxxxxXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wad m i thinking??

i dont know wad's wrong.. recently, i've been logging online aimlessly, not knowing what i want, dont know which site to go to and have no idea why m i not logging off!!! somehow i know why is this happening.. because i wanna meet him online.. and i havent seen him on msn for the past few days... agrrrrh... i hate myself when this part of me is showing!! missing someone, and hoping tt i can see him n all.. totally hate this... but y m i not seeing him?!!? something's wrong with his msn?? we're not fated??? maybe it's true that things happen when we least expect them to... oh well.. i'll expect to see him when i less expect it.. hahahaha.. contradicting... ok.. i'll psycho myself.."i'll not see him, i'll not see him, i'll not see him..." so mebbe there's a chance tt i can see him.. hahahaha.. RIGHT!!!

my dearest daniel says tt i seldom mention his name in my blog.. and since he's so nice n is my blog's all-time fan, i shall do this for you dan:
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holidays!! no programs :(

finally the exams are over... holidays!! YAY!! no programs!! BOO!!!! anyway.. ya.. so the horrid period also known as the exams period is over.. the next thing to be worrying for- RESULTS!!! argh!!! so after my last paper today, my friends- Sera, Kerrie and Lionel- and i went to fish n co to give ourselves a TREAT!!! YUM YUM!! kerrie and i shared a Seafood Platter for 2... DAMN FULL CAN?!?! hahaha

so before we left for town, we were in sch..(duh?) so anyway.. lionel was toking to piggy.. so i popped over.. and the very automatic lionel moved away (thanx dude ;)) so anyway.. i was chatting with piggy and there was this kinda awkwardness.. not awkward la juz dunno wad to tok abt tt's all.. so he nudged me.. n i pushed him.. he was like" try pushing me agian.." so i was like push.. n i got shifted instead n he was rooted... so i pushed with all my might.. this time he shifted la.. hahaha how can he not shift?? i'm like strong as a bull can.. ahhaha so after all these pushing business, i left to look for kerrie and co.

so lionel came back and he was like:"huh?? so fast tok finish alrdy ar?? i thout i left so u can tok longer?? the awkwardness is there rite??" there was a reluctance to agree to his question, but i shan't go against my conscience.. there was abit of awkwardness.. not like it's totally not there and not like it'a OBVIOUSLY there.. but like i told lionel, you gain some and you lose some.. the awkwardness was due to some apr fool prank tt i played on him- i told him i had a crush on him and all.. den he said tt it's juz a small infatuation and it'll wear off.. and i said HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL.. cos i din wanna admit tt i was confessing.. so tt's all abt april's fool.. ya.. so i was saying tt i gained some and i lost some.. i gained knowing was he was thinking and how he thout about me.. but i lost the closeness between us..

oh well.. im glad things is this way now.. things dun always happens the way we wan them to.. n like wad char say.. life is abt appreciating.. good tt things are like that now.. anyhow.. not like i regretted playing the so-called prank on him... i've given my best shot n i've got no regrets- william... anyway.. i really need to get myself out of this pile of shitified-admiration shit!!! someone pls pull me up!!n i understand tt i shld be the one pulling myself up!!

lastly, if anyone has any programs or jobs during the hol, leave a tag!!! i NEED something to do in the hols!!

close frens

san: u dun FIND close frens
san: u MAKE close frens
san: me n you were so buay gam last time
san: y r we best frens now??
san: if i can FIND u as my best fren
san: we wouldnt have gone thru the "i hate ky,i hate sandy" part
san: rite?

appreciative?? unappreciative??

I was talking to my date- Daniel last night..
Dan: let me tell you wad has been on my mind for the past few weeks..
Me: ok.. and what is it??
Dan: i feel that when u r happy, you're with piggy, n only when you're sad that you're with me..
THIS IS SO NOT TRUE!!!! Not true.. it should be like "when I'm with piggy that I'm happy.." not like when I'm happy I'll throw my arms around him..NOT TRUE NOT TURE!!! And if you're reading this, Daniel, I'm happy when I'm with you too.. and it's not like I do NOT appreciate you!! I do!! U ought to be shot even having this thout to cross ur mind!!! so.. anyway, we continued..
Dan: and I feel that he is not appreciating you the level of appreciation you have for him..
Me: be contented with what you ALREADY have..
Dan: ya.. but I think you should be appreciated more than this..
Me: life will be better if you think of what you already have and be contented with it rather than thinking of what you CAN/ SHOULD have, and make yourself miserable.. and that expecting a little lesser will make your life much happier.. isn't it so??

See, it's a long way that I reach this stage.. not like we're attached or we're living happily ever after sort of thing..but more like looking back at what you didn't have.. I had this OMG-he's-here feeling even before I know he's name, even before I know he's a nationality, even before I know he was from some boy school, even before I know he's a damn good athlete.. although all of these sort that I mentioned is like written all over his face.. hahahahah.. moving along, so ya.. this OMG-he's-here feeling continued from last sem to this semester..

This guy that I first saw in my S&W, last semester, cheering Carol on for her standing broad jump! I think that was when I noticed him.. he became my motivator.. cos he motivated me jumped like damn far.. like a 170 or something like that.. anyway.. since then he's been known as my "MOTIVATOR".. then this semester, I was in the lift in block 50 going for my very first CATS lesson..in the lift, SK n JY was asking me which class I was in.. so I was like "er.. T38D and T58.. wad bout u??" and before I could even finish my sentence, I felt this guy peering through the people in the lift and finally my eyes met his.. I think that was when he realize my existence.. then we entered the same class room.. We became CLASSMATES!!! I was thrilled by the fact that we're in the same class for at least one module.. soon, our tutor wants us to be split into groups.. my dearest friend, Ching Yi, somehow manages to get Piggy into our group.. she rox man!! So we were in the same project group for IAC and CATS.. this brought us even closer to each other.. especially IAC cos we had to do come community service kinda thing.. so ya.. we got even closer.. and sometimes when we were talking, he wouldn't mind telling me wads on he's mind and sometimes he wld say his prob too.. but really seldom la.. better than nothing rite?? so one day I went clubbing with my usual clubbing kakis at Shanghai Sally's n I gave him a msg saying that the club was REALLY EMPTY!!! And I meant really empty!! And he CALLED me back!! He was saying that he might be going to Zouk later on, and tt we cld go together next time.. COOL!! And on my Bday nite, he knew that we were going to club, he was sweet in a way.. he said "if ANYTHING, call me" but in the end he din appear too.. anyway, so I was sharing with him the pics tt we took on my bday nite, he commented tt I looked gd *shy shy* hahaha.. so I was asking him why is his status always 'away' on msn?? He said that's cos he doesn't wanna talk to some pple and he doesn't wanna chat with so many pple in a time.. but he'll reply most of the time to pple that he wanna chat with, pple like me, he dun mind talking to.. *awwwwww* blush!!! we also exchange songs, pics, craps n lotsa craps over the msn!!! See.. he isn't that unappreciative after all..

So you see, from a TOTAL STRANGER to a PROJECT MATE, then to a FREN.. not like we're SUPER CLOSE FRENS but be glad that at least we're not on BAD-TERMS.. isn't that enough?? What more should I even ask for right?? What else can I ask for??? Shouldn't I be contented already?? Considering the fact that we were TOTAL strangers.. what I should do is to thank God for what He'd given me, and that I should be contented with what I have and be happy with it.. isn't it amazing how things are placed in your life?? How you can be related from a stranger to a friend..

I'm contented with what I'm having now, or what i already have.. and probably we cld go clubbing together someday.. hahaha.. wish wish wish.. n I hope that things will remain like this (or better will be good.. geez).. but shan't be greedy la!! anyway, this is just a crush/ infatuation after all, so I dun really put too much hope in this.. cos the higher the expectation, the heavier the fall will be.. yup.. n if he ever sees this blog, I'LL BE SO DEAD!!! So pple who have access to this blog, pls dun give this webbie away.. kinda personal, but I dun mind sharing with close frens like YOU!!! Thanx people!! MUAX!!!!!!